well i'm three weeks into the following cycle:
wk 1-4 50mg dbol ed
wk 1-15 750mg sust
wk 1-15 600mg eq
some winny at the end but not relevant right now. here is the problem. for two weeks now i have been lost in a gray cloud of depression like nothing i have ever felt before, and as each day passes it grows and consumes more and more of me. i come home from work and instead of beign pumped about going to lift i lay on the couch and cry and then fall asleep till next day. now this is at 5pm or so, sleeping till 6am next day. i have no motivation to do anytihng, to lift, to eat, to even breathe. i have had depression in the past, but when i'm on cycle it rarely ever comes around, and certainly not to this extent. i've done very similar cycles in the past but never used eq. all previous test/dbol cycles were great with no sadness or apathy. could it be the eq that is causing this? i thoguht that but then i think well eq has a three week ester so it really hasn't even shown up yet. i have never used sust before, always been an enanthate/cyp guy. could it maybe be the sust? with all the different esters in it i'm wondering if there is a lot of hormone fluctuation going on causing ****ed up feelings. or am i just being a bitch? either way i would like something to change. last night i sat looking at a bottle of vicodin and a bottle of xanax and thougt, why not? i have yet to find a reason. if anyone has advice/experince/opinion, please give. thank you.