Well first off, hello and forgive me if this is posted in the wrong spot.. My name is Hank. I have browsed these forums for a long time now but I have just signed up to become a member just today. Well I am 168lbs, 22 years of age. Just like so many before me at such a young age and being so stupid and impatient I thought I'd try some pro-hormones. I workout with about 5 other people and they are all on them, and the gains they were making over the years were astounding to me. I had managed to maintain a body weight I wanted, which was around where I am now the past year. I started lifting back in 09 with a body weight of 137lbs. I figured that information was viable for some reason, but any way back to my main point. So my buddies are making massive strength and size gains while I am staying the same and slowlyyyyy edging along and falling behind. They talked me into trying what is called : Halotest-25 which I think is a fairly popular PH these days and some-what new. I hear it is a clone of p-mag. So I started a cycle of it on February 7th, 2012 and ran it till about February 14th and quit because I got scared I would **** myself up. I immediately went to PCT.. and not a good PCT either.. just OTC PCT's such as Reveristrol V2 and Testabolan V2.
NOW here is THE EVEN MORE DUMBASS PART TO MY STORY. Yes, even more stupid than the above. I got talked into running "Sust-250" Not the injection steroid either, it's an oral pro-hormone fairly new with about 4 different compounds in it. Made by D.N.A. just a short while after my PCT.. in April. It has 60 pills in it just like all of them and I started April 11th stopped April 16th. I only took 10 pills total. 1 in the AM and 1 in the PM. AGAIN I got the **** scared outta me so I stopped early cycle and jumped into PCT.. this time using A-HD. That month in March while on PCT I never noticed any negative sides. My sexual performance was good, no acne nothing out of ordinary. After the Sust-250 I noticed a little bit of acne but nothing sexually wrong with me either.
So I go back to a damn PCT.. again feeling like a fool.. but it gets even worse.. yessir.. I am this stupid but I think I finally realized just today that PH's and steroids just aren't for me, because of my anxiety issues I just am not man enough to handle them. Any way April 17th - May 30th I was clean. Finished PCT and felt fine.. only side was some depression, but I also went through a break up with this girl who meant a lot to me, so that could have just been that. Now to go back to why I said it gets even worse..
May 31st, a few days ago.. I started another cycle of Halotest-25.. I was for sure this time, that I could go through with it.. order a true PCT like Nolvadex or Clomid, get my bloodwork done.. do the whole thing right. WRONG. Today I got so nervous and anxious about it.. I literally had a panic attack. I talked to a doctor and he said he would straight up rather me inject steroids than use something like Halotest-25. Then my usual self, always thinking of the worst that could happen to just me.. I freaked and I just quit it.. I took 2 pills May 31st, 2 Pills June 1st, and 1 pill today - June 2nd 2012. I just started Revers.. and testa.. plus Hawthorn, Cycle Assist, liver support/milk thistle.. and in 2 weeks I plan to go to the fatigue clinic to get a physical and my blood work done to see just how bad I might have ****ed myself over.
Yeah guys, I know reading this is a pain.. I know all of you will think I am a complete and utter fool.. but it is the truth I am and I admit it. I will take on any flames that get directed toward me.. but I am here just to get advice.. opinions.. someone to talk to that really knows their stuff.. Do you guys think I have completely ****ed myself over..? So far I just noticed my boys are smaller.. they ache slightly every now and then.. but nothing horrible. I think that's a normal side from getting "shut-down" I am just hoping I didn't **** myself over so much because of all of those VERY short and incomplete cycle runs.. back to back PH to PCT.. I bet my Blood Pressure is so screwed up. I am just hoping my body isn't too damaged. I mean I feel fine, I don't hurt.. no acne.. nothing wrong sexually (so far.. anyway.. WHICH is my biggest fear.. not being able to get it up..)
I will leave you with this, I have learned my lesson. I will never touch PH's or Steroids again, because 1.) My anxiety , myself.. just can't handle the "what ifs" and 2.) I am too young and need way more experience on the whole matter before I ever even attempted it.
Also.. I don't know if this is allowed here on the site.. if not.. major sorry.. but I do have the bottle of sust-250 and the bottle of Halotest-25 left.. Sust-250 has 50pills from the 60 it came with.. it cost me 79 bucks.. I wasted and the Halotest-25 has 55pills from the 60.. If anyone so happened to want them.. I would be more than willing to sell it cheap.. I just figured there is probably enough left to run some sort of cycle for someone out there that KNOWS what they are doing with this stuff. I live in Tennessee but we could always figure out something with shipping if anyone did want them.. I'd go cheap as hell.. other wise I'll just throw them away. But I'll hold onto them for a while incase anyone here would like. None of the buddies at the gym really wanted them because they are running a PCT then going on a natural routine.
Anyway the point of this thread wasn't to sell the ****.. The main thing I wanted to hear from you guys about is your opinions on how bad or not so bad I may have ****ed myself over.. Thanks again guys.. and sorry for the shear stupidity of this ENTIRE thread.. Have a good night all.