Damn, that can be rough. I tend to notice small effects from lack of sleep such as misreading things, misspeaking, and just mental lapses.
Yes. This is exactly the result, and yesterday I did not dose at all, and do believe it would have been helpful if I had, so today I will dose.
What's up with going to bed later? Is it just not getting to bed on time or do you think it's related to the Compel?
Wait and see
I don't think it has anything to do with compel, just yet. I have been working a roller coaster schedule lately at work, so that contributes for sure and winding down after work is more of an issue It think. I did not dose yesterday, and did get to bed early, so let's wait and see. I dosed 3 caps this morning, and will see how I feel later.
Schedule Schedule Schedule
Schedule: 7:30-4:30 one day, 11:00-8:00p the next, then 9:30a-6:30p next but held late so 7:15p.. and then finally the kicker 1:00p-10:00p. Whomever is writing my schedule has virtual Tourette's Syndrome. Ha. I love retail. It's messing with my life. I am trying to get a home-commute position, so hopefully that will help me get a consistent schedule. After 10 plus years in retail dealing with the public, and now working in probably the worst market I have ever been in, ***Angry; Entitled; Self-important; Impatient; Ignorant, and Aggressive Old people', it's so crazy it's almost funny.
Silver Lining
That said, I do keep going back because there is usually at least 2 hugs I get in the day from some old grandma who can now do something she hadn't been able to do for weeks because she couldn't get a ride to come and see me so I could fix what is wrong and make it all work again. I can do that on the phone, remotely, where I can hang up when they start swearing at me.
Reflections
I'm the kind of person who reflects on each interaction I have, and try to see if I could have changed my words and behaviors for a better outcome, but honestly, I don't see it here. They're just mostly ***this. I used to smoke to relieve stress (I gladly have no desire to do that again), and since I haven't been able to get my routine back online due to scheduling, it's taken it's toll. I am planning on change however which has the mood swinging positive.
That may be contributing to my late nights too.