thoughts,
man, i never had my head in the game today. i was confused all day. yesterday jj told me to take a couple warmups w knee wraps, but warmups didn't really turn out that way. there were 20 guys to a flight, and only our two monos in the warmup area. i took my opener (325) w no wraps and smoked it. when i came off, clay said he wants me to have a light wrap. i'm like, i've never had a wrap on and now my second is gonna be w one. tbh, i don't even remember the 340, but jj said it flew up. clay told me at least 365 for my third. i was like, i came into this as a tune up for the achilles, and wasn't planning on pushing it. i woulda been happy w 355. well, after looking at the film, today was the day i had 4 plates in me. the 365 looked like a warm up, and the judges told me so.
bench, the number in my head today going in was 265. opener flew off my chest and i think i made a tactical error here, that started yesterday. thursday, i had planned on opening w 235, but went w 240 when jj asked what it was gonna be yesterday. i got a little cocky i think, yeah, 5 lbs, but i think that 5 lbs cost me 15 today benching. if i woulda opened w 235, my second woulda been 260-265, and i.........would.......like......to think i woulda got 260.
i would like to point out that after i missed my last two attempts, jj came up to me and (jokingly) said "don't embarrass my gym."
so what do i do?
deadlift, god i'm stupid. i was really running a little hot after missing 2 bench attempts in a row, RAN up to the bar, ripped it up and it was like sunday at the gym, i paid no attention to tony's down command and looked like an ass.
at this point, i just went off by myself for a few, came back and could have bit a nail in half i was so pissed. shane said he saw the look on my face and just grabbed me by the head, and said just do it. i stuck to the plan and took 405 for my second and it was perfect. here i wish i woulda took a minute and looked at some film, but i was still pretty pissed. stuck to the plan and went w 425 for the third, but i'm pretty sure i left at least 10 on the bar.
in the end, i easily left ~30 for my squat, and ~10 for the deadlift. w/o my tactical error on my bench, there's another ~10 lbs
what could have been...