again bro, it seems like your relying on supplements to make your life better, I know how that feels I myslef and many others on here are somewhat addicted as well, I can t remember the last time that I wasnt "ON" something be it creatine, protein powder, prohormones, or whatever, but the answer isnt in a pill or powder, its upstairs in your head and I honestly think you should get rid of everything that is a pill or powder and seee what the doctor says, he might end up giving you hormone replacement or soemthing, I really dont know, and who am I really seeing as I take a ton of supplements myself. just a thought man they may be playing tricks with your mind, and you dont need to prove anything to a girl. mine just stormed out cause shes upset over god knows what " I dont know how to love ehr when shes upset" or some crap, but you know what? I love her but wont let her bring me down, or blame me for her problems, Im gonna keep moving forward, and if its not with her man, then by myslef or with someone else, Dont base your life on "Bein g with someone" or "showing someone you dont need them" get to the gym, pump those weights, do that cardio, get a haircut lol, whatever you gotta do to bring yourself up, o do it for the next few days. start living for yourself for the time being, its not being selfish man sometimes you gotta simply look out for #1, we've all been there, thats the beauty of all this, there is a ton of help here for you, and all the posts are showing you that. i personally feel good for the fact that Im trying to hel you, and one day my friend you will help someone in the same spot as you are in. But Im not doing this for me, Im doing it cause Ive cried out for help before to friends and family and it fell on deaf ears, and I almost made a really selfish,stupid decision to take my own life. A move only a coward makes, you dont strike me STALLION as a coward, you came on here with all these muscle heads, all these big guys and asked for help which is a great victory for you in its own write. and the am brothers are here now, ok? Im off to the gym now cause my girl has me in the dumps for no reason, but I wont let her bring me down, I go now thinking of you, of all you guys, Id be dead id it wasnt for exercising and the commitment that ti takes, somehow it has kept me going. I'll be thinking about you man, I'll rip it up for you good, Im gonna curl the 55's for 8 today, most i ever did was 6 in each hand, today i go for 8 and I KNOW I CAN DO IT! and I KNOW you can get through this minor little bump in your road. I'll be with you the whole way man, others may come in and out but im here till your ok, I want constant updates, I want to know too exactly what the doctor said, ( IVE SEEN LOTS FOR DEPRESSION ) in no way am I trying to be your mom, I just need the info to help as best i can. Im off bro, i suggest if your up to it you do the same!