13 Month Transformation (w/ serious dedication)
- 03-08-2009, 07:10 PM
- 03-09-2009, 01:29 AM
went through a major downfall after playing with PP and SD by CEL. Faced extremely high liver values and terribly, I mean god-aweful anxiety/depression coming off. Gained absolutely no weight at all, infact I dropped from 184 down to 175 from the stress and catching the flu during PCT.
Still trying to get my sh*t together. My anxiety has subsided and I"m finally off xanax and sleep meds. Something in that SD or PP messed up me up really bad for the first time in my life.
However, I dare to say I look better than ever in a weird way. I Lost mostly fat and maybe a tad of muscle in my shoulder as my shoulder strength is down, but everything else is stronger. I'm up to repping 95's flat DB now and 45lb weighed dips/pullups. Will post some pictures soon once I feel i'm back on track.
Going to stay away from the hormones for a good while and take the natural track. Although natural is slow and boring, there is a few pluses, you feel great all the time and keep 100% every bit of muscle you earn.
- 03-11-2009, 09:48 PM
Lookin huge man! I saw your post on wanting to run a cycle and I would actually advise against it. Not cuz of any of the sides but do to the fact you look very proportionate for your height. Unless you are trying to go for the competitive look? Either way good job
03-13-2009, 12:22 AM
well my life goal is to weigh 200lbs. I'm already at 180lbs at 5' 8'' 10% BF. My arms are around 16inches. Id like to get stronger/bigger but I'm going to finish out these last 20lbs naturally. I'm guessing it should take me about 1.5-2yrs on my own. Going to be trying out Green Magnitude (creatine) and Anabolic Pump for now.
03-16-2009, 11:41 AM
that sucks man... i had that same thing happen to me after running trenedrol stacked with havoc. I literally could not ride in a car without having a panic attack and even made a trip to the ER thinking i was having a heart attack
03-16-2009, 03:18 PM
03-16-2009, 07:15 PM
Gotta say man what you have accomplished is very impressive, very inspirational. You Def set the bar high at 44 lbs your first year.
04-09-2009, 05:07 PM
04-30-2009, 06:28 PM
05-07-2009, 01:43 PM
Amazing results man... its pretty inspiring. BTW, I can't help but laugh at your facial exression on the may 08 pic. you look pretty dang serious there haha.
05-07-2009, 07:19 PM
figured id update you guys.
I have a grade III varicocele, dont know if this relates, but it triggered me to check my T levels. Past 5 months have shown Total T in low 300's with Pituitary LH at 1.5. However, my I feel "normal" and I'm still getting stronger. I've dropped some weight down to 178 but still just as cut.
I feel exactly the same as I did before using any oral prohormone/steroid. I just think this is why I reacted so strongly usage of these methyls. I've come to the conclusion that I've had lower test levels throughout my life and my body has adapted to hold muscle extremely efficiently, thus I explode on any PH. My body was probably used to the 3 years of beating it took with low levels and then when it received a month supply of epistane, it went nuts.
Its bitter sweet to find this out. No doctor wants to help me around here. I feel fine, I am NOT feeling shutdown and I TRULY believe its not related to PH usage. I've always had oddly little amount of facial hair and my size never equals my strength.
When I look back on highschool through college some things may have finally clicked in my mind:
-not much facial hair compared to everyone else in my family
-rediculous stupid gains on havoc
-brain foggy/really sleepy all the time after 3pm
-a nap in the afternoon after classes has always been oddly necessary
-sex drive did indeed drop somewhat after my junior year of high school, I remember taking tribulus/maca root trying to see if I could figure out the problem
-**Mood swings/Easily Irritated - This DEFINITELY started happening around my junior year of High School. My family/friends/and GF certainly can testify. I thought my testosterone was raising.
After seeing these blood tests and rethinking my past few years...I think I have minor symptoms of lower end T.
But, even tho i'm 99.9% sure these lower T levels/LH are probably my normal levels, theres still .1% of me that wishes I knew for sure it wasn't related to havoc.
PLEASE get baseline blood tests guys before you cycle anything in your life.
I'm officially traveling to see Dr. John Crisler next tuesday in hopes of maybe HCG Monotherapy or maybe TRT+HCG. I really want to see for possibly the first time what 800+ average levels for my age. I seriously believe I have the genetic structure to build alot of muscle, its just I've always lacked the Testosterone.
Once again, before you people started pointing fingers with the "under 21 steroids, this is why you don't take orals blah blah blah" I'm VERY certain this isn't related.
05-07-2009, 08:03 PM
good luck. I hope for most people getting bloods done is a given though. if not they never know what they are supposed to recover to.
05-07-2009, 08:37 PM
I feel COMPLETELY recovered. In fact my T levels were up to higher than they are now, 466 ONLY 14 days in PCT 5 months ago using Toremifene and Reversitol.
I feel exactly the same in every aspect as I have my whole life so I guess a previous blood test probably woudn't matter to much. The fact that my LH dropped from 4.2 on toremifene down to 1.5 tell me its probably secondary hypogonadism. People with pituitary shutdown from overuse of prohormones DO NOT repond to clomid...their LH stays down.
05-07-2009, 09:33 PM
05-07-2009, 09:39 PM
you are certainly correct. No way to ever no and no reason speculate. The facts are the facts. I guess the only thing would be to try clomiphene and then HCG. Its pretty much predictable that LH will drop back again as it did previously. If LH does indeed drop back to low levels, then HCG monotherapy would probably work. However, I don't believe in HCG monotherapy as you are shutting down the pituitary anyhow. Whats the point of HCG monotherapy when you can take HCG along with TRT and have supplemented test alongside natural HCG stimulated Test.
I have lots of confidence that Dr. Crisler should be able to help tremendously...and if it means trying out TRT as a test to see how much different I feel, its not like you face permanent effects immediately.
My only concern, if I truly have secondary hypo, I would hate to have to freeze sperm and go on TRT / become infertile. This is why I wish I new if this was 100% natural, the way I was born, and no doubt in my mind related to designers.
05-07-2009, 10:45 PM
why not just deal with it till you have kids which most likely wont be another 10 years. and then start trt. you can get dr. evaluations and such, but if you truly want to stay fertile just live with it another 5 years
05-08-2009, 12:16 AM
Seriously, I don't want to settle for less in my life. 20s are the prime years of a man's life. You are supposed to reach your physical peak, have the highest sex drive, mental concentration, etc. I mean I believe I would have had steady progressive muscle gains if I had normal T levels for my age. I probably would have come much closer to where I am without PH/steroids.
I really want to see how much better TRT feels before I decide to "wait until I have kids". If its really that much of an extraordinary difference between 300>800-900 level Total T and 9>>27 level Free T, then Id certainly be fine with sperm storage and HCG. I mean on HCG with periodic cycling of HMG, you can remain fertile for a long amount of time. HCG maintains LH and HMG will stimulate FSH.
06-01-2009, 11:47 AM
Wow.. Im just remembering all of the bull**** you went through. anyways, Its good to hear your getting your **** done. Congrats! but on another note: Its pretty ****ty you have to consider TRT, at such a young age. Thats life changing, and i would personally wait another couple of years to judge if you need the TRT. If your still producing sperm and getting hard-on's, I dont see the need for it, especially if you have the ability to gain strength. Just give it time man, good luck with med-school too, chemistry is kicking me right in the balls everyday.
06-03-2009, 01:53 PM
06-23-2009, 10:57 PM
Clomid is great
Well these pics are a certainly with an over-the-top pump fresh out of the gym from USP Jacked. My arms don't balloon like that all day long Weighing a solid 181.5lbs on average but my arms are alot bigger than the last pics. Tad bit of fat around the waste....Id say 13% BF.
Anyhow, a big F-U to everyone who said low-t was all in my head and that I should see a shrink instead of a doctor. Well, let me tell you what guys...Ive been on clomid at 25mg/day for 4 weeks now and my workouts are moving forward every week little by little...I'm up to doing 3 sets of 11 with 205 on bench press and 60lb weighted dip....squatting 315 parallel. My face has been alot more oily, my nuts feel firmer, sex drive is much higher. Its not quite a night/day difference, but its strong enough to let me know that I have had a problem for a LONG time.
I wish I never knew I had low-T....imagine another round of havoc LOL, not happening, ever, but I would end up competition size.
06-24-2009, 12:22 AM
06-24-2009, 08:32 AM
I find it sort of interesting because I just recently got a blood test and my ast and alt levels were through the ROOF! I think for me it was related to supps tho, and ive been off of them for about 4 weeks. Hopefully my levels drop, and I hope your situation gets better as it seems it is.
06-24-2009, 11:36 AM
06-24-2009, 11:55 AM
Once again monster, im glad you got your problem sorted it out and cant wait to see some of your new numbers as you get stronger.
06-24-2009, 01:39 PM
06-24-2009, 04:48 PM
06-24-2009, 05:30 PM
06-24-2009, 09:22 PM
So if some guy is ripped, it automatically means they are not weak? And if another guy is fat, then he is weak? lol
Monster- If your T doesn't hold, does it sound like he would put you on HCG mono-therapy?
06-25-2009, 05:03 PM
06-25-2009, 05:26 PM
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