Originally Posted by
Erran
Hi guys,
Here for some opinions and guidance. I am 25 and I have had varicocele since my midteens, even had an embolization done when I was 16. The embolization seems to have had some effect, but didn't completely relieve the varicoceles, which are still there in a grade 2 or 1 (not exactly sure, but they are big enough to spot without ultrasound, which should make it a grade 2).
Until recently, the only way the thing bothered me was cosmetically, since it makes my testicles hand really low in the scrotum, especially when it is hot. I even considered surgery for this reason. Now, however, I am concerned about something much more serious. In hope of relieving my anxiety of it I had my T-levels checked a few months back, and it turned out they were quite low. The total amount was 15 and the bioactive amount of T was only 5.9. The references were 10-30 and 6,3-16 respectively. (Other people on this forum and other places often seem to use some other scale of measurement, not sure how it works).
I read online that low levels doesn't necessary mean you have a problem, since different bodies need different amounts of T. I can't really say I have very concrete symptoms of low T, although the symptoms described are so vague that they could basically apply to anyone if they are imaginative enough (such as "fatigue", "lack of vitality").
On the positive side, I am in really good shape and stronger than I have been in years. I have almost no body-fat and look like I am chiseled in stone basically.
On the other hand, I look really boyish for my age, and I never had much of a beard (though I managed to grow a decent goatee as an experiment). I have had minor erection problems in the past which I until now mostly attributed to anxiety. I also thought I noticed a somewhat lower than normal sex drive even before I had my T checked, which I then thought maybe had to do with my lifestyle at the time (frequent drinking, irregular sleeping hours). Recently, however, it seems as if the sex drive has been coming back a little, after I made a few changes in lifestyle. But it somehow seems as if it is really not "there" as much as it should. Or maybe it is all in my mind now.
How would I know what a normal sex drive is anyway? Presently I do masturbate daily and even twice or thrice, and enjoying at least the first and second time. Sometimes, I admit, I do it just to check if it "works" so to speak. When having sex, I was never able to have sex more than once or sometimes twice in a row before throwing in the towel for the night. And when reading online and listening to other people, it sometimes seems as if there sex drive is much stronger than mine. But does that mean that mine is not normal? It is also likely that many people are exaggerating I guess.
Of course I need to get my T-levels confirmed and my situation evaluated by a doctor. My problem is, however, that I presently live and work in a country (China) were you cannot expect any kind of help for these kinds of problems (I had my T:s checked at home when I was home last time). I was planning on going home to have this checked out this summer, but I am not well of at the moment financially, and the my boss wants me to stay until December if possible. In many ways, that would be a good time for me to go back, and I would have a lot of time then to have this situation evaluated. But I am worried that things will get worse (do I even have a problem? I don't know!), if I don't have it checked soon enough. So I am really ambivalent.
Of course, It would be really good to get this checked out as soon as possible; on the other hand, it would be better for me in other ways if I could hang around here until Christmas. What would anyone else do? Does it seem like I have a "normal" sex drive? Can anyone tell anything from my t-levels results how serious and urgent it could be?
Thankful for any advice.