Well it was about two years ago but I remember always being on the verge of snapping on someone if I felt they crossed the line. That’s not too unusual for me, but yk11 made me actually follow through with those urges. I’m lucky this never led to actual violence, just verbal altercations. Once I would get angry, this feeling could last for hours. It was a very unhealthy level of anger, and for long durations. I wasn’t the most pleasant guy to say the least.
I also felt hyper sexual, where my libido was a little too high. I’ve been with the same girl for six years, don’t cheat, and never plan on cheating. When I was on yk11 I felt very very tempted to do so, which became a bit of a battle in my mind. Again, I never acted on my urges, but the fact that I had to constantly deal with them was an uncomfortable distraction.
I also would occasionally feel a sense of maniacal joy. I’d randomly get in really good moods, almost as if I were high on something. I might think of a joke in my head and start laughing out loud, kind of like a crazy person. But the good moods were mostly enjoyable. During the good moods is when my risk taking behavior would increase. Like I might randomly go get some kratom and beer, when I was actively trying to avoid those things for the most part.
I just felt all around like I was a bit bipolar. My highs were too high and my lows were too low. I’d be super happy, feel great about everything, and then just crash and be a moody bitch.
And all I gained physically was maybe a little extra strength, extra aggression in the gym, and some sore joints that would lock up on me.
Now I’m sure I’m a bit of an anomaly. For whatever reason, yk11 doesn’t mix well with my biochemistry. I don’t want to use a PED if it’s going to destroy my mood. So, that’s the last time I’ll use that.