I'm very curious about the psychology of bodybuilding. What has inspired you to workout and become a bodybuilder? Was it childhood trauma, low self-esteem, addiction or something like that? As for me, I was always abused and bullied by my parents and classmates that I'm weak, skinny, ugly and no one will ever love me for the reason. And I'm still never satisfied with results thinking that I'm not big enough.
Thanks for sharing and sorry you feel that way of not being satisfied.
Take a look with and besides insecurity from being bullied the bodybuilding ideal of being very large and muscular is not held that high in esteem by people who don´t have this interest.
Love and feeling good although we mistakenly think we will get it from things and other people Indian vedanta philosophy say we truly have to find it inside.
It might be hard to even try to comprehend but vedanta actually says that our true essence is bliss and love and when we think we get it from people or outside objects it is just a reflection of our own true essence.
Nevertheless I am quite caught in these things but although difficult childhood and upbringing I have been blessed with a loving marriage and some spiritual experiences that has given me a fundamental faith that no matter outside circumstances there still the fundamental power of love that runs through the whole of creation and each and everyone one of us are truly a part of it. No matter how hard it might to believe for some who haven´t been convinced from personal experience and I realise it is hard for people with emotional trauma.
But it is my personal conviction that we are always loved and within ourselves we can find the true source of love.
I read mainly Marvel super hero comics since I was a child and thought the muscles looked cool. Was a bit too much of a partyanimal as a teenager and youngster and could never had the energy to train when partying hard 3 days a week,
At age 33 I was stressed from work, achy back getting slightly fat from wrong food and drink.
I started training and became quite serious about it. Quit drinking and studied natural remedies and healthy life style.
Then at 37 I reached my physical peak muscularly. Trained as hard as I could thrice a week and tried eating a lot but wouldn´t get any bigger although my stomach got tired.
Now a few years later I had some difficult years and had other things to do besides training but am not worried about looks, well just a little bit because now instead of young and vain, I am now middleage and vain and if I could only muster the energy I know I still have a good basic physique.
Today though and lately my general energy levels haven´t been well and today too much stims and instead of getting down to some other business I have just been riding it out typing here.
When I have been training lately though rather than thinking about the results I have been very happy of being so present in the moment of training and listening to intense techno music that I normally do I also enjoy a feeling of extasy when working out lol
But now getting older I think I need to aim to train in a more relaxed way because I get too exhausted training too hard.
Find love within and train with love as well as love when not training!
