Still alive. I'll be having some more time in my life here so I'll begin to be more active again.
This has been the worst peak I've ever had. I've missed a squat every single week, missed a bench, and missed a deadlift.
Looking back, I may have peaked early, at the end of my final strength block. Then probably lost a bit of weight during the deload. The first week of the peak I was sick the entire week. Ended up just hammering myself into the ground. Lost appetite and motivation, all my lifts grinded, I lost 10lbs of bodyweight.
Final squat session, I dinged the safety pins going down. I made up for it and was able to hit my opening deadlift with a hook grip and second attempt bench.
I've finally had some life, appetite, and motivation creeping back into me within the last couple of days so hopefully I can perform not as poorly as I began to anticipate. However, I don't believe I'll perform as well as I had intended going into this. I had a lot of momentum going and it all just dumped. I'll still be giving it my all, though.
Meet is the 15th. I won't have much to post until then but I'll keep you all updated. If there's a live YouTube feed of the meet, I'll post it here. I've been seeing that with USAPL meets around here recently.
Happy belated Christmas & New Years. I'll be catching back up here again.