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A friend knowing my history suggested I dig up some olds pics to post for comparison. I thought it was a daring idea, and as I sat here tonight looking at them, I am swept by emotion. I had forgotten how miserable I was...if that is possible. Perhaps my memory had suppressed the realities of my past.
There are many good bros here, and I feel comfortable in revealing this. When I said I was 135 lbs. at a smillar height (6 feet) in middle highschool, I was not exagerating. These pictures are from early highschool, just as I began thinking about improving myself. Over these years I have trained alongside many friends, seen their diet, training regiment (or lack thereof), and unfair growth. I know my shortcomings are unparalleled, regarding lightness of bone structure, frailty of frame, and pitiful stimulus for muscle growth. Now, my 185-190 pounds is not outstanding, in fact, given my dedication, it is lacking. Yet, in looking back at where I came from, and the waters I have traversed, the result of endless hours of unhealthy obsession and perserverence, I must confess I feel some pride. In my heart I know that if an average person had half my drive, or if I had half his average genetics, could be built like the pros. From the pictures you will see this is no hyperbole.
Now that the darkside is in me, and I in it, we shall see once and for all the truth behind AAS. By the end of this cycle in 12 weeks, knowing that I have done everything I could, the question will finally be answered - can AAS transcend *any* type of genetics, or will genetics trump all that seeks to fight it.
50 pounds in 5 years has changed my life. My favorite movies are Rudy and Gattaca, for they both speak on the will of an individual to triumph over his meager god-given potential. To newcomers, I hope that by reading this and seeing my old pics you will be inspired to know that you can meet any odds through hardwork, as long as that is your life's #1 priority. It of course is not for everyone, for in my example I have no choice but to always carry severe body image issues throughout life, pyschological inadequacies no amount of gear can overcome. To the vets and physically gifted, I just wanted to remind you how accomplished and unfortunate you are where you are. It is a harder goal for some than for others... and for me, it will always the most difficult, but also the most clear one. People say do not work out for anyone but yourself. But at the sametime, we all know that in this superficial world in which we live, the results of your hardwork may vastly change your identity.
In the first pics you see I only look small. BUT, once I show the proportionality with respect to my head, you will see how disproportional I once looked. And you can only imagine the ostracizing I was a subject to growing up. I did not seek to bulk only for physical growth; it was also to achieve an overall proportion so I do not look like a deformed alien. Take the pics in amusement...or take some meaning from this...I'm just glad I am speaking to an audience who shares a part of my passion and obsession, in part or in whole.
There are many good bros here, and I feel comfortable in revealing this. When I said I was 135 lbs. at a smillar height (6 feet) in middle highschool, I was not exagerating. These pictures are from early highschool, just as I began thinking about improving myself. Over these years I have trained alongside many friends, seen their diet, training regiment (or lack thereof), and unfair growth. I know my shortcomings are unparalleled, regarding lightness of bone structure, frailty of frame, and pitiful stimulus for muscle growth. Now, my 185-190 pounds is not outstanding, in fact, given my dedication, it is lacking. Yet, in looking back at where I came from, and the waters I have traversed, the result of endless hours of unhealthy obsession and perserverence, I must confess I feel some pride. In my heart I know that if an average person had half my drive, or if I had half his average genetics, could be built like the pros. From the pictures you will see this is no hyperbole.
Now that the darkside is in me, and I in it, we shall see once and for all the truth behind AAS. By the end of this cycle in 12 weeks, knowing that I have done everything I could, the question will finally be answered - can AAS transcend *any* type of genetics, or will genetics trump all that seeks to fight it.
50 pounds in 5 years has changed my life. My favorite movies are Rudy and Gattaca, for they both speak on the will of an individual to triumph over his meager god-given potential. To newcomers, I hope that by reading this and seeing my old pics you will be inspired to know that you can meet any odds through hardwork, as long as that is your life's #1 priority. It of course is not for everyone, for in my example I have no choice but to always carry severe body image issues throughout life, pyschological inadequacies no amount of gear can overcome. To the vets and physically gifted, I just wanted to remind you how accomplished and unfortunate you are where you are. It is a harder goal for some than for others... and for me, it will always the most difficult, but also the most clear one. People say do not work out for anyone but yourself. But at the sametime, we all know that in this superficial world in which we live, the results of your hardwork may vastly change your identity.
In the first pics you see I only look small. BUT, once I show the proportionality with respect to my head, you will see how disproportional I once looked. And you can only imagine the ostracizing I was a subject to growing up. I did not seek to bulk only for physical growth; it was also to achieve an overall proportion so I do not look like a deformed alien. Take the pics in amusement...or take some meaning from this...I'm just glad I am speaking to an audience who shares a part of my passion and obsession, in part or in whole.
