The Female Terminator Chronicles: REVOLUTION (2010)

[rantorcha]

I gotta tell ya, I don't remember every seeing anyone's journal that included the stuff you do like, mood/aggression and libido. Not that I'm complaining...it's very cool!!

And, please don't take offense, but if that's a picture of you in your avatar....well done! lol

Good luck with the food and teeth issues.

[Rosie Chee]

going to get the tooth checked out?
hope you start feeling better, i had a wisdom tooth issue months back and wasnt able to sleep without irritating.
good to see other aspects are going well though

No, not going to get them checked out. They go up and down based on my stress levels and are only a pain in the ass when up.

I gotta tell ya, I don't remember every seeing anyone's journal that included the stuff you do like, mood/aggression and libido. Not that I'm complaining...it's very cool!!

Everything that I make comments on are an effect of one of the products that I use (as I mentioned in post #1).

[Bnatural]

interesting, maybe its something with the nerves touching your tooth. Mine started like that before. Either way, hopefully it doesn't hinder workouts. Keep going at it!

[Rosie Chee]

interesting, maybe its something with the nerves touching your tooth. Mine started like that before. Either way, hopefully it doesn't hinder workouts. Keep going at it!

WHAT is something to do with the nerves touching my tooth? The wisdom teeth coming up during times of stress? Because that's a fairly common thing, even not for me.

[Bnatural]

The tooth growing in , and the root could be causing issues. I'm not a dentist, but its what happened to me, as it grew in it put pressure on my tooth (because the wisdom tooth was coming in at an angle) and the root was touching the nerve. Fun extraction process. It woulda cost less if I went in when I felt pain though (end result was $600 out of pocket)

[Rosie Chee]

The tooth growing in , and the root could be causing issues. I'm not a dentist, but its what happened to me, as it grew in it put pressure on my tooth (because the wisdom tooth was coming in at an angle) and the root was touching the nerve. Fun extraction process. It woulda cost less if I went in when I felt pain though (end result was $600 out of pocket)

I see...Well, I'm going to leave it be for the meantime...It'll go back down in a few days...Until the next time I get over-mega stressed...

[Bnatural]

maybe some somnidren will keep the stress down (minor pimpage).

Can I ask what may be causing the stress?

[Rosie Chee]

maybe some somnidren will keep the stress down (minor pimpage).

Can I ask what may be causing the stress?

No, didn't sleep well on the sample I used.

I'm always stressed. But have been more than usual. Lots of things. Mostly work and spending almost every waking minute doing it. As well as other issues on top of that.

[Rosie Chee]

Didn't plan on having a day off, but by the time I eventually got up, and because of how I was feeling, it became one.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "No one can continue without hope." - Gregori, Dark Curse (Christine Feehan)

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0700-0730 and ~0900-1530 (waking at 1200 and 1500), so ~7 hours sleep. Couldn't get to sleep until later again, MUCH later than usual...Sleeping patterns are all screwed up again...

Mental Alertness/Focus: HAVING to focus. Head needed to be in an 'on' place, and trying to force it, when was having trouble concentrating...

Energy: Not a lot...

Motivation: Struggling to find it...

Mood/Aggression: Stressed...

Stress: Wisdom teeth causing lower face to swell a little...

Libido: High.

Endurance: N/A.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: N/A.

Recovery: Feeling hamstrings a little from yesterday.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity normal...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs, shoulders, and arms.

Body Composition and Look: Still holding a little water.

Appetite: Still craving the carbohydrates...Definitely needed to drink more today...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Stressed to the absolute max!

[Rosie Chee]

1339 - HIIT Skip:
a. 4 min skip
b. 32 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy
c. 1 x 1 min effort
d. 4 min skip

1408 - Stretch 21 min.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Belief makes anything possible." - Iolair, Miriam?s Talisman (Elenor Gill)

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0130-0955 (waking at 0358, 0900, and 0930), so ~8.3 hours sleep. Sleep frustrated and woke feeling like absolute SH*TE...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Almost every waking minute is spent trying to force myself to concentrate, because work has been full on and it's something that's NEEDED to be done. Head has been pounding and lightheaded and not in a good place...

Energy: Not felt like doing anything at all, but making sure that I at least did HIIT...

Motivation: The stress is affecting me. The stress and the fatigue. It's been some months now, since had a week off resistance training, and have decided to let myself have this week 'off', so long as I get in at least five days of at least 20 minutes of cardio...

Mood/Aggression: Stressed, stressed, stressed...

Stress: Have I mentioned HOW stressed I am?!

Libido: Needing that release.

Endurance: Fine.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: HIIT could feel how tired and shattered I was, but pushed on, determined to get it DONE.

Recovery: Shattered.

Pump and Vascularity: Pump in legs...Vascularity normal...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs, shoulders, and arms.

Body Composition and Look: Not good at all; all the high carbohydrates from the last few days have been causing water retention and bloating (not helped by the stress and less than usual water consumption).

Appetite: Shovelling in the carbohydrates when up. It's like my appetite has been UNLEASHED...Needing to have more water, though...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Haven't had much time to do anything...

[Rosie Chee]

1409 - Gazelle 30 min.

1453 - Stretch 22 min.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Success comes from not what God has given you, but from what you do with it." - Teacher, Gladiator

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0330-1017 (waking at 0730), so ~6.75 hours sleep. No dreams...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Still forcing the focus; my head NEEDS to BE there!

Energy: Had none.

Motivation: SEARCHING...

Mood/Aggression: Getting REALLY frustrated with myself.

Stress: Well past the warning signs now...

Libido: UNbelievably high.

Endurance: Ok.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: 'Recovery' session (not that I had much TO recover from).

Recovery: Smashed.

Pump and Vascularity: Pump minimal...Vascularity normal...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs.

Body Composition and Look: HATING IT!

Appetite: More carbohydrates and not enough water...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Wondering WHY I am feeling as shattered as I am. Probably a mixture of stress and all those carbohydrates and fcuked up sleeping patterns...

[Rosie Chee]

1609 - HIIT Skip:
a. 4 min skip
b. 32 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy
c. 1 x 1 min effort

1633 - Stretch 20 min.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "You can start out with the best intentions in the world; but somehow one day turns into another and before you know it...You haven?t done half the things you set out to do." - Lexie, Second Sons Trilogy Book II: Eye of the Labyrinth (Jennifer Fallon)

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~1100-1417, so ~3.25 hours sleep. Man, not sure what happened last night; just couldn't go to sleep even after went to bed, so just stayed up watching movies. And come morning, still not tired. And when slept, didn't sleep for long. And when woke felt ok for about an hour and then crashed bad...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Not really there or wanting to do anything. Welcoming the NOT having to do anything much today...

Energy: SHATTERED...Passed out on the couch from ~1930-2124, adding nearly another 2 hours sleep...

Motivation: I am NOT going to be one of those people who never does what they wanted or intended to do. Every day is going to be one more step in the direction of reaching the stars and achieving my dreams!!!

Mood/Aggression: Too stressed and shattered to feel much else except irritation.

Stress: The sign is blaring red danger!

Libido: None.

Endurance: Ok.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Working for it during HIIT, and glad when it was over.

Recovery: Lack of sleep and fcuked up sleeping patterns when I DO sleep, definitely NOT helping anything.

Pump and Vascularity: Pump low in legs...Vascularity average...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs, shoulders, and arms.

Body Composition and Look: Feeling like I would if I had a "that time of the month". Certainly VERY uncomfortable and feeling like I'm holding far too much water and NOT liking it!

Appetite: Forced myself to be good. So what if my body has needed the extra calories and carbohydrates over the last week; I am NOT going to let it continue and ruin my progress (as the week off training and bad week of eating may have slowed it a little as it is)...Haven't been drinking enough and NEED to be...

Overall Sense of Feeling: I feel like I have been run over by a bus!

RPN Notes: The Flawless Skin Couture Intensive Dermal Restoration Therapy has definitely made a difference over the last 3 weeks of use. The lines and wrinkles that I had around my eyes have decreased noticeably. There are less lines, and those that are there are mostly faint, with only 1-2 deeper ones around each eye. This stuff definitely works!

MST Notes: Started using Shred Ultra at 3/3 from today.

[rantorcha]

Sounds like you are really struggling the last few days. But I am here to say...Hang in there! We are all behind you, pulling for you. I am SURE you will get it together soon.

[Rosie Chee]

Sounds like you are really struggling the last few days. But I am here to say...Hang in there! We are all behind you, pulling for you. I am SURE you will get it together soon.

I've been highly stressed and trying to get 48 hours into every 24 hours with work and sleeping and everything, so yeah...Maybe I just need a bit more than a week's break. But we'll see...I WILL get where I want when I want, so not too worried about that...Each bump in the road is just another obstacle to be conquered and another test of faith, is all...

[Rosie Chee]

Following in the pattern of the last few weeks and having today as this week's day off (and allowing myself another day to try and pull myself together again)...

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "You cannot save others until you first save yourself." - Brother Jeremiah, The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones (Cassandra Clare)

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0230-1156 (waking at 0955 and 1030), so ~9.3 hours sleep. Again, took me a long time to get to sleep...Sleep deep but broken and disturbed...Some interesting things going on...Waking and whole body aching and feeling too shattered to even want to move...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Still not in a place where I want to be focused on anything. Not even being mindless and watching movies is appealing...

Energy: I don't feel like I have anything...

Motivation: "If you want something really bad, only you have the power to make it happen." - Michelle Levesque

Mood/Aggression: Classic withdrawal.

Stress: One huge one down...What's left is still excruciating...

Libido: High am pre-sleeping...

Endurance: N/A.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: N/A.

Recovery: For someone who has done virtually NO exercise for the last week I sure am EXHAUSTED.

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...Vascularity normal...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs.

Body Composition and Look: Still sitting at 10% bodyfat; the last week hasn't done too much damage, but it certainly hasn't helped progress.

Appetite: Not wanting to be eating anymore...Need to drink more...MORE...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Breathing is hard again...Been getting chills, although not sure what THAT could be from...Need to KICK myself...HARD...

[Rosie Chee]

1759 - HIT (no recovery between rounds):
2 rounds of -
1. Skip 1 min
2. Box - Straight Punches 1 min
3. Skip 1 min
4. Box - Uppercuts 1 min
5. Skip 1 min
6. Box - Hooks 1 min
7. Skip 1 min
8. Box - Pitter-patter 1 min
9. Skip 1 min
10. Plank 1 min

1824 - Stretch 20 min.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Dream a better dream; then work to make it real." - Max, The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0415-1541 (waking at 1230 and 1536), so ~11.25 hours sleep. What is WITH all the sleeping???!!! Woke several times (more than can remember), each time with a massive headache and not wanting to move at all. Dreaming strangely. Woke with the hugest of migraines, head feeling like it was going to BURST...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Migraine has been so bad that taking all my effort to even concentrate today...

Energy: Have none. I feel so flat and exhausted and not like I could do much right now...

Motivation: "When we make our dreams a reality, reality becomes a dream." - Max, The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl

Mood/Aggression: Up and down, up and down...

Stress: One more thing on top on another...

Libido: The way I'm feeling, not a chance...

Endurance: Fine.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: Even though I felt like the dead walking I WANTED to train. Do SOMEthing. Not let this week be like last week. Every jump I made when skipping just caused my head to hurt, pounding like it was going to explode. Managed as best I could for 20 minutes and called it a day.

Recovery: SHATTERED (and not sure WHY).

Pump and Vascularity: Small pump in my shoulders...Vascularity just average...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs...Noticing the difference with no resistance training for a week...

Body Composition and Look: This morning there were deep grooves in my upper abs. Looking better, even though last week was bad re training and nutrition.

Appetite: Having - and needing - to be good...

Overall Sense of Feeling: A little confused as to why my body is feeling the way it is. The inability to work up the motivation to train. The lack of energy and the endless migraines and lightheadedness. The weird sleeping patterns and sleeping so much.

Other Notes: Today I used the last of my RPM, so going to be without it for a while...Also, have decided that, as I do with my Day Off, I am going to have my HIT day whenever I feel that it is necessary to insert between days 1 to 5, and just continue on with them consecutively after either a Day Off or HIT day.

[Rosie Chee]

Another day OFF...NOT liking how this week has started out...But I can guarantee that it will NOT end like it started, and be nothing like last week!

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Sometimes when you catch someone unaware at just the right time and in just the right light, you can catch sight of what they will be." - Mattie, A Northern Light (Jennifer Donnelly)

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0500-1427 (waking at 1230), so nearly 9.5 hours sleep. Deep. Dreaming, strange and wonderful dreams, and not wanting to wake from them, drawing inspiration...

Mental Alertness/Focus: Migraine hasn't been as bad today as it was the last few days; little more manageable. But still a long way to go...

Energy: Still woke feeling like sh*t, but with a little more than I have had...

Motivation: "You never fail if you know you did your best." - John Wooden...I AM going to do my BEST!

Mood/Aggression: Neither here nor there...

Stress: I am not helping...

Libido: Nope...

Endurance: N/A.

Strength: N/A.

Quality of Training: N/A.

Recovery: Not sore today...A small start in the right direction...

Pump and Vascularity: No pump...No vascularity...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs.

Body Composition and Look: Holding water and not feeling very comfortable.

Appetite: The bottomless pit. The endless vacuum...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Starting to come out of my funk. Good. About fcuking time!

[Rosie Chee]

1440 - HIIT Gazelle:
a. 4 min
b. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy
c. 4 min
d. 8 x 20 sec effort/10 sec easy
e. 4 min

1505 - Shoulders (1 min recovery between sets):
1. BB Military Press 12 x 15, 15, 12, 12, 10, 10, 8, 8, 8, 8, 8, 8
2. Lateral Raises 4 x 20
3. Bent Over Rear Raises 4 x 12

1545 - Gazelle 20 min.

1610 - Stretch 20 min.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "This is a broken world. Nothing in it is fair...But it's when you stop expecting that it will be, that miraculously you are given the strength to survive, the grace to forgive, and enough love that you can carry on fighting. It's the knowledge that one day this fight will be over, and that everything will be put right, and that all the pain and sadness will be so utterly forgotten. It will be as if it never was." - Anna van Homrigh, The Star Locket (Natalie Jane Prior)

Sleep - Time and Quality: ~0400-1230 (waking at 0500), so ~8.5 hours sleep. Fell asleep on the couch well before I was planning on it, and quite a bit before I have been usually when get up as late as what I did yesterday...Deep sleep...Some dreaming...

Mental Alertness/Focus: NO migraine today! Thank God for small miracles.

Energy: Had more energy today. Didn't feel like I was the walking dead, which is so refreshing...

Motivation: "All stories must begin at some time and with someone." - Cordelia, This is all: The Pillow Book of Cordelia Kenn (Aiden Chambers)

Mood/Aggression: Fine. Calm. Normal - if I can ever be 'normal'...

Stress: Some stress. Less than yesterday...

Libido: Possibly...

Endurance: Good.

Strength: Better in some areas and not in others.

Quality of Training: My skipping rope broke 48 seconds into HIIT Skip, so I had to improvise and ended up doing HIIT on the Gazelle. Was different, but ok...Resistance training was good. Right anterior delts hurting during BB Military Press, and pushing through for more afterwards...Post-weights gazelle was good...

Recovery: Fine.

Pump and Vascularity: Pump in hamstrings during HIIT and in anterior delts from fourth set of BB Military Presses...Vascularity normal...

Muscle Hardness/Density: Legs.

Body Composition and Look: So far from where I want to be. Feel like the last 10 days has set me back a bit, and that may be, but not going to let it continue.

Appetite: Only what I've had to today...Thirst back...

Overall Sense of Feeling: Starting to feel 'normal' again. Migraine gone. Wisdom teeth have gone back down. Sleeping still screwed up, but can manipulate that. Not crashing as bad as I was. Mental clarity and energy returning. This is good.

[crader]

Awesome! Now one month to go..lets do this!

[Rosie Chee]

Awesome! Now one month to go..lets do this!

Thanks Yes, lets!