yup, it's official, I'm a puzzy

gibbob2 · 08-20-2008, 12:46 PM

Yup, i chickened out and guess I will be a natty forever. i spend oodles of money and ordered tons of gear, all the antiestrogens, a bulk lot of 100 syringes and needles..

I patiently waited (almost stalked) the mail man till it all arrived.... and just now i had the syringe locked and loaded with 250mg of test e and squirted it down the ****1ng drain.

a part of me is mad, almost furious... it seems like everyone is doing it, why can't i bring myself to? It's just a needle.... A needle that will guarentee I see more results from the thing I LOVE doing. I live to train, and test would have simply made it easier! and more fun.

Before I knew it I had the needle bent in half and the rest of the gear in the garbage.

i figured I would post this in the chemical enhancement thread but knew I would get made fun of... the ever so popular line "wipe the sand out of your vag and inject your test" keeps mocking me.

This is were it gets morally confusing... i have no gripe with prohormones. I have taken them....(and logged them here, with great success) and yes i KNOW THEY ARE STEROIDS... but why is it not the same?

Anyway, I gotta take the garbage out guys.... maybe the garbage man will show up jacked next month!

crader · 08-20-2008, 12:48 PM

I would get it out of the garbage and give it another go. It takes time to be able to inject yourself. But if you keep the stuff then you can try again later.

**Iron Lungz** · 08-20-2008, 12:49 PM

You did WHAT?

gibbob2 · 08-20-2008, 12:51 PM

ya i know, what the **** did I do. I can't believe it myself. i had two 10ml vials of test e and 40 amps with 250mg each.

It's a sad day, yet I feel relieved for some reason... and yet I want to start taking havoc again now. i don't get it. Hense the posting and the moral dilema.

raginfcktard · 08-20-2008, 12:52 PM

thats crazy talk....how much you want for it???

holyintellect · 08-20-2008, 01:01 PM

I have been around this my entire adult life, and I still dont like to give myself injections...if that is the only part holding you up, dont feel bad....if its other reasons, then hey, stand strong to whatever you feel is the right thing morally.

holy

gibbob2 · 08-20-2008, 01:06 PM

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I have been around this my entire adult life, and I still dont like to give myself injections...if that is the only part holding you up, dont feel bad....if its other reasons, then hey, stand strong to whatever you feel is the right thing morally.

holy

THanks man. I honestly don;t think i could have injected even if it was just water... so I guess that just answered my own question. I also feel better because the wifey didn't know, and yaya I'm a panzy, but I don't like doing stuff behind her back.

motive · 08-20-2008, 01:18 PM

dude, atleast sell it off

raginfcktard · 08-20-2008, 01:28 PM

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Originally Posted by gibbob2

THanks man. I honestly don;t think i could have injected even if it was just water... so I guess that just answered my own question. I also feel better because the wifey didn't know, and yaya I'm a panzy, but I don't like doing stuff behind her back.

i am getting ready for a cycle and don't think i could pin myself either...even if i could i'd still rather someone else do it. also nothing is worth jeperdizing your family over so maybe it was a good idea. have you considered talking ot her about it...she might be ok with it if she really knows how much you care about your goals. i see that as a bigger hurdle than injecting yourself!

motive · 08-20-2008, 01:29 PM

my wife just recently found out about me using. she was more upset that i kept it from her than the fact i was doing it.

crazyfool405 · 08-20-2008, 01:35 PM

get it out of the garbage now! do something other then waste it,

i mean, im sure a lot of people will take it off ur hands,

including yours truly lol!

it happens man. give it time, find some one to inject for you show u the correct prcedures, and then see what happens from there.

Usf97j4x4 · 08-20-2008, 01:51 PM

Wow its a good thing your not diabetic. It doesnt even hurt and its a hell of a lot easier to hide IMO.

Wipe the san.. err well, whatever.

**Big BAMA** · 08-20-2008, 02:02 PM

Wow, I......... would love to have that problem. Throw your trash my way!

lennoxchi · 08-20-2008, 02:12 PM

let me see, you decided NOT to do something illegal, try and do right by your woman, keeping and eye on your future.....and you call yourself a "P"? i don't get that one, sounds to me like your trying to not be a "P". i might feel the same way, but i would never put people or my future in front of a drug again in my life. been there done that, not cool. sounds like you made the same decision, this is more than just poking yourself with a pin.

**pistonpump** · 08-20-2008, 02:15 PM

why you would just throw it out after u paid for it is beyond me. WTF. You must be rich, a rich bitc.....oops sorry my bad. At least try to get some money back from it!

gibbob2 · 08-20-2008, 02:38 PM

Thanks for all the comments... From the money perspective I am far from rich, this was a cycle i saved up for, so ya that sucks (but I have yet to regret it)

The wifey and I will have that talk one of these days... She knows I am educated and aware. and she has said MANY times take whatever the hell you want as long as it is "LEGAL".

That just happens to tie back into why it is tossed and not re-sold.... I am new to america (from canada, relax) and the last thing I want is to get that pinned (no pun intended) on my record. I would get the boot. and thus seriously jeopordize the family.