Thanks guys, love and appreciate you all. Y’all are real people and this forum has the best ones.
Got real close but I did not climb in to a whiskey bottle, glad I didn’t I know how that ends. Popped 400 mg of the edibles that night and felt absolutely nothing, that was a sign. Mind and body were under extreme duress, that was a realization that no drug was going to do anything. Haven’t used thc since then (I was a daily user). Not saying I wont ever again or have anything against it, I just want to raw dog life for a while.
My time has been consumed by work and family recently just to keep everything aligned and focused on the future. So much change in an abrupt timeframe mindfukked me for a minute there but I’m not giving in.
I believe this virus has finally been kicked, hit a body weight low of 238 on scale yesterday lol, should have signed up for a NPC show with this sick, jacked physique lol (pun intended). Joint ache has subsided and appetite returning.
Ill be reassessing training and diet, diving in to Vertical Diet by Stan and implementing that in to my daily life.
Thanks again for the kind words gents, it is appreciated and will be reciprocated should anyone ever need anything. Stay true.