So, can a man undergoing TRT live a "normal" life?

[anyman]

As many here likely know, I am not exactly the most accepting person around when dealing with hypogonadism, which I've taken to calling "Acquired Eunuch Syndrome". I despise dependence. Actually, "fear" might be a better word. One year into this and I am no more settled than I was. Sorry for the rant, but I remain angry. I post this partly to vent and more so to see how others deal with this and maybe learn something.

More seriously, one of my biggest laments as of late is the perceived loss at life's opportunities. For example, I always intended to travel and take adventures as I got older and had more time and money. I'm in my mid 40s and always thought I'd travel and do more when my kids, now 6 and 9, got older. More rugged hiking/rafting and even safari like activities were always appealing. Now--not so much. The irony of approaching the point when such things could be done just to be unable to actually go is a bit tough at times.

The thought of being utterly dependent on fragile, easily lost/mishandled and not so easily replaced meds, many of which don't travel well, is NOT appealing. I just can't see going to China, for example, if I must carry T, hcg, syringes and more. I also always wanted to raft the Grand Canyon and am now very hesitant. Can't see going to the wilderness with syringes. Not something I can picture and seems so wrong. The word "lame" comes to mind. I want the freedom to just go and do something --without constant worry about how crappy I'd start to feel if meds are lost or run out.

So, how do others here deal with this, or am I alone in these thoughts? Never been much for religion myself, but I find myself angry with whatever creator there may be for inflicting such a pointless affliction on me and others. My wife is tremendously supportive, for which I am grateful. But, I'd like to live without boundaries, or at least no more than everyone else.

 

[MarkLA]

Anyman,

I think there are medical conditions which really prevent people from doing the things in life -- things like dialysis, loss of limbs, etc.

I just don't see it with hypogonadism. Taking a long trip? Get the 3 week T-Cyp injection. Sure it's not as nice as several smaller shots, but it works. Pellet implants would also work. Gel/Cream would probably be easier to transport than needles. Or just take your T and syringes with you. One padded bag and there you go.

That said, any place with any medical infrastructure is going to be able to give you T. Some countries you can get it OTC.

I know you want to be "normal" as would most of us, but the fact is that our bodies need treatment to get normal levels.

Mark

 

[bodyfort]

@anyman, your consider lucky if you here my story, but im not going to whine here. All I can say is I was undiagnosed for hypogonadism right I hit my puberty. I change my doctor in 13 years and was diagnosed for hypogonadism. I dont want to give anymore detail but try visualize. There are more worst than us so you are normal

 

[azr101]

I thank God for TRT every day. I live more vibrantly, fully, functionally, and with greater reward than I ever did without it.
Take my advice, don't look for problems, look for challenges for which you can find solutions. Even when you don't feel like it, don't see any obstacles, just see solutions to challenges that you can easily solve. Remember you're not dependant on TRT, you can live without it, but you'll live a hell of alot better with it. It's still your choice.

Now quit *****ing and enjoy life! It's almost a new year and a great time to start living like the independant person you are.

Oh yeah, for what it's worth, I'm on Pellets for TRT and I can go 5 months without re-treatment. Very convenient.

 

[Diancecht]

As many here likely know, I am not exactly the most accepting person around when dealing with hypogonadism, which I've taken to calling "Acquired Eunuch Syndrome". I despise dependence. Actually, "fear" might be a better word. One year into this and I am no more settled than I was. Sorry for the rant, but I remain angry. I post this partly to vent and more so to see how others deal with this and maybe learn something.

More seriously, one of my biggest laments as of late is the perceived loss at life's opportunities. For example, I always intended to travel and take adventures as I got older and had more time and money. I'm in my mid 40s and always thought I'd travel and do more when my kids, now 6 and 9, got older. More rugged hiking/rafting and even safari like activities were always appealing. Now--not so much. The irony of approaching the point when such things could be done just to be unable to actually go is a bit tough at times.

The thought of being utterly dependent on fragile, easily lost/mishandled and not so easily replaced meds, many of which don't travel well, is NOT appealing. I just can't see going to China, for example, if I must carry T, hcg, syringes and more. I also always wanted to raft the Grand Canyon and am now very hesitant. Can't see going to the wilderness with syringes. Not something I can picture and seems so wrong. The word "lame" comes to mind. I want the freedom to just go and do something --without constant worry about how crappy I'd start to feel if meds are lost or run out.

So, how do others here deal with this, or am I alone in these thoughts? Never been much for religion myself, but I find myself angry with whatever creator there may be for inflicting such a pointless affliction on me and others. My wife is tremendously supportive, for which I am grateful. But, I'd like to live without boundaries, or at least no more than everyone else.

I think you are being unrealistic about the restrictions. Except for anything that needs refrigeration just pack it in a small hard case. Frankly even if you lost it during a vacation you are not going to die, which could be the case if you e.g. were an insulin dependant diabetic.

You have the same restictions as e.g.someone who is very nearsighted. If they lost their glass's they would be in trouble if for example they were in China or in the Grand Canyon etc.

You bring this up a lot. Have you considered seeing a therapist to work this through. Large numbers of people deal with these constraints on a daily basis and have worked through them and there is no reason it cant be the same for you IMO.

 

[dadream]

Well your right man, guess your gonna have to kiss all your dreams goodbye because you're on TRT......

Come on man get real would ya. Life has not passed you by just cus you gotta take a few shots. Looks to me like you hit a midlife crisis or somethin and are making excuses not to do the things you wish you could.

Also it's not like your life depends on the TRT. Worst comes to worst don't take it, or buy some OTC test boosters for the trip if you don't wish to carry your prescibed meds.

Don't let something as miniscule as being on TRT stop you from seeing the world.

 

[BigAk]

Remember you're not dependant on TRT, you can live without it, but you'll live a hell of alot better with it. It's still your choice..

Not a true statement... The longer one is on TRT, the less it will become a choice anymore; and one truly can't live without it... So, it becomes a true dependency not only physically but also on a psycological level.

I'm not trying to deter Anyman from TRT, but I'm being realistic.

Also it's not like your life depends on the TRT. Worst comes to worst don't take it, or buy some OTC test boosters for the trip if you don't wish to carry your prescibed meds..

Same applies.. Not a true statement. Once you're on real pharmaceutical drugs for this condition, no over the counter stuff will work as replacement... When worse comes to worst, there's no option but to continue TRT.. TRT is for life.

Usually; statements like the above come from those who have been on TRT for about a year or less and have not lived this for a long time.... been there... used to say the same things..

 

[rick055]

You bring this up a lot. Have you considered seeing a therapist to work this through. Large numbers of people deal with these constraints on a daily basis and have worked through them and there is no reason it cant be the same for you IMO.

I agree.

I'm not a professional and believe me, I'm not bashing anybody, but this borders on an anxiety disorder. I know this because I have a mild case myself. "What if"... can be overwhelming.

Being on the TRT even helps that, by the way. I am still working upwards (second real week), but when I feel "on", it's like yeah, I'm doing the right thing.

 

[BigAk]

That said... Anyman.. I don't think you should give up on living your life to its fullest. If TRT is your only option, so be it. Just do it. It could be a lot worse you know. If you're scared of the issues, why don't you give yourself a year trial basis and see what happens.. Just make sure, you keep that HCG as your best friend and make sure it's good and not defective. This will be your ticket to successful restart in case you decided to.

I did TRT for a year and a half and was pleased with it... It was my option to leave it as the idea to be on life long meds had become very unappealing to me.

 

[JanSz]

I agree.

I'm not a professional and believe me, I'm not bashing anybody, but this borders on an anxiety disorder. I know this because I have a mild case myself. "What if"... can be overwhelming.
Being on the TRT even helps that, by the way. I am still working upwards (second real week), but when I feel "on", it's like yeah, I'm doing the right thing.

And it does not help when others are feeding out the flame of anxiety.

I had something of this (anxiety) to the extend,
I did not realized (luckily) that I could go see a shrink.
My problem was mostly depression, rage, bad thoughts.

In a hind side, after about 6 -9 months on Androgel I realized that I am different.
It took some searching, and then I realized that the "normal" mill stone is gone from my chest and shoulders.

My ED was probably 5-10% on importance scale.

 

[Hyde12]

You could always take a vacation to Mexico. I am sure you will have no problem getting meds there, LOL. In all seriousness being on TRT isn't that bad, at least you will live longer and have higher test than most men your age.

 

[azr101]

Not a true statement... The longer one is on TRT, the less it will become a choice anymore; and one truly can't live without it... So, it becomes a true dependency not only physically but also on a psycological level.

I'm not trying to deter Anyman from TRT, but I'm being realistic.



Same applies.. Not a true statement. Once you're on real pharmaceutical drugs for this condition, no over the counter stuff will work as replacement... When worse comes to worst, there's no option but to continue TRT.. TRT is for life.

Usually; statements like the above come from those who have been on TRT for about a year or less and have not lived this for a long time.... been there... used to say the same things..

I don't know. I usually agree with all the posts you make, but I have to disagree here. The 7 years before I went on TRT were a mess. Depression, anxiety, insomnia (I'm talking Machinist insomnia) and to top it all off I was even working on a perky little case of GYNO! Oh Joy!

I don't care if I had to take my TRT via suppository daily, I'm NEVER going back to that shell of an existence.

 

[rick055]

I don't know. I usually agree with all the posts you make, but I have to disagree here. The 7 years before I went on TRT were a mess. Depression, anxiety, insomnia (I'm talking Machinist insomnia) and to top it all off I was even working on a perky little case of GYNO! Oh Joy!

I don't care if I had to take my TRT via suppository daily, I'm NEVER going back to that shell of an existence.

I hear that, especially as the TRT really starts to work. I switched from gels to shots two weeks ago...

Somebody please correct me if I'm wrong, but if you take hCG while on TRT, and you maintain your own production, isn't the worst case that if you had to stop you'd really be no worse off than you were pre-trt?!?

And if pre-treatment was 340 and you felt crappy, what did you do but gain years where you didn't feel crappy.

I think these doubts are really more for guys who are mid-normal levels who really don't have the physiological symptoms necessitating TRT, but that really isn't appropriate TRT in the first place.

If you have little energy, are apathetic, have low libido and have ruled out other treatments/causes, isn't not doing TRT foolish? Especially with what we're seeing about low endogenous levels and a myriad of diseases.

 

[anyman]

Thanks, but "therapy" isn't for me. Haven't meant one yet that does much.

I think you are being unrealistic about the restrictions. Except for anything that needs refrigeration just pack it in a small hard case. Frankly even if you lost it during a vacation you are not going to die, which could be the case if you e.g. were an insulin dependant diabetic.

You have the same restictions as e.g.someone who is very nearsighted. If they lost their glass's they would be in trouble if for example they were in China or in the Grand Canyon etc.

You bring this up a lot. Have you considered seeing a therapist to work this through. Large numbers of people deal with these constraints on a daily basis and have worked through them and there is no reason it cant be the same for you IMO.

I am well aware that some view my carping as unhealthy or in need of assistance. Maybe they are right. But, I pride myself on seeing things as they are and not how I want them to be. I personally abhor needing a crutch, so to speak, to live a normal life. Your nearsightedness example is perfect--and exactly why I am contemplating lasik now that the complication rate is finally low enough. My wife had it 2 yrs ago and is thrilled.

I like to ready for anything and don't want to be held back by a stupid medical condition. I keep extra food, money, fuel and much more available "just in case". Since TRT seems inevitable I am also starting to amass a good 6 month minimum supply of all meds.

This may be totally non-PC of me to say, but I am concerned that we as a species are through our actions and inactions deliberately weakening our gene pool. Not a good long term strategy IMHO. Of course, recognizing this is easy. What to do is another matter entirely. Haven't been able to find an acceptable solution that balances humanity and moral concerns with the harsh realities of nature. Who knows, fate may make the choices for us when some disaster or another comes along and reimposes that most basic rule of nature: survival of the fittest.

The above notwithstanding, I appreciate the comments here as I learn from other points of view.

 

[JanSz]

I hear that, especially as the TRT really starts to work. I switched from gels to shots two weeks ago...

Somebody please correct me if I'm wrong, but if you take hCG while on TRT, and you maintain your own production, isn't the worst case that if you had to stop you'd really be no worse off than you were pre-trt?!?

And if pre-treatment was 340 and you felt crappy, what did you do but gain years where you didn't feel crappy.

I think these doubts are really more for guys who are mid-normal levels who really don't have the physiological symptoms necessitating TRT, but that really isn't appropriate TRT in the first place.

If you have little energy, are apathetic, have low libido and have ruled out other treatments/causes, isn't not doing TRT foolish? Especially with what we're seeing about low endogenous levels and a myriad of diseases.

Mostly one should watch SHBG.
TT levels are of secondary importance.
Important is the resultant BioAvailable testosterone.

If for example someone had TT=750 all the time until today,
and until year ago his SHBG was stable making him happy, then his SHBG went up 50%,
he will be in just as bad shape as somebody whos SHBG did not changed but his testis slowed their production.

 

[anyman]

*** Bingo *** This is exactly my concern

The longer one is on TRT, the less it will become a choice anymore; and one truly can't live without it... So, it becomes a true dependency not only physically but also on a psycological level.

Once you're on real pharmaceutical drugs for this condition, no over the counter stuff will work as replacement... When worse comes to worst, there's no option but to continue TRT.. TRT is for life.

Usually; statements like the above come from those who have been on TRT for about a year or less and have not lived this for a long time.... been there... used to say the same things..

EXACTLY! Pure dependence on anything is a weakness I'd rather not burden myself with unless absolutely necessary. Lessens the odds in my favor when dealing with whatever life throws at me. Just ask those who faced Hurricane Katrina, for example, how easy it was to be dependent on meds when power, supplies and even food were nowhere to be seen. Sorry, but when the $hit hits the fan and FEMA or the Red Cross shows up I'll be they aren't carrying vials of T cyp.

This said, I appear to be in need of TRT and have little choice. The cold reality is that is bad things happen I am screwed. Not how I envisioned living in only my mid 40s...... I can only hope this isn't a genetic issue and I didn't similarly burden/weaken my kids.

 

[anyman]

I dunno-- Never thought being prepared was an "anxiety disorder".

I'm not a professional and believe me, I'm not bashing anybody, but this borders on an anxiety disorder. I know this because I have a mild case myself. "What if"... can be overwhelming.

I have always preferred to be prepared and never viewed such as a bad thing. Then again, I am also not much for psychological matters. Always thought the whole field was, well, not for me. I can step back and look at myself from a third person and admit "Yup, you're defective and screwed if/when this dependency comes back to bite you". I just want to live life like a normal person and not need to run for a shot every other day. What a drag......... Might be easier were I older than mid 40s. Too bad I feel so crappy and crippled by unrelenting fatigue without treatment.

 

[azr101]

This may be totally non-PC of me to say, but I am concerned that we as a species are through our actions and inactions deliberately weakening our gene pool. Not a good long term strategy IMHO. Of course, recognizing this is easy. What to do is another matter entirely. Haven't been able to find an acceptable solution that balances humanity and moral concerns with the harsh realities of nature. Who knows, fate may make the choices for us when some disaster or another comes along and reimposes that most basic rule of nature: survival of the fittest.

The above notwithstanding, I appreciate the comments here as I learn from other points of view.

WTF?
You're going way too far with this. Plenty of us are on TRT and we're living happy healthy lives, I bodybuild, race Intermediate class motocross, snowboard, and the week after x-mas I'm going paragliding in Torrey Pines along the way I managed to have 2 healthy kids too.
If there's anything holding you back it's not going to be TRT it's your mental attitude.

I know this because 7 years ago I had a near fatal motorcycle accident. My left leg was a near amputation at the knee. All four ligaments torn in two, popletiel aretery severed, kneecap crushed, tibial plateau broken in two.
The doctors wanted to amputate my leg right there. But my family moved me to a different hospital where a great man, Dr. Socia of John C. Lincoln hospital agreed to re-attach my leg, but even he said that my chances of ever walking normally were nil. It was a hard, hard road but today, I have nearly normal function of my injured leg. I can even squat over 400 pounds.
I credit this to getting my mind right. I willed myself through this and made up my mind right then and there that nothing would hold me back.
Nothing can hold you back either, OR anything can hold you back if you let it. You're choice.

 

[anyman]

One of my hobbies is the informal study of history

WTF?
You're going way too far with this. Plenty of us are on TRT and we're living happy healthy lives, I bodybuild, race Intermediate class motocross, snowboard, and the week after x-mas I'm going paragliding in Torrey Pines along the way I managed to have 2 healthy kids too.
If there's anything holding you back it's not going to be TRT it's your mental attitude.

When bad things happen people who are excessively dependent on meds or other external matters often fare the worst. Study history. Or ask ad emergency responder. Like you I have hardly given up on life. I don't race bikes, but am restoring some old Suzukis. Seen too much to ride them much on the road, so I have fun with my '08 BMW 335. Wish I could race. I'm impressed-seriously. I exercise regularly and do much, much more. Hell, if I am lucky I can retire quite comfortably before 60. WTF are we doing to ourselves and our environment that this condition is becoming rampant?

I know full well some think my comments extreme. But, that's why I throw them out there--to see what others think and see if I am alone in my thoughts. As I sit here catching up on work and posting I see the timer, set to go off in an hour, and realize that it's almost shot time. Again. That's not how I want to live.

Nonetheless, I thank you for your comments and thoughts. I was hoping for more than the usual "what dose should I be on" discussions.

 

[Diancecht]

I always liked the concept is that of life deals the cards and you decide how to play them.

My brother (now deceased) fought cancer for over 27 years he gradually became paralyzed going from cane to canes to walker and finally a wheelchair. He loved black power shoots and mountain man gatherings as well as civil war reinactments. He started firing volleys with the rest of the guys, next to propping himself up next to a tree and playing sniper. Finally when he couldnt walk he played a battlefield casualty. He never stopped laughing or enjoying life.He never went on disability and only stopped working during those times he was hospitalized. He and his wife went on cruises every year knowing the clock was ticking. He died happier at 47 than most people who have lived twice as long.

Its all a matter of whether you look at the glass of life as half empty or half full.

 

[azr101]

If you study history, I'll bet you could find more than a few great men who overcame greater obstacles (physical or otherwise) than TRT! Who knows maybe well read in the history books about you one day:
"Anyman, overcame great physical dissability when his nards no longer produced boner juice. Despite this obstacle he became the first man in history to make a transatlanic flight by inflating his withered scrotum with helium."

Allright, just trying to lighten you up a bit, good luck with your shot.

 

[anyman]

Well said. I only wish I were more of a "half full" kind of person.

I always liked the concept is that of life deals the cards and you decide how to play them.

My brother (now deceased) fought cancer for over 27 years he gradually became paralyzed going from cane to canes to walker and finally a wheelchair. He loved black power shoots and mountain man gatherings as well as civil war reinactments. He started firing volleys with the rest of the guys, next to propping himself up next to a tree and playing sniper. Finally when he couldnt walk he played a battlefield casualty. He never stopped laughing or enjoying life. He died happier at 47 than most people who have lived twice as long.

Its all a matter of whether you look at the glass of life as half empty or half full.

Life to me seems often cruel and capricious. Why do criminals often enjoy the best health, while good people linger and suffer? Why do innocent children suffer so much?

I admire your brother, just as I have come to the conclusion that if the proverbial $hit hits the fan my dependency may seal my fate. The best I could then hope for would be to look after my wife and kids. I wish I were a "glass half full" person, but I'd be lying if I said I was. Perhaps that is something to aspire to, even though I view such traits as likely hard wired.

 

[anyman]

LOL! Thanks, man. I needed that!!

If you study history, I'll bet you could find more than a few great men who overcame greater obstacles (physical or otherwise) than TRT! Who knows maybe well read in the history books about you one day:
"Anyman, overcame great physical dissability when his nards no longer produced boner juice. Despite this obstacle he became the first man in history to make a transatlanic flight by inflating his withered scrotum with helium."

Allright, just trying to lighten you up a bit, good luck with your shot.

Good one! My kids just asked me what I was laughing at.

I appreciate the comments and insight. That's what I was hoping for. I've always been a perpetual Eagle Scout kind of guy: Always prepared. Which is why I so dislike having to deal with something I cannot control. Hearing from guys who have overcome obstacles and prevailed is a good thing. I don't like anything that interferes with my plan. Irrational? Yup.

Quite the story on your M/C accident. Amazing. It's also why I can't bring myself to ride on much beyond local roads. I've seen too much and heard from guys like yourself. Im even more impressed w/ the 400lb squat. I can't do that now and I didn't almost lose a leg.

Thanks for the comments. It's why I come here: to share, ask and learn. I am an educated person (no false modesty for the moment), but readily admit this whole issue is puzzling me and then some. I can discern facts, treatments and hard medicine easily enough. Dealing with the human side is another matter entirely. Good to have made your acquaintance.

 

[Diancecht]

I think proper HRT is not just about surviving but actually one of thriving.

10 weeks ago I suffered a very severe injury to my rt ankle during a freak accident during brazilian jiu jitsu practice. The foot was torn completely outside of the joint and foot was rotated so that the toes faced the back and the heel faced the front. The blood supply to the foot was disrupted due to the extreme dislocation.

An emergency surgery was done to get the foot back into alignment and restore the blood supply. 10 days later after the swelling had reduced enough a second procedure was done to pin the shattered fibula and provide fixation for where the syndesmosis between tibula and fibula was torn.

7 weeks ago went from a cast to a walking boot and PT started. One week ago I was walking with nothing but ankle support. Several days ago I was easily doing 3 sets of 10 of 330 lbs on a leg press machine.

Granted I picked a great doc and physical therapist and was in good shape prior. But all of us agree that the testosterone replacement I had already been on also played a significant role in recovery.

Testosterone therapy has been proven usefull for example in the treatment of severe burns. Its also usefully in the speeding the recovery of athletes recovering from various sports medicine related injuries such as my own.

I am 52 and looking forward to grappling with guys that are half my age in next 4-6 weeks..

Better to wear out than rust out!

 

[anyman]

Ouch. That's GOTTA hurt......

10 weeks ago I suffered a very severe injury to my rt ankle during a freak accident during brazilian jiu jitsu practice. The foot was torn completely outside of the joint and foot was rotated so that the toes faced the back and the heel faced the front. The blood supply to the foot was disrupted due to the extreme dislocation.

An emergency surgery was done to get the foot back into alignment and restore the blood supply. 10 days later after the swelling had reduced enough a second procedure was done to pin the shattered fibula and provide fixation for where the syndesmosis between tibula and fibula was torn.

7 weeks ago went from a cast to a walking boot and PT started. One week ago I was walking with nothing but ankle support. Several days ago I was easily doing 3 sets of 10 of 330 lbs on a leg press machine.

Granted I picked a great doc and physical therapist and was in good shape prior. But all of us agree that the testosterone replacement I had already been on also played a significant role in recovery.

Testosterone therapy has been proven usefull for example in the treatment of severe burns. Its also usefully in the speeding the recovery of athletes recovering from various sports medicine related injuries such as my own.

I am 52 and looking forward to grappling with guys that are half my age in next 4-6 weeks..

Better to wear out than rust out!

Damn, that HAD to hurt. Never had anything that bad happen to me, knock on wood. How the hell did that happen? The pain had to be something else. Ju Jitsu, huh? Always wanted to go back to the martial arts, but family and career haven't spared the time, at least not yet.

My issue remains the dependence. I'll give an example, albeit hopefully not a prophetic one... About an hour ago the power suddenly went out. Didn't last long--only about 50 minutes. But, I got out the LED lantern, wind up radio and flashlights. I was was ready, if need be, to get the generator and fuel so we'd have heat and keep the fridge cold. I live in one of Godforsaken areas that get snow (why anyone would want to live in an area that costs huge $$ in property taxes and requires big $$ on heat to avoid freezing to death remains a mystery, but I digress) and thus have to worry about heat.

That's how I like to be prepared. I've got food, fuel and ammo enough to last. But--I cannot control my @*^ing hormonal balance, which could take me out and prevent me from looking after my family. An unlikely event? Yes. Extreme? To some. But, that's how I think. Suppose the power were out for days or weeks, as happened with Hurricane Katrina?

Curious- what type of medicine do you practice? And, how did you end up here? Any thoughts or ideas as to how you came to need TRT?

 

[JanSz]

I think proper HRT is not just about surviving but actually one of thriving.

10 weeks ago I suffered a very severe injury to my rt ankle during a freak accident during brazilian jiu jitsu practice. The foot was torn completely outside of the joint and foot was rotated so that the toes faced the back and the heel faced the front. The blood supply to the foot was disrupted due to the extreme dislocation.

An emergency surgery was done to get the foot back into alignment and restore the blood supply. 10 days later after the swelling had reduced enough a second procedure was done to pin the shattered fibula and provide fixation for where the syndesmosis between tibula and fibula was torn.

7 weeks ago went from a cast to a walking boot and PT started. One week ago I was walking with nothing but ankle support. Several days ago I was easily doing 3 sets of 10 of 330 lbs on a leg press machine.

Granted I picked a great doc and physical therapist and was in good shape prior. But all of us agree that the testosterone replacement I had already been on also played a significant role in recovery.

Testosterone therapy has been proven usefull for example in the treatment of severe burns. Its also usefully in the speeding the recovery of athletes recovering from various sports medicine related injuries such as my own.

I am 52 and looking forward to grappling with guys that are half my age in next 4-6 weeks..

Better to wear out than rust out!

I am sorry to hear about your injury.

I suggest that you contact werewolf or firefighter2032

and read this thread
http://anabolicminds.com/forum/male-anti-aging/53121-hgh-torn-tendon.html

also

http://www.lef.org/protocols/health_concerns/surgical_preparation_01.htm

http://www.lef.org/protocols/prtcl-111.shtml

 

[BigAk]

Just curious... I've been hearing stories about guys who have overcome various harsh life's obstacles from car accidents to cancer etc and came out smelling like roses... Why didn't you guys try to place the same courage in overcoming your hypogonadism without medications??? How did hypogonadism become the kryptonite for you Supermen?? I am not trying to belittle your great achievements. Actually I congratulate you on what you've done.. But, why did you soccumb to your hypogonadism if you have such great will of overcoming the impossible??

Again; with all my respect... I'm just curious as to why people choose the easier path of TRT when many could probably get their bodies humming back naturally with the same determination and courage talked about above.

Again... Respectfully curious!!!

 

[anyman]

A good question. I found the fatigue/depression to be significant

Just curious... I've been hearing stories about guys who have overcome various harsh life's obstacles from car accidents to cancer etc and came out smelling like roses... Why didn't you guys try to place the same courage in overcoming your hypogonadism without medications??? How did hypogonadism become the kryptonite for you Supermen?? I am not trying to belittle your great achievements. Actually I congratulate you on what you've done.. But, why did you soccumb to your hypogonadism if you have such great will of overcoming the impossible??

Again; with all my respect... I'm just curious as to why people choose the easier path of TRT when many could probably get their bodies humming back naturally with the same determination and courage talked about above.

I see your point and have also asked the question. In fact, it's my self directed anger and disappointment with myself that drives many of these questions. I so badly want to ignore the fatigue and depression that can accompany very low T, but cannot ignore the physical effects, just as I couldn't ignore a blown tire while driving.

I really want to fight the effects, but cannot ignore the fact that they are real. By analogy--any perhaps a poor one-- could one ignore the effects of being force fed a whole bottle of whiskey? Not likely. You'd be just as drunk if you drank it voluntarily or had it poured down your throat.

 

[BigAk]

I see your point and have also asked the question. In fact, it's my self directed anger and disappointment with myself that drives many of these questions. I so badly want to ignore the fatigue and depression that can accompany very low T, but cannot ignore the physical effects, just as I couldn't ignore a blown tire while driving.

I really want to fight the effects, but cannot ignore the fact that they are real. By analogy--any perhaps a poor one-- could one ignore the effects of being force fed a whole bottle of whiskey? Not likely. You'd be just as drunk if you drank it voluntarily or had it poured down your throat.

Anyman... I didn't mean ignoring the symptoms by my question above.. I meant looking for and fighting the cause of one's hypogonadism in the first place. I mean; this condition did not just come about for no reason. Many factors can bring it on. I realize that age is one uncontrolable factor which is probably your case. I was referring to those guys in their 20's and 30's whom for some reason or combination of; have brought on this condition onto themselves (poor life style choices, AAS use, Adranals, depression, alcoholism, drug use, etc...)

 

[anyman]

I agree, BigAk, which is why I so persistently look for the cause and a cure.

Anyman... I didn't mean ignoring the symptoms by my question above.. I meant looking for and fighting the cause of one's hypogonadism in the first place. I mean; this condition did not just come about for no reason. Many factors can bring it on. I realize that age is one uncontrolable factor which is probably your case. I was referring to those guys in their 20's and 30's whom for some reason or combination of; have brought on this condition onto themselves (poor life style choices, anabolic steroids use, Adranals, depression, alcoholism, drug use, etc...)

I'm only in my mid 40s, which I view as not much different than the 30's and to a lesser extent, the 20s. Were I in my 60s or 70's I'd be far, far more accepting and less angry/frustrated. I might also be more accepting if the condition didn't require shots and so damned much effort/thought

I've racked my brain to find a cause. The leading candidates are the Finistaride I took about 10 yrs ago, albeit for only a month or so, and the paxil/welbutrin prescribed 2-3 years ago by a well meaning primary care Dr who I now believe confused the early symptoms of low T with depression. I've never been a depressed person and paradoxically was one of the first to think "Oh, just snap out of it already". The irony is not lost on me. There was no snapping out of the bizarre bouts of depression that hit me out of nowhere when I first started hcg alone. That has gotten better.

I agree with you 100% that many start TRT way too easily. The drug companies enable this as do may doctors. I know a few drug company reps- you'd be amazed at what they do to push their products. Look at Androgel, for example. It's 20X more pricey than compounded, but it's market share and volume are skyrocketing. Why help people fix the root cause when you can sell hugely overpriced gel packets?

I'm not going to give up. There has to be a cure. If not today, then maybe tomorrow.

 

[rick055]

I can tie into a number of these concepts.

I was so depressed and tired - actually tired doesn't begin to describe it - that I needed to do something.

Antidepressants didn't really help. To the degree they did, they left me still tired. Then I try adding adderall. OK, another temporary patch, but now I feel wierd after a few days.

After seeing bloodwork at 340 (which by my labs reference range for a 36 y/o is low), I decided to do something about it.

i researched the options and figured since there's really no cure, per se, T therapy with hCG to maintain seemed like a reasonable option until something better comes along.

A number of studies have been popping up that seem to inform me that lower endogenous T correlates to some bad long term health issues, which made my decision a little more palatable. I know I'm "not doing steroids". I decided to do a "theraputic trial". If it did nothing, I knew it wasn't for me.

Do I still have doubts? Yes. But they get less and less the better I feel. And again, by using hCG, I should at least be preserving my base state anyways.

In a catastrophe where meds were unavailable, I would do what a bodybuilder would consider post cycle therapy and hopefully be where I was to begin with.

But in the meantime, I just know I can't feel the way I did a year ago. Even my PCP looked at me and was like "ok, we've got to fix this." Great, caring guy.

My 2c, anyways...

 

[Diancecht]

Anyman... I didn't mean ignoring the symptoms by my question above.. I meant looking for and fighting the cause of one's hypogonadism in the first place. I mean; this condition did not just come about for no reason. Many factors can bring it on. I realize that age is one uncontrolable factor which is probably your case. I was referring to those guys in their 20's and 30's whom for some reason or combination of; have brought on this condition onto themselves (poor life style choices, anabolic steroids use, Adranals, depression, alcoholism, drug use, etc...)

Should I tell my patients who are insulin dependant diabetics they just need to toughen up! Perhaps I am biased being in the medical field but given the option of trying to be tough or trying to thrive I will pick the latter.

If I dont have TRT around I will just have to deal with it. Just like if my car is broken down I will just have to walk or arrange to get a ride. Worrying about some hypothetical end of the world scenario as regards TRT replacement to me frankly is like waiting for the sky to fall.

My decision to do TRT was taken after I had order the appropriate tests to look into other common causes of the fatigue. After they were ruled out then I looked into TRT and others possibles in the differential diagnosis. I then proceeded with a therapeutic trial with an eye to watching out for placebo effects.

 

[Diancecht]

I am sorry to hear about your injury.

I suggest that you contact werewolf or firefighter2032

and read this thread
http://anabolicminds.com/forum/male-anti-aging/53121-hgh-torn-tendon.html

also

http://www.lef.org/protocols/health_concerns/surgical_preparation_01.htm

http://www.lef.org/protocols/prtcl-111.shtml

Thanks for your advice. I completely destroyed the deltoid ligament which is the second strongest ligament in the body. So far it seems to be healig real well.

 

[anyman]

Well said. And, unfortunately, all too familiar. I still search for a root cause (m)

You story sounds familiar. I am most curious on your "what a body builder would do" comment. Allow me to follow up if I could.

I was so depressed and tired - actually tired doesn't begin to describe it - that I needed to do something.

Wow does that sound familiar. Crushing fatigue to the point that I cold sleep 20 hrs/day

Antidepressants didn't really help. To the degree they did, they left me still tired. Then I try adding adderall. OK, another temporary patch, but now I feel wierd after a few days.

Again, sounds familiar. All many Drs want to do is push drugs.

After seeing bloodwork at 340 (which by my labs reference range for a 36 y/o is low), I decided to do something about it.

It is low, but better than the 200 +/- I had/B]

i researched the options and figured since there's really no cure, per se, T therapy with hCG to maintain seemed like a reasonable option until something better comes along.

A number of studies have been popping up that seem to inform me that lower endogenous T correlates to some bad long term health issues, which made my decision a little more palatable. I know I'm "not doing steroids". I decided to do a "theraputic trial". If it did nothing, I knew it wasn't for me.

Again, we're on the same page. Many hours on Google later, here I am....

Do I still have doubts? Yes. But they get less and less the better I feel. And again, by using hCG, I should at least be preserving my base state anyways.

I am not convinced that hcg isn't as suppressive of the HPTA as T. Still--at least it keeps the 'ol nuts somewhat working. I was briefly up to 1500 units 3x/week under Dr S' supervision to see if they could be driven higher. No go. Only got to 525 or so. Still puzzling on this one. I have all the indicia of being secondary such as low FSH/LH, yet even on high stimulus they only cranked out a T level of 525. Hmmm...

In a catastrophe where meds were unavailable, I would do what a bodybuilder would consider post cycle therapy and hopefully be where I was to begin with.

Can you elaborate? What would a bodybuilder do?


But in the meantime, I just know I can't feel the way I did a year ago. Even my PCP looked at me and was like "ok, we've got to fix this." Great, caring guy.

My 2c, anyways...

I can't believe you are dealing with this at only 36. At least I was in my early 40s. Any ideas/thoughts as to what happened and why?

I can't help but think that we are somehow doing this to ourselves.....

 

[anyman]

I see your point, but remember that you are the exception

As a medical provider you are educated and much more able to make an educated choice not based on the drug pushing reps that infest most offices. Allow me to comment and ask a few questions, if I could.

Should I tell my patients who are insulin dependant diabetics they just need to toughen up! Perhaps I am biased being in the medical field but given the option of trying to be tough or trying to thrive I will pick the latter.

Sometimes, "toughen up" is indeed appropriate. Not always, however, as your story and Rick's show. Many diabetics, for example, could have avoided their dependency had they simply exercised and stopped eating crap. Harsh, but in some circumstances all too true.

If I dont have TRT around I will just have to deal with it. Just like if my car is broken down I will just have to walk or arrange to get a ride. Worrying about some hypothetical end of the world scenario as regards TRT replacement to me frankly is like waiting for the sky to fall.

Again, true, but that's me. I think about a worst case scenario and plan accordingly. That's why I am now trying to amass a good 6-2 month supply of meds. Bad things happen. Look at Hurrican Katrina, for example. Always best to be prepared.

My decision to do TRT was taken after I had order the appropriate tests to look into other common causes of the fatigue. After they were ruled out then I looked into TRT and others possibles in the differential diagnosis. I then proceeded with a therapeutic trial with an eye to watching out for placebo effects.

Here is where you are way ahead of the average person. Most people who utterly dependent on often clueless PCPs who are more inclined to push anti depressants or say "you're still in range" even if T is 300 in a 30 yr old than perform tests or listen to patients' complaints. Even those who are willing to look at T usually suggest vastly overpriced and drug rep pushed Androgel and forget to mention that one's nuts will shrivel after a short while on it and view hcg as so much voodoo. In short, you're a rare educated consumer.

My immediate point is that too few patients and Drs look for the root cause and take the easy route instead, which may be the worst long term choice.

I do have one big question for you, however: "Why?"

By this I ask why do you think hypogonadism is exploding? Increased awareness alone hardly explains it.

 

[rick055]

I can't believe you are dealing with this at only 36. At least I was in my early 40s. Any ideas/thoughts as to what happened and why?

Bodybuilders do steroids in cycles. When they come off a cycle, they use hCG, arimidex, clomid and sometimes other drugs in varying degrees/protocols to help "speed up" their endogenous T production.

They go from being totally suppressed (I could be wrong, but I don't think alot of bodybuilders are using hCG "during" a cycle and are thus completely suppressed) to normal function within a matter of months.

Put most simply (and there are myriad variations) once T is stopped, you start with hCG/nolvadex/arimidex, then wean off one at a time. there are many more knowledgeable than I, this is just an "outline". Go to the bodybuilding forums and look at "post cycle therapy".

Please also note I am not advocating steroid cycles, I am just saying that we who do TRT under the care of a physician for a legitimate medical condition can be informed by the knowledge learned by those who do.

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To address your other question "are we doing this to ourselves", I can tell you that, as asociety, the average T is way down from 20 years ago. Certainly our diets have gotten worse, exercise is down, etc... But there's only so much you can control.

There was just a study by the U of Rochester talking about the many estrogen mimics in our ecosystem and the havoc it can wreak on the endocrine system of males.


Interestingly, though, I felt fine when I was in my 20's. Looking back, I would define myself as high-testosterone. So I know it was working (and why I know something was wrong now).

But I think a combination of factors contributed to what only could be corrected by TRT.

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Isn't that fatigue awful?? I could have stayed in bed in my jeans and a hoodie and been fine. No way to live. I was waking up and going through the motions as if life was a "learned behavior" that I could fake. F that.

 

[anyman]

Thanks, Rick. That's what I thought.

Bodybuilders do steroids in cycles. When they come off a cycle, they use hCG, arimidex, clomid and sometimes other drugs in varying degrees/protocols to help "speed up" their endogenous T production.

Put most simply (and there are myriad variations) once T is stopped, you start with hCG/nolvadex/arimidex, then wean off one at a time. there are many more knowledgeable than I, this is just an "outline". Go to the bodybuilding forums and look at "post cycle therapy".

To address your other question "are we doing this to ourselves", I can tell you that, as asociety, the average T is way down from 20 years ago. Certainly our diets have gotten worse, exercise is down, etc... But there's only so much you can control.

There was just a study by the U of Rochester talking about the many estrogen mimics in our ecosystem and the havoc it can wreak on the endocrine system of males.

That said, I have another consideration. I was born with an undescended testicle. it was palpable (vs. abdominal) so the decision was made to "wait and see" if it would drop on it's own. It didn't and when I was maybe 10, I had surgery to bring it down. It is maybe half the volume of the other and the reason I believe I am where I am. My LH/FSH were not out of whack, and I was diagnosed as primary.

Interestingly, though, I felt fine when I was in my 20's. Looking back, I would define myself as high-testosterone. So I know it was working (and why I know something was wrong now).

Isn't that fatigue awful?? I could have stayed in bed in my jeans and a hoodie and been fine. No way to live. I was waking up and going through the motions as if life was a "learned behavior" that I could fake. F that.

Yup. Your points mirror my research. Did you see the Men's Health article this past summer? Very interesting and confirmed what I'd been studying.

The fatigue was the worst. Crushing and all consuming, no matter what. Life was a struggle. Not fair to my kids or my wife. Death was almost preferable. And, no, I am not nor was I suicidal- I merely state an opinion based on quality of life, which I am big on. Length of life is less important to me than getting the most out of what I have.

 

[rick055]

Yup. Your points mirror my research. Did you see the Men's Health article this past summer? Very interesting and confirmed what I'd been studying.

The fatigue was the worst. Crushing and all consuming, no matter what. Life was a struggle. Not fair to my kids or my wife. Death was almost preferable. And, no, I am not nor was I suicidal- I merely state an opinion based on quality of life, which I am big on. Length of life is less important to me and getting the most out of what I have.

In fact, I think the Men's Health article cited the study done at U of R.

I can buy diet/exercise to a degree, but our levels are down across the board. There's something more here.

 

[BigAk]

Should I tell my patients who are insulin dependant diabetics they just need to toughen up! Perhaps I am biased being in the medical field but given the option of trying to be tough or trying to thrive I will pick the latter..

Anyman has answered for me above...

I also agree that most people don't try hard to figure out the cause of their ailment. They don't do their homework, but rather select to blindly trust their health care providers who often follow the "text book" therapy of "today." And; then you got the pharmaceutical companies on the other hand who will push Androgel like candy. They don't give a rat's ass about Joe Shmo's well-being. Actually the contrary; let's hook the nation up on AndroGel and capitalize on their future dependencies.. Sort of like selling cigarettes.

With all my respect to you Diancecht... I am not including you in this bunch as I don't know you.

 

[rick055]

Anyman has answered for me above...

I also agree that most people don't try hard to figure out the cause of their ailment. They don't do their homework, but rather select to blindly trust their health care providers who often follow the "text book" therapy of "today." And; then you got the pharmaceutical companies on the other hand who will push Androgel like candy. They don't give a rat's ass about Joe Shmo's well-being. Actually the contrary; let's hook the nation up on AndroGel and capitalize on their future dependencies.. Sort of like selling cigarettes.

With all my respect to you Diancecht... I am not including you in this bunch as I don't know you.

I agree that Big Pharma has a profit motive, but in a case where TRT is warranted, which is what we're discussing, I think it makes no sense to suffer needlessly.

 

[BigAk]

And to answer your question Rick, HCG has brought my testes back after years of AAS. However, it only landed me in the low normal range of TT. I can't say for sure if that was my base to begin with as I never done blood work prior to engaing in the bodybuilding game. But, I am currently living normally with levels in the 300'rds. I don't have fatique or any of the other symptoms except for lower libido.

When I talked to my Endo a few months ago, he told me if I was feeling alright there's no need for TRT. And that's a very respectable Endo at Duke who also told me that treats his patients according to symptoms and that numbers on paper are secondary.

 

[rick055]

And to answer your question Rick, HCG has brought my testes back after years of anabolic steroids. However, it only landed me in the low normal range of TT. I can't say for sure if that was my base to begin with as I never done blood work prior to engaing in the bodybuilding game. But, I am currently living normally with levels in the 300'rds. I don't have fatique or any of the other symptoms except for lower libido.

When I talked to my Endo a few months ago, he told me if I was feeling alright there's no need for TRT. And that's a very respectable Endo at Duke who also told me that treats his patients according to symptoms and that numbers on paper are secondary.

Curios, BigAk, were you on hCG during cycles so as not to supress T to begin with?

 

[BigAk]

Curios, BigAk, were you on hCG during cycles so as not to supress T to begin with?

No I was not at all... However, when I finally went on HRT, HCG became part of the deal. Not sure if you ever read my recovery thread on Meso, but recovering my HPTA was one of the most painful things I ever encountered in my life. I did a long log of how I felt on a day-to-day basis. It's very interesting to read if you ever consider that you may; one day for some reason, decided to abandon HRT and restart your HPTA.

Here you go ---> http://forum.mesomorphosis.com/men-s-health-forum/my-pct-journal-kickstart-134243220.html

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[Gutterpump]

Anyman, If someone is in need of TRT, life becomes normal once on it.

I'm low/borderline myself, but I have no fear of starting something and committing to it, if it will give me a better life overall and be healthier for me. I don't see what's so scary about living a great life through any type of long term therapy. To be honest, I wish I had done blood work years and years ago and had known then so I could have started sooner (and I just turned 30 last week). I wasn't shutdown through anabolic steroids use though, so I have little hope for trying to recover anything tbh and am pretty open to long term (life-long) therapy.

 

[Diancecht]

I doubt we will know for a long time while Testosterone levels are falling. Before any serious investigation into the why's occur the medical and scientific community first have to start accepting that there is a problem.

There are two ways that changes occur within medicine. The first is getting attention to the issue via well documented papers at professional symposia and through studies.

The second is the informal way via Dr to Dr discussions and other health care providers.

Dr like all human beings are resistant to change. Change always disrupt the flow and slows you down at first. For me at this point in time if they are interested I lend them some pertinant medical texts and let them make up their own mind.
Later I may considering presenting some papers at the appropriate symposia.

As a patient myself I know it is frustrating but I know its got to be worse for you folks because access is harder and getting a doctor to listen to a laymen is not always easy especially if it challenges the prevalent medical view. My suggestions are to be find a doctor you can relate to and be honest and open with him/her. Even if he disagrees a good doc should be respectfull of your opinion and may be even facilitate your finding someone who will help you.

For me the simple answer was an Anti Aging clinic. In my case I ruled out the common causes of fatigue myself. Any Dr can rule that out for you to. I dont consider anti aging clinics to be a good choice to rule out the other causes because of their vested interests. However once you have the other causes reasonably ruled out then you could procede with an anti aging clinic.

I know that their prices are higher however they are putting themselves at higher legal and malpractice related risks because they are working at the edges or even outside what is considered reasonable and customary medical practice. Like it not, physicians are judged to a large part on how closely they adhere to the reasonable and customary modes of practice.

 

[evd22]

hey i don't know your whole story but if your having trouble with this and all such as low testosterone in your 40s try to just make the most out of life. I mean I can relate because I'm going through such problems in my life being hypoadrenal and hypothyroid right now. My quality of life is horrible, but bear in mind I'm 22 you're in your 40s. You got to live your life in your prime and you had your youth. I wish so much that all the stuff happening to me could have happened years down the road when I'm your age. I'm tired all the time, physical and mental changes within myself are something i may have to live with for the rest of my life and it kills me to watch oppurtunities, relationships, etc pass me by right now and I'm only 22. trust me man at 40 you have your kids and other things to live for, and this is coming from a 22 yearold.

 

[anyman]

Excellent comments, Diancecht. Allow me to add mine.

Good post. Allow me to respond/comment:

I doubt we will know for a long time while Testosterone levels are falling. Before any serious investigation into the why's occur the medical and scientific community first have to start accepting that there is a problem.

As long as drug companies can make a buck pushing drugs the root cause will be a secondary concern. I know several drug reps and am tangentially familiar with drug litigation. That's how they operate. If you haven't, check the article in "Men's Health" magazine this summer on low T. VERY enlightening and confirmed much of the research I'd been doing. Low T is only part of the problem. Low sperm counts and fewer baby boys born adds to the issue. Ever notice that young girls are maturing earlier and earlier? That's the flip side of higher estrogen. My oldest daughter, now 9, started growing pubic hair at 81/2, which shocked the hell out of me. I've researched this and spoken the her Dr. She is far from unique. Menstruation used to start around 13. Now 11 is normal. We are screwing ourselves.

There are two ways that changes occur within medicine. The first is getting attention to the issue via well documented papers at professional symposia and through studies.

All too often, if there is no money in it there is no attention except by a principled few.

The second is the informal way via Dr to Dr discussions and other health care providers.

True. My PCP has been quite good, but even he admits to being lost in this area and tends to be bound by the so called "normal" ranges.

Dr like all human beings are resistant to change. Change always disrupt the flow and slows you down at first. For me at this point in time if they are interested I lend them some pertinant medical texts and let them make up their own mind.
Later I may considering presenting some papers at the appropriate symposia.

I most sincerely hope you get into the field. Dr. Shippen does lectures for CME and is always interested in passing on what he has learned. The man is about 65 and I sense would like to pass his knowledge & experience on. Maybe you might contact him

For me the simple answer was an Anti Aging clinic. In my case I ruled out the common causes of fatigue myself. Any Dr can rule that out for you to. I dont consider anti aging clinics to be a good choice to rule out the other causes because of their vested interests. However once you have the other causes reasonably ruled out then you could procede with an anti aging clinic.

Agree. Anti aging has a bad rep, unfortunately. Sometimes, however, it is deserved. Seems to attract charlatans.

I know that their prices are higher however they are putting themselves at higher legal and malpractice related risks because they are working at the edges or even outside what is considered reasonable and customary medical practice. Like it not, physicians are judged to a large part on how closely they adhere to the reasonable and customary modes of practice.

The prevailing standard is indeed reasonable and customary. Generally depends on where you are, however. A small town doctor, for example, wouldn't be expected to have the same knowledge as a large city teaching hospital.

I much appreciate your comments and insights to the board. Much appreciated and beneficial.

 

[anyman]

Philosophically, I agree. Emotionally, however, I still have my issues.

hey i don't know your whole story but if your having trouble with this and all such as low testosterone in your 40s try to just make the most out of life. I mean I can relate because I'm going through such problems in my life being hypoadrenal and hypothyroid right now. My quality of life is horrible, but bear in mind I'm 22 you're in your 40s. You got to live your life in your prime and you had your youth. I wish so much that all the stuff happening to me could have happened years down the road when I'm your age. I'm tired all the time, physical and mental changes within myself are something i may have to live with for the rest of my life and it kills me to watch oppurtunities, relationships, etc pass me by right now and I'm only 22. trust me man at 40 you have your kids and other things to live for, and this is coming from a 22 yearold.

Well said. I do indeed have much to live for and I intellectually realize this, at least while I am feeling like my old self. Emotionally, however, I am often PO'd at my body's weakness and despise dependence on easily lost/misplaced/interrupted medications. No doubt this will get better over time, but for now I lament the loss of a barrier free life. I again intellectually know this is harsh and possibly unrealistic, but I look at others around me my age and older who need not deal with such nonsense and get a bit envious and wonder what happened and why. This is why I post here. To learn, see that others are doing and also adapt to my newfound lifestyle.

At least you have the knowledge to find a solution. Don't give up. Seek out the best medical care you can and stick with it. Get tested (see JanSz's posts on what to get) and don't settle for a clueless primary care Dr who only looks at the so called "normal" ranges.

One more thing- I too used to thing people in their 40s were "old". Not anymore! You have no idea how quickly that'll be upon you. I didn't either...... Too bad I wasn't smart enough to realize I was in my prime at the time!

 

[Vinny]

Yup. Your points mirror my research. Did you see the Men's Health article this past summer? Very interesting and confirmed what I'd been studying.

The fatigue was the worst. Crushing and all consuming, no matter what. Life was a struggle. Not fair to my kids or my wife. Death was almost preferable. And, no, I am not nor was I suicidal- I merely state an opinion based on quality of life, which I am big on. Length of life is less important to me than getting the most out of what I have.

I know nothing about this as always in good mood but my mom takes SAME from Source naturals . She was having trouble with her knee and her doctor said she should try it before looking into surgery,etc.
Either way I like that particular co thus got it for her. After couple of months of 400mg SAME a day her knee is way way better and she feels much more energetic,seems happier not due to knee but just feels the SAME has other benefits as far as improving her mood .
I mention this as it might help you

 

[Vinny]

Well said. I do indeed have much to live for and I intellectually realize this, at least while I am feeling like my old self. Emotionally, however, I am often PO'd at my body's weakness and despise dependence on easily lost/misplaced/interrupted medications. No doubt this will get better over time, but for now I lament the loss of a barrier free life. I again intellectually know this is harsh and possibly unrealistic, but I look at others around me my age and older who need not deal with such nonsense and get a bit envious and wonder what happened and why. This is why I post here. To learn, see that others are doing and also adapt to my newfound lifestyle.

At least you have the knowledge to find a solution. Don't give up. Seek out the best medical care you can and stick with it. Get tested (see JanSz's posts on what to get) and don't settle for a clueless primary care Dr who only looks at the so called "normal" ranges.

One more thing- I too used to thing people in their 40s were "old". Not anymore! You have no idea how quickly that'll be upon you. I didn't either...... Too bad I wasn't smart enough to realize I was in my prime at the time!

I used to go to a gym in Long Island NY where there was a man in his 60s he was a vietnam vet he was built like a tank . Huge,solid and ripped he was natural and every guy in their 20s there wanted to one day have half his built.
He was very quite subdued guy and since we both trained at 5am before work over the yrs made friends. He ate right took care of himself . I left NY he retired and left NY also but I hope to laugh at my 40s,50s and 60s (I am in my 30s now) to me 60s is no longer old.
Granted this guy was a genetic superman but truly an inspiration