10-19-11 / Day 1
This morning I weighed in at 266 lbs. That's not a number I'm proud of, happy with, nor would I like to share. However, me writing it down keeps me accountable. The reason it says "Day 1" isn't because this is the first day I started this log. It's because it's the first day of me getting my life back. I've been attempting to do this for quite some time, but I've also had a pity party for myself and the time for that has passed.
With everything I've been dealing with, I've drastically cut down the amount of days I've lifted. Along with that, my diet has been worse than a kid with a yo-yo. I'd go through phases of eating spotless and then binging like crazy because I don't see any results (which shouldn't be shocking to me anymore since I've dealt with this for so long, but regardless, I let it take a toll on me).
So, will I see any positive results/benefits from getting back on track? Hopefully, but I'm also not holding my breath. However, I have to get back to living the way I was. My whole plan was to relax, live like a "normal" person for a while and once I got fixed, just go into beast mode and shred up. Seeing as how I'm nearly 270 pounds, now, that needs to stop. It's evident that it's taking longer to fix this than I'd planned and the fact that I can barely fit into most of the pants I own is enough of a reason.
I've been following IF, for the most part, lately just because it's easier for me. My appetite has been absolutely terrible, so that's been a reason for it, too (just haven't been hungry). However, in a thread on meal frequency in Dr. Houser's sub-forum, it was brought up that fasting is not a good solution for someone with a dysfunctional thyroid. So, that being said, has pushed me back into following the eating every 3 hours or so style, starting today.
My mom sent me a link to a news story yesterday. I read it and instantly felt enraged. Search for "fit2fat2fit" and tell me what you think. A (part-time) personal trainer has decided to stop working out entirely for 6 months and eat "average" foods in an attempt to get completely out of shape and then show people it's possible to get back into shape "easily" in the next 6 months. His idea is to show his clients that he has done what they want to do. In theory, I think it sounds like a valiant idea. However, after spending more than 2 seconds thinking about it, it just pisses me off. No one who has great health should squander it on purpose or to prove a point. I guess all doctors should infect themselves with the viruses and diseases they cure so they can tell their patients, "Don't worry. I've been there." It's just asinine. To top it off, he has a wife and 2 kids. He said that people live obese for years so he isn't worried about the health issues. We're not all created equally, though (hmm, I seem to know a thing or two about this). Just because 99% of people can live that way for years doesn't mean this guy won't keel over and die from an overnight heart attack. And then you're left with a widow and 2 fatherless kids. I don't know. To me it just seems selfish and it doesn't really prove anything.
Back to me, though. This log is not a place for pity, for anyone to say they're sorry for me or anything else. It is simply a place for me to note what's going on and hopefully make progress.
I'm happy to answer any questions anyone has; whether you're experienced and just want to chat or if you're new to bodybuilding and have general questions. I don't know the knowledge that a lot of the guys on here do (at a chemical level), but despite being a fatty at the moment, I do have a lot of training and nutrition knowledge that I've learned over the years that has been successfully implemented in helping others.
Today is the first day of my new life.
