LovingtoLift
Banned
To be completely honest with you, I love the gym. I go 5-6 days a week. I eat clean almost every single day, where I don't eat any fast foods or anything. Once or twice a week at the most I do enjoy having a nice juicy cheeseburger or Mexican food. The rest of the time its Chicken and broccoli and brown rice. I really would like to get to single digit bodyfat one day but to be honest with you my goal is just to put on muscle. As much muscle as I possibly can. I love doing cardio also when Im at the gym. Ive been staying away from it for the last couple weeks though due to focusing on adding muscle as much as possible.
Im not really sure if getting to low digit bodyfat is really worth it to me though. I don't even compete and don't have any aspirations to compete on a stage in a bodybuilding contest. I just want to gain mass and strength. Today I was driving around for lunch and pulled into a parking lot of a pizza place. Later this afternoon after work, I Will be working on legs at the gym. So I said to myself that I wanted pizza and lots of it. I said "you must eat to grow." I sat there with the car ignition off for a couple minutes and pondered if I should walk in and eat the pizza or not. Like I was some junkie sitting in front of a bar and making the decision of falling off the wagon again. I mean wtf is wrong with me that I don't even think I can eat pizza anymore because I want to have an 8 pack and perfectly rounded pecs? I know this is a very tough thing for me because of all the weight I worked hard to lose when I was 315 pounds and got down finally to 212. Now after two years of lifting and being in the gym I currently am 226.
I really think this is becoming unhealthy for me. I am about to say **** this sport and just go to the gym and lift and say **** it. Its a love hate relationship. I love how lifting makes me feel, I love eating healthy foods, But at the same time actually feeling like I can't go to a pizza buffet once in a while without ruining my gains? Even if I did have a cheeseburger on Saturday night with fries? WTF is that? Maybe I will take up powerlifting instead cause having to do what I did today where I almost drove myself crazy is not healthy mentally.Powerlifters don't worry about anything but getting stronger! My main focus right now is to gain strength and mass so what the **** am I worrying about going to a pizza buffet for once in a while? Beating myself up over a sport that I don't even make a living at , let alone ever competing in, and just do for fun, is one ****ed up mindset. Do I want to look my best? Of course I do. Do I really need to be 8 % bodyfat to look my best? **** no.
So I did say **** it and went in the pizza place. I went to the counter, paid for the buffet, and ate two entire pizzas on my own with a large diet pepsi.
Im not really sure if getting to low digit bodyfat is really worth it to me though. I don't even compete and don't have any aspirations to compete on a stage in a bodybuilding contest. I just want to gain mass and strength. Today I was driving around for lunch and pulled into a parking lot of a pizza place. Later this afternoon after work, I Will be working on legs at the gym. So I said to myself that I wanted pizza and lots of it. I said "you must eat to grow." I sat there with the car ignition off for a couple minutes and pondered if I should walk in and eat the pizza or not. Like I was some junkie sitting in front of a bar and making the decision of falling off the wagon again. I mean wtf is wrong with me that I don't even think I can eat pizza anymore because I want to have an 8 pack and perfectly rounded pecs? I know this is a very tough thing for me because of all the weight I worked hard to lose when I was 315 pounds and got down finally to 212. Now after two years of lifting and being in the gym I currently am 226.
I really think this is becoming unhealthy for me. I am about to say **** this sport and just go to the gym and lift and say **** it. Its a love hate relationship. I love how lifting makes me feel, I love eating healthy foods, But at the same time actually feeling like I can't go to a pizza buffet once in a while without ruining my gains? Even if I did have a cheeseburger on Saturday night with fries? WTF is that? Maybe I will take up powerlifting instead cause having to do what I did today where I almost drove myself crazy is not healthy mentally.Powerlifters don't worry about anything but getting stronger! My main focus right now is to gain strength and mass so what the **** am I worrying about going to a pizza buffet for once in a while? Beating myself up over a sport that I don't even make a living at , let alone ever competing in, and just do for fun, is one ****ed up mindset. Do I want to look my best? Of course I do. Do I really need to be 8 % bodyfat to look my best? **** no.
So I did say **** it and went in the pizza place. I went to the counter, paid for the buffet, and ate two entire pizzas on my own with a large diet pepsi.