Perplexed as to what is going on with me!

iimgauravk

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Hello,
I am 25 years old male from India.
Past: from 2009-2014
1. I had high libido, very good and dense hair on scalp, no sexual problems whatsoever.
2. Very good cognitive brain function, maths topper in my colege days and very good memory, academically very strong, emotionally very sensitive in a good way
3. But for this whole time period I was on SSRIs also, going on and off because I had Pure OCD

Period 2014-17 till today:
In December of 2013, I went off Prozac 20mg and after one month I took some height increasing supplement from India and also ordered Growthflexvpro from Canada
Took these for approximately 15 days straight. Overdosed on Growthflexvpro package which was nothing but L arginine and L orthinine 500mg and 250mg capsules respectively. I took like 10 capsules per day whereas it was recommended only one or two capsules per day
Immediately after completing that package , even while on them I started suffering from extreme brain fog, no emotions, completely numbness in brain and genitals, erection problems, ejaculation not going with full force just dribbling out. Most of all, I lost my imagination power, like how we imagine things while seeing a girl, the feel of her body parts, all that. I lost a major chunk of front hair just days after this. And now I can easily be put into Androgenic Alopecia case. Plus now even simple math calculations cannot be performed by me. Severe memory impairment. It is like my total personality has changed. I thought this would eventually go away and therefore I waited for four months till October 2014. But then got frustrated and thought naively that maybe SSRIs would cure the imbalance (I was strictly thinking in terms of neurosymptoms that time, that these may have been hormonal problem did not even cross my mind) and then I started taking antidepressants again.
This continued till this year April 2017 when finally I got my blood get tested.
And to the horror of mine, my testosterone came 163 ng/dl, then again I tested at 106ng/dl. (Full blood reports attached)
I was so happy that maybe only testosterone is the problem and then, I started taking Testosterone shots, 160mg per week for nearly a month but to my despair I found that apart from decent erections, it didn't solve my vast mental symptoms. I could not even feel anything in the first place due to emotional numbness I have been experiencing , that this increased testosterone could have worked properly. But I only experimented with Testosterone for one month, don't know if I should have given it more time.
By searching the net for similar symptoms, the side effects I am suffering are very much similar to those experienced by Propecia (I have never used any other drug other than SSRI). Both the sexual and mental symptoms likewise, especially the mental ones.
Can anybody tell me what's going on? I tried Testoviron as mentioned above for one month but nothing great happened.
Please check my blood reports attached and advise if possible as I am really struggling now.
 
Need to run test longer than a month bro. What does your doctor say? Did you just stop your testosterone shots?
 
Sounds like you got something you weren't looking for in those caps, something anabolic and no PCT can really hurt you. I naively ran my first cycle without a PCT cuz some ******* in the gym introduced me to it. Honestly I didn't feel right for a year until I figured out what was going on. Brain for, depression, erection issues, anxiety. Luckily I was able to fully recover, I remember thinking I ruined my life lol. Where are you getting your test? From a doctor? Sounds to me like you need to run a month of clomid and reassess.
 
You need to address these issues with a professional not randoms on a forum, with a history of ssri use, please for the love of god don't do anything unless it is under direction of someone who is completely over your whole situation. /thread
 
Yes, it is Doctor prescribed. I took 160mg Testoviron (Testosterone enanthate) for around six weeks, but libido didn't pick up by then, erections were good. I stopped for the fear of losing fertility. Here in India, one can get Tesosterone without prescription also.:cool3: I haven't done any clomid or HPTA restart till now. But I want to, but what about floaters on clomid, so I am holding off till someone can guid me here, the safe way to do a HPTA restart. I have already so many side effcets can't risk eye floaters now.
 
cooterflap
The testosterone I got from a pharmacy is legit , this much I am sure.
I can go for clomid restart but can you please advise me the safe way to do that? And what about eye flaoters. Too scared of them after all the side effects I am currently suffering from.
 
Joedoubledose
No, I am staying away from Prozac or any SSRI for that matter. It has been almost four months since I stopped them.
 
you from iim? sorry to hear about your ordeal.. as others have stated its best to see an anti aging doctor in india and have a proper test protocol in place. unless you have a reasonable idea on the root cause from a doctor who understands TRT protocolsits useless to play roulette with any supplements.
 
In 2014 , I got selected in IIM Kozhikode, but days before that I took these stupid height increasing supplements and they have crippled me cognitively, so I backed off from joining but haven't changed the username. Tragedy I know.
 
dang man that sucks.. if u are that determined to get selected in IIM am sure ull get to the bottom of this as well. keep us posted. am from india too (chennai), moved to US in 2001.
 
theres a lot of knowledgeable folks in this forum, it could also be worth your time posting your complete test results including test, free test, LH, FSH, E2 .. etc.. that ways someone can guide you in the right direction.
 
One of the test I did in Apollo Chennai, results are here:
Free t4 0.9 Range 0.8-1.8ng/dl (this is low in other tests also)
Total T4 thyroxine 7.7 Range 4.6-10.5 ug/dl
TSH 1.96 Range 0.42-4.2 uiU/ml
FSH 3.2 Range 1.4-15.4 miU/ml
LH 3.6 Range 1.2-7.8 miU/ml
Prolactin 13 Range 3-18 ng/ml
Testosterone total 163 ng/dl Range 260-1000 ng/dl
Free testosterone 9.00 Range 9.1-32.2 pg/ml
E2 21.61 pg/ml
 
chocolateClen
No, this is before I experimented with Testosterone shots.
This is only one blood test, I have done others also which had readings of Total Testosterone as 106ng/dl, one was even 44ng/dl. After getting these values only, I decided to try Testosterone shots.
 
Did you have withdrawals? Of course your brain lost cognitive function when you stopped SSRI's - these, along with a number of other drugs in similar classes, affect how neurotransmitters work in the body - causing a very unnatural environment by blocking the reuptake of said transmitters.

Sounds a lot like when body builders use incredibly strong drugs like Tren for 12-16 weeks at rather high doses and then crash after their body comes to realize that it has been operating on an unrealistic amount of dopamine due to the overly strong androgen.

SSRI's probably do the same in regard to serotonin levels. Your serotonin levels crashed, and your body recognizes "normal" serotonin levels as insufficient. It's like going from 1000mg of Tren every week to 100mg of Test. Of course it sucks to be normal again.

In the mean time, take some glutamine & 5-HTP and GO TO THE DOCTOR!
 
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