Hey guys, it's been a lonnnng time since I've posted, and also worked out. I've gone through a LOT of **** since 2005.
Back in Jan. of 2005 I started my quest for the perfect body and a healthy lifestyle, I started at around 210lbs at 22%bf. By June, I was 157lbs at ~11%, my workouts consisted of 5days of low intensity cardio for 40mins, weight training 3-4days a week just to minimize muscle loss. Diet was 40p/40c/20f with low GI cards, lean meat, and monounsaturated fats. In June once I felt I was lean enough, I added 1000cals of protein to my diet, I blew up to 185 at 10% and looked & felt AMAZING.
About a week after hitting 186lbs, I tore my ACL, it was devastating, I got reconstructive surgery, and was prescribed oxycontin for the pain..this is where everything went down hill. From August of 2005 until Nov. of 2007 I was addicted to oxycontin, doing anything I could to get a pill. My nutrition and workout regimine ceased to exist.
On Nov. 2nd 2007, I overdosed on 200mg of methadone and about 90mg of klonopin, (recommended dosage was about 1-2mg) They detoxed me cold turkey in the hospital, which saved my life. I have been clean since that day, It is now almost 2 years later and my life is finally getting back on track, I just was awarded a full scholarship to the University of Nebraska @ Omaha, I don't drink and I remain in a treatment program to prevent relapse. My issue now is, I take comfort in food. I am currently 246lbs at around 25-30%
I feel terrible and unhealthy, I have tried several times to get back into my nutrition & workout plan, but have been unsuccessful at maintaining it. I used to log EVERY calorie that went into my body, log every minute of exercise & activity in fitday. I am so lost & confused, I can't understand why I can't get my life back!? Bodybuilding was MY LIFE, my therapy, it was everything to me. I know everything I need to do, but for some reason I can't apply it. In 2006, during one of my attempts to gain what I had lost, I bought a nutrition plan from Bobo @ FLANutrition, I still have it sitting around somewhere, but at my current weight and BF%, I don't beleive it's going to be efficient for optimum results since I'm 35lbs heavier and have much less muscle. Someone please give me tips, pointers, motivating statements, ANYTHING. I seriously need your guys help. The only was I was able to acheive what I did in 2005 was thanks to THIS forum and all the members here.
Here was my old fitday log was 2005:
FitDay Free Calorie Counter and Diet Journal:*Public Journal
And here was a thread I started to follow my progress through that breif recomp cycle before I tore my ACL:
Superdrol/Trimax Recomposition Cycle Log
Please anyone, any help, any nutrition ideas, workout ideas, anything, I would sincerely appreciate it.
5 days cardio 40mins
nutrition: ????? 1800cals? 40/40/20 again? I'm not sure.