Hardcore diet is killing me!!!

[Davidlee]

Man your too kind. Big confidence booster thou, thanks. I always see these guys that are late teens and early twenties now, and its like, are they bigger than me??? I'm like, I have been working out for 20 years so I should totally look like the hulk yet no.... They can't have been lifting for more than a few years, yet I am questioning weather they are bigger or stronger than me. Its depressing and a motivator too. Thats why I am using a lil gear. I have worked out every which way possible. I know in my heart, I hit my genetic potential, I mean yea, I will fluctuate up and down, but I have already been to my top, and I wanna progress further. I didn't understand at that age, that I would plateau genetically because I was always making gains. I realize I have a tattoo on my calf that I did myself that says no steroids, funny lol. I did that when I was 18 with a homemade tattoo gun I made out of legos, toy car motor, ink pen, guitar string, and a model train transformer. Also put a retarded looking 100 pound plate on my upper right thigh. Only tat I'm proud of I got first, was the one on my right shoulder, a guy squatting in flames, the meaning being if he gets it up, he lives, if he goes down, he goes down burning. I will post a pic of it. Was very hard for me to make myself post that pic of me fat and my few days ago pic. I am never happy with how I look, and I feel I am not good enough ever, and I guess I was picked on too much as a child because I felt I would get negative comments on my pics that I looked like a bitch or that I am lying about my stats or achievements cuz I'm just not big enough to do what I claim etc. Damn, look at me, I have a friggin complex huh?

Ha man I am new to the entire working out thing and for you to be 31, workout like you do, maintain a healthy family relationship, and work the hours you do... Well man that's an inspiration.. Most people do not have the discipline you have. I hope to be as dedicated as you at 31..

[hvylifter]

Ok on to today. When I woke I was hungry as hell. Barely able to keep from fixing a boat load of food. Got my supps in and gear, slimextreme and coffee and had two servings of kashi. Fine now. My back however, hurts like hell. Can't bend over at all. Hard to sit down or get up, same with laying down etc. Great pain... Lol, lets see, this has to be number oh 600 hahaha. I lost count how many times my back has felt like it was gonna sheer off. Yea, not really proud of that but still it is what it is. LOL DURABILITY. hahaha. I'm mad hurting thou. Gonna watch a lil more tv, go get my boys cleets, rent movies and prob do my HIIT cardio during a movie. Wifes gone with sister to go get nephews. Won't be back till tomorrow night. OMG, I just realized!!! Who's gonna cook DINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !! hahah. Mummm not only my food making abilities all day, but dinner too, yeay!!!! :-( The first pic is the squat tat I got when I was 18. Still like that one. The second pic is when I was way into gamma radiation back in the um before time??? Third one is me at 16 hahaha. Then I believe the meet pic is one of the Nationals I won. Then its me at my fattest, 305, fookin sexy!!! HAHAHA. The next pic is where I got shot in the stomach with a .38 special by a stupid azz friend of mine messing with a gun when he shouldn't even be touching one. Lol part of the reason Ima C.C. 9mm keltec wit laser, ima shoot back!!! The last one is part of the reason I don't like zero carb diets. I am getting ready for halloween and I weigh like 200. I lost mad amounts of muscle.

[Davidlee]

Goodness man, you have been every size possible stick with where your at now tho. Only 1 way to go.. UP

[hvylifter]

Ha man I am new to the entire working out thing and for you to be 31, workout like you do, maintain a healthy family relationship, and work the hours you do... Well man that's an inspiration.. Most people do not have the discipline you have. I hope to be as dedicated as you at 31..

Thanks man.

[hvylifter]

Goodness man, you have been every size possible stick with where your at now tho. Only 1 way to go.. UP

Oh deffinitely. I know low carb diets work for some ppl, however for me, I gotta have a balanced diet, or my body eats itself. I plan to never let myself get so fat again. I was, whats the word, dilusional. Yea thats it. I ate like I always had. In high school I was about 215 my senior year, till football was out, but senior year after football, you get to sit and do shiyt at athletics, kinda was considered a senior perk. Kept lifting and eating without all the football or offseason drills. Shortly after senior year still at 18 yrs old, I was 235, but stronger. So I kept eating and lifting, not caring that I had started a stomach, because I was gaining so much strength. Over the next 4 years I went from the 220 class to the 309 class. It wasn't until I was at worlds and hanging out with this other extremely obese powerlifter(5 ta 600 pounds) and I saw how others were looking at him and how he breathed and how he got around. Well I saw myself headed that direction and it scared me. Thats when my unknowing self started dieting. Never got that fat again, but have been like 275 about 6 years ago. So easy for me to gain strength when gorging myself lol. For instance, this is what a typical day for me would be. Breakfast 4 sausage biscuits with jelly or syrup, 4 egos smothered in butter and syrup, and like 2 big azz glasses of milk. Probably snack on candy or pizza or something before lunch. Lunch could be a buffet or like I'd get two quarter pounders and fries and a shake and pop, or mix in a 20 pack of nuggets. Would always be snacking. Did go to subway sometimes, ya know eat healthy, 2 footlong meatball subs are healthy right? Dinner was usually as bad as the rest perhaps taco bell, I'd get like a mex pizza combo, and add enough other stuff to make it 3 times the meal. Prob eat again before bed too. I really ate alot. I imagine for a couple years I ate 8 to 10000 calories a day pretty regularly. Maybe more. I kinda got the diet that works for me figured out, and I have a lil will power at the table now so yep.

[hvylifter]

Time to head to town. Gonna eat on the way. Prob make a sandwich. Here's a couple vids from my past. The golf one is short and funny as hell, Its me golfing( I don't golf) at a tournament at our towns country club thats dedicated to my Dad(was a avid golfer), proceeds goes to local charitys, school for the blind, special needs children's therapy etc. The second one is me getting ready for World's in Vegas back in 99. About 11 at night after we closed the gym, I was a manager and trainer there.
YouTube - golfwithsound finalcut
YouTube - 860 Squat

[hvylifter]

Okie, got my boy cleets, and got a percussion massager for him to use on me along with my wife and my 8 yr old. I need all the rubbin I can get lol. Had a protein shake before I left. mummm, few hrs before my next meal. time ta watch some mutant movie, get massaged and prob. pass out!

[ccapone1153]

Only tat I'm proud of I got first, was the one on my right shoulder, a guy squatting in flames, the meaning being if he gets it up, he lives, if he goes down, he goes down burning.

thats sickk!! i wanta get a lifting tat not sure what or where yet th

[Davidlee]

I need to find out a diet for me. I have been going back and fourth with different diets and starting and stopping to eat different things at different times. I want to lose all my belly pudge so bad but nothing is helpin... I wish i had a trainer near me I could let look and diagnose me with what I need to do. I am going to post some pics for you in a few minutes and let you tell me what you think.

Im definitely gonna train my first kid to massage my back.

[ccapone1153]

Goodness man, you have been every size possible stick with where your at now tho. Only 1 way to go.. UP

hahaha nooo ****ttt ur body changes more than my gf's mood... n thats sayin something!

[ccapone1153]

yo davidlee, ima trainer i can help u outt with a couple of good pointers... what r ur stats (age, ht, wt, bf) if u dont no ur bf have a trainer @ ur gym measure you and lemme no

[Davidlee]

ccapone i pmed you bud

[hvylifter]

thats sickk!! i wanta get a lifting tat not sure what or where yet th

I've never once regreted it. Just make sure what you get defines you, who you are, so it will never be a mistake.

[hvylifter]

I need to find out a diet for me. I have been going back and fourth with different diets and starting and stopping to eat different things at different times. I want to lose all my belly pudge so bad but nothing is helpin... I wish i had a trainer near me I could let look and diagnose me with what I need to do. I am going to post some pics for you in a few minutes and let you tell me what you think.

Im definitely gonna train my first kid to massage my back.

Sounds like a plan man. I'm sure theres a plan that will perfectly fit your needs, and I'd deff train tha oldest to massage lol.

[hvylifter]

hahaha nooo ****ttt ur body changes more than my gf's mood... n thats sayin something!

Hahaha, well for now I plan on getting leaner, and staying that way, and every now and then, throw on some more lean size.

[soontobbeast]

soon, tell me ur not serious lolol

i wish i could say i was kidding.......i think safeway put something in their donuts and made me addicted.

at least ive gotten stronger in the past 2 weeks

im getting back on the diet tomorrow though. i thought i could handle carbs in the morning then do keto the rest of the day, but i cant, so ima just do straight keto again.

[hvylifter]

As far as your diet Davidlee, your 6'3" 185 right? On my cell right now watching a movie. Ima check out your pics soon. The amount of muscle your holding and the amount of fat you are wanting to lose would change things for me. You said you was new to lifting, alot of times I have ppl just eat properly and gain a bit of muscle before I have them cut back and raise cardio, helped them having more muscle to be the calorie furnace.

[Davidlee]

but thing is i can't gain any unwanted weight since I may be going to fire academy within next few months and i do not want to have to struggle.. So right now Im basically trying to lose my unwanted fat until I get back from there and then do a long lean bulk and add in sum gear and alot alot of protein and try to get to like 6'3'' 215 this time next year of lean muscle mass.. 30 lbs of lean muscle is alot for 12 months ,but you know im just saying.. it could take 2 years but you get the idea

[hvylifter]

Well I think I should have spaced my meals closer today, been used to the long azz days this week, gotta go right back to it monday... Prob still have some protein about 8. This was my dinner, sourkraut with fat free weenies(70 cals for kraut and 160 for the weenies). Two servings of eggbeaters 60 calories and a 25 cal slice of fat free cheese and some louisiana hot sauce. Coffee 20 calories for creamer. Yep, don't dat shiznat look YUMMY!!! hahahahaha

[hvylifter]

but thing is i can't gain any unwanted weight since I may be going to fire academy within next few months and i do not want to have to struggle.. So right now Im basically trying to lose my unwanted fat until I get back from there and then do a long lean bulk and add in sum gear and alot alot of protein and try to get to like 6'3'' 215 this time next year of lean muscle mass.. 30 lbs of lean muscle is alot for 12 months ,but you know im just saying.. it could take 2 years but you get the idea

Well my route would be a appetite suppressant and possibly a slight boost to the metabolism. Keep your workouts hard, throw in plenty of cardio and rest. Have you ever figured your average bmr? If you have and you kinda know what you burn during the day, cut it back, still not losing, cut it back more. Well that is unless you was already eating too little and your metabolism has slowed. Have a cheat day at least once a week, it stimulates your metabolism to keep it going and keep it guessing. Did you post those pics???
Its pretty cut and dry until your body tries to compensate. Burn more than you take in. Do things to keep your body from slowing. If it does slow, you need to resume a normal eating behavior for a bit and then resume diet. Its a fight to keep the muscle and lose the fat.