i hate dieting...i hate knowing I have to put down the doritos and stop eating out...I hate it.
Ive been large and not so in charge all my life and it kinda feels like I have an addiction to food that i have to break. I mean, I see pizza and fried chicken on the tv everyday and I get teary eyed because I know I cant eat those things anymore. Its a friggin battle everyday.
But then I get pissed that im letting myself be completly controlled by food.
sorry, its just one huge vent. Im craving food and when I crave things I get...emo haha
You have an unhealthy addictive relationship with the pleasure of food.
Whether I am eating to loose weight (cut) or eating to gain LBM (bulking) I am never ever on a diet. I eat the very same foods all year long. The difference is only in the amounts and ratios.
The best thing that ever happened to me was that I was delivered for the pleasure addiction that is derived in food. You need to develop a healthy relationship with food. In a healthy food relationship it's primary purpose is nourishment. You have control of the quality and quantity and there is no guilt and shame. In an unhealthy food relationship, as you stated, it has control over you. It's primary purpose if for pleasure and it is a self perpetuating cycle of of guilt and shame and pleasure.
Seriously consider what LilPsychotic suggested.
I hated to see your negative-sounding subject for this thread, only to find that you seem to be a smart person who has come to the right place and have the right frame of mind to make a difference.
Keep up a positive attitude, the road ahead will not be easy, but the results at the end will be well worth it.
Watch movies instead"no food comercials"