Well I have been posting and asking qeustions all over the place. I replied to a post by "Hunter" and he suggested I start a log. I which I had done this sooner. Not only will it help me to write things down, but I can ask qeustions, get answers and input and it will all be in one place. So this first one will be long as I have been dealing with this for six months. Thank you in advance for everyone who reads this. Also you all may get a little humor out of this. My actually name is Mark. SufferingED is an acronym for Suffering Erecytile Dysfunction. I figured if I can not at least laugh at my situation then I would go crazy. Wife puts a smile on my face sometimes by joking about as well. Well here it goes:
I am 37 years old and have been happiyl married for 9 years come May. We have three children from 5yrs old down to 2. Yes we are very busy. I am an avid runner. I run two marathons a year. When I am not running I enjoy lifting wieghts. I use to be into bodybuiling so I have a pretty large frame for running marathons.
Well last year I felt great. I had no problems. Life was good. I had lots of energy, and just really felt great about everything. I would wake up and think "damn it is great to be alive." Back then my wife would just look at me and tell me to meet her in the bedroom and I was ready to go. She receives Victoria Secret’s Catalog’s in the mail. Last year just looking at these would get me aroused. I had very strong morning erections, I remember going to the gym in the morning and thinking, "damn will this erection go away, I've got a run to get in." Now I wish I could say that.
I first started feeling drained and worn out around May of last year. I ran the Little Rock Marathon in March and felt great. I was seconds off of setting a new personal record. About a month later I was signed up to run another marathon. A week before I came down with a chest cold. I woke up the morning of the marathon and decided to run it anyways and not worry about time. I ran it, not to bad of time, but looked and felt like **** for the next couple of days. A week later I got fiexed, three kids was enough for us. This buy the way is what wife blames current situation on. As the year went on I started feeling more tired. I was not depressed but I seemed to lose the “zest” for life. Felt like I was just going trough the motions. Then in September I started having erectile dysfunction problems. I would just lose an erection in the middle of sex. Or I was unable to get one. This had happend to me before when we were tyring to get preganant with our second. I easly got over it though. All my wife had to do was stand naked in front of me say take me and I had no choice but to take her. This time though it felt different.It was not easily shrugged off.I started having more and more ED. I went to the Dr. and he had my testosterone tested. I started doing some research on Low T and found the signs, loss of sex drive, anxiety attacks, loss of morning erections, weight gain, loss of energy, all of which I had. The doctor called and said my T was normal at 411. I still was not feeling right, plus I had lost all interest in sex. A friend showed me a topless photo of Jenifer Anniston and I thought "oh thats nice." Last year I would have printed of the damn photo, gone home, and jacked off to it. So I went back and told him from what I read I need to be in the upper ¾ of 250 to 1100 which would put me at around 825. I told him how I was feeling and he put me on Testim, 5gms once a day. After the third week and into the 4th week I was really starting to feel good (best I’ve felt in last six months). My Ed problems started to go way, I felt great would get "woody" by just laying close to and touching wife, I still used Viagra though just in case. Then it went down hill again. I learned this was because my body had stopped producing T and all I was getting was what the Testim was giving me. I went back to the Doctor to check my T after 6 weeks and it was at 400. At this time I was still not getting any morning erections (I am now but not very strong, usually gone by the time I climb out of bed and get dressed). He did order some more labs, this time checking my Estrodial and Prolactin. My T was now up to 528 and my E2 was at 23. I did find out my Prolactin was high 15.9, according to labs indicating a range of 2 to 17. He then reffered me to Endo's office. They called and scheduled a vist for me first with their Urologist, and told me my appt would not be until May 8th with them.
So I went to the Uro. I did not tell him anything I had been reading. I wanted to see what he said first. I told him how I had been feeling and the problems I had been having. He said it sounded like I was suffering from Secondary Hypogonadism and the Endo's office should be able to take care of me. He increased my Testim to 10mg a day. He also said it sounded like I was someone who needed a higher level of Testosterone. he siad some people do fine at 500 and others need to be over 800. At least I now felt like I was headed in the right direction.
Well here it is four weeks later and two weeks before Endo visit. I am actually starting to feel worse. I still feel depressed, not bad, just still lacking that zest or go get it attitude I alwasy use to have.I still do not have much energy and have gained more weight. My anxiety has gotten really bad. I use to get it before sex, but then once I was able to get an erection, and we were into foreplay, the anxiety went away. Now it is worse than ever. I have it continously everyday even when not thinking of sex. It just gets worse when thinkg of having sex. I know it is performance anxiety but I also feel something else maybe causing it. My wife feels the same. My family has a history of depression so my wife thinks I may have depression now too.
I forgot to tell everyone that I did have a spike in sex drive for three months last year. I started taking Ogoplex. Man that stuff hsot the sex drive up. I was having rock hard erections, adn we were haing some great sex. I stopped taking it a month later was first ED episode. I tried taking it again to no effect.
So here I am. If I need to take depression or anxiety medicine then that could kill my aready low libido. Or maybe I just need to get my T up a little more and my prolactin down a bit. It has been six weeks since last labs and four weeks since Uro increased my Testim so my E2 could have risen also.
I know I need to relax, get my mind straight, and just wait util after Endo's visit ot attempt sex again.I tell my self this but then wake up in the middle of the night with an erection, think I need to do something with this, try to wake wife, get the rejection (she was tired, youngest was sick, she has test today). Now at work waiting for pissed off call from wife, telling the world about my broken penis and having anxiety attacks becasue since I tried something this mroning, she will want to try something tonight, it won't work and the cycle starts all over. Is it normal to look forward to your wife's monthly cycle! I think not. Hopefully I wll get this fixed soon.
I am 37 years old and have been happiyl married for 9 years come May. We have three children from 5yrs old down to 2. Yes we are very busy. I am an avid runner. I run two marathons a year. When I am not running I enjoy lifting wieghts. I use to be into bodybuiling so I have a pretty large frame for running marathons.
Well last year I felt great. I had no problems. Life was good. I had lots of energy, and just really felt great about everything. I would wake up and think "damn it is great to be alive." Back then my wife would just look at me and tell me to meet her in the bedroom and I was ready to go. She receives Victoria Secret’s Catalog’s in the mail. Last year just looking at these would get me aroused. I had very strong morning erections, I remember going to the gym in the morning and thinking, "damn will this erection go away, I've got a run to get in." Now I wish I could say that.
I first started feeling drained and worn out around May of last year. I ran the Little Rock Marathon in March and felt great. I was seconds off of setting a new personal record. About a month later I was signed up to run another marathon. A week before I came down with a chest cold. I woke up the morning of the marathon and decided to run it anyways and not worry about time. I ran it, not to bad of time, but looked and felt like **** for the next couple of days. A week later I got fiexed, three kids was enough for us. This buy the way is what wife blames current situation on. As the year went on I started feeling more tired. I was not depressed but I seemed to lose the “zest” for life. Felt like I was just going trough the motions. Then in September I started having erectile dysfunction problems. I would just lose an erection in the middle of sex. Or I was unable to get one. This had happend to me before when we were tyring to get preganant with our second. I easly got over it though. All my wife had to do was stand naked in front of me say take me and I had no choice but to take her. This time though it felt different.It was not easily shrugged off.I started having more and more ED. I went to the Dr. and he had my testosterone tested. I started doing some research on Low T and found the signs, loss of sex drive, anxiety attacks, loss of morning erections, weight gain, loss of energy, all of which I had. The doctor called and said my T was normal at 411. I still was not feeling right, plus I had lost all interest in sex. A friend showed me a topless photo of Jenifer Anniston and I thought "oh thats nice." Last year I would have printed of the damn photo, gone home, and jacked off to it. So I went back and told him from what I read I need to be in the upper ¾ of 250 to 1100 which would put me at around 825. I told him how I was feeling and he put me on Testim, 5gms once a day. After the third week and into the 4th week I was really starting to feel good (best I’ve felt in last six months). My Ed problems started to go way, I felt great would get "woody" by just laying close to and touching wife, I still used Viagra though just in case. Then it went down hill again. I learned this was because my body had stopped producing T and all I was getting was what the Testim was giving me. I went back to the Doctor to check my T after 6 weeks and it was at 400. At this time I was still not getting any morning erections (I am now but not very strong, usually gone by the time I climb out of bed and get dressed). He did order some more labs, this time checking my Estrodial and Prolactin. My T was now up to 528 and my E2 was at 23. I did find out my Prolactin was high 15.9, according to labs indicating a range of 2 to 17. He then reffered me to Endo's office. They called and scheduled a vist for me first with their Urologist, and told me my appt would not be until May 8th with them.
So I went to the Uro. I did not tell him anything I had been reading. I wanted to see what he said first. I told him how I had been feeling and the problems I had been having. He said it sounded like I was suffering from Secondary Hypogonadism and the Endo's office should be able to take care of me. He increased my Testim to 10mg a day. He also said it sounded like I was someone who needed a higher level of Testosterone. he siad some people do fine at 500 and others need to be over 800. At least I now felt like I was headed in the right direction.
Well here it is four weeks later and two weeks before Endo visit. I am actually starting to feel worse. I still feel depressed, not bad, just still lacking that zest or go get it attitude I alwasy use to have.I still do not have much energy and have gained more weight. My anxiety has gotten really bad. I use to get it before sex, but then once I was able to get an erection, and we were into foreplay, the anxiety went away. Now it is worse than ever. I have it continously everyday even when not thinking of sex. It just gets worse when thinkg of having sex. I know it is performance anxiety but I also feel something else maybe causing it. My wife feels the same. My family has a history of depression so my wife thinks I may have depression now too.
I forgot to tell everyone that I did have a spike in sex drive for three months last year. I started taking Ogoplex. Man that stuff hsot the sex drive up. I was having rock hard erections, adn we were haing some great sex. I stopped taking it a month later was first ED episode. I tried taking it again to no effect.
So here I am. If I need to take depression or anxiety medicine then that could kill my aready low libido. Or maybe I just need to get my T up a little more and my prolactin down a bit. It has been six weeks since last labs and four weeks since Uro increased my Testim so my E2 could have risen also.
I know I need to relax, get my mind straight, and just wait util after Endo's visit ot attempt sex again.I tell my self this but then wake up in the middle of the night with an erection, think I need to do something with this, try to wake wife, get the rejection (she was tired, youngest was sick, she has test today). Now at work waiting for pissed off call from wife, telling the world about my broken penis and having anxiety attacks becasue since I tried something this mroning, she will want to try something tonight, it won't work and the cycle starts all over. Is it normal to look forward to your wife's monthly cycle! I think not. Hopefully I wll get this fixed soon.