Possession of a research grade SERM is not illegal. There are plenty of reliable research chemical sites that many of us trust and have had excellent success with their products. A little researching should turn up information and give you more comfort about the company's reputation.
If you choose the illegal route in the means of a pharmaceutical grade SERM, possession of a pharma grade SERM, while illegal, is not going to land you any hard time, provided the amounts you obtain are personal in nature. If you were to get caught by customs, your package will most likely be confiscated and life would continue.
I understand and respect your concern, both ways, but many people make a bigger issue about obtaining and using a SERM than is really necessary. Research grade, or pharma grade, there are lots of reliable options available to you.
Understood, but many people who know better and have experience with PH/DS/AAS are going to try to steer you in the right direction and that direction is to use a SERM. No one is passing judgment; rather everyone would like to see you run a safe and successful cycle while maintaining your gains and achieving homestasis in the quickest manner possible.
Did you overlook my post earlier where I indicated that even at 50mg, H-Drol can be very suppressive? Again, I speak from personal experience supported by blood work. Testosterone suppression is real. In almost all instances (there are some rare exceptions), introducing an exogenous form will suppress natural production. Simply put, that is just how it works.
I would like to add one more point. There is evidence that some SERMs are also beneficial in balancing lipid levels and returning HDL to a normal level. Lipid normalization is just as important as normalizing your hormone and liver profiles. Just one more reason to use a SERM.
In summary, and many will agree, a SERM at moderate dosing + OTC PCT products = safe and effective PCT. However, if I were only to rely on one over the other, I would use a SERM and ditch the OTC stuff.