Dealing with Anxiety and Seperation.
05-19-2006 01:13 PM
Dealing with Anxiety and Seperation.
Needless to say it has not been a good month for me emotionally. 3 weeks ago my wife told me it was over (I'm stuck in Texas, she's back in South Carolina). Ever since I've been on a god damn roller coaster of emotions ranging from depression to anxiety. It wouldn't be so bad, but we have 2 children together and it just seemed so...sudden. I can't stop thinking about it and everytime I do I get a sudden rush of anxiety (i.e. my heart rate begins to increase, I get jittery and on edge, my mind races, etc). I guess I'm just asking for a little guidance from someone who knows what I am going through (or not). The feelings I feel suck ass and I'm stuck here for one more month before I can go back to California and start over. The gym helps, writing has helped a little, talking to friends helps, but I guess only time can heal the pain. I'm open to all suggestions/advice and I know you all are good for it. Thanks everyone and I'll be around a lot more once I get back to Cali. Nate.
05-19-2006 01:27 PM
I feel your pain NateDogg It is going to be hard the next few months ..The thing to remember between both of you , is how scared the kids are going to be.. Their whole world is going to be turned upside down, and it will take both of you to help them through it.. Just try and keep as busy as possible, go out with your friends even for a little while , you won't feel like it but you need to . Go to the gym , do something different ..volunteer in your area to help coach youth teams. In the end time is the only healing power. Make sure you have family and friends available to talk to if your having a rough time.. Take a long weekend and do something by yourself you have always wanted to try and do.Just make sure you both devote extra attention and love to the kids and try not to talk hateful or resentful around them.
05-19-2006 01:30 PM
When I read your location.... I thought it was because of work or something other than this. Damn Nate... sorry to hear bro.
I won't even to pretend to rationalize the feelings I would have if that happened to me. Especially out of no where like that. Just know that in time, things will work themselves into a new era and you WILL be okay.
Stay around friends and family and def don't quit the gym, not because you will lose size or anything like that... because it's something that you love and relate to and makes you feel like you.
Posting up the email addy... so email me...
From one fromer Marine to the next you know you got a "family" here... so use us.
Last edited by JonesersRX7; 05-23-2006 at 11:15 AM.
05-19-2006 01:30 PM
Only through sacrifice and loss can greater knowledge and power be attained....
Very sorry to hear of your hardships....I had one really bad break-up in my past, there were no children involved...that must be hard....
This might sound silly, but maybe try finding a hobby...when my relationship ended, I learned to play the piano...It was a great emotional outlet plus it took my mind off of the emotional torrent in my body....And I still play to this day...An unfair trade, I know.....My one true love for the ability to play the piano...But it has helped over the years. Have you ever been interested in learning a second language? or maybe a musical instrument?
Also, on a different note...There was an article posted here not too long ago that stated the possibility that cortisol causes stress not vice versa as originally thought...So maybe try some cortisol blockers?
Keep your head high, bro
And if worse comes to worse....you can always go out and screw everything with a pulse
05-19-2006 01:45 PM
You mentioned three weeks ago that she told you it was over. As those three weeks passed was there any change, or hint of change, in her mind? At this point do you feel there is any hope at all of things being repaired and working out between you two, for the childrens' sake?
I think myfathersboy's suggestion of taking up a new hobby is an idea worth looking into.
Above all else I am really sorry man, and am pulling for you and your family to come out of this alright.
05-19-2006 01:46 PM
Damn bro. Been there done that. Without knowing more details all I can say is hang in there and put your kids frist.
Where in So cal are you going to be?
05-19-2006 01:51 PM
What gym r u working out at, r u at the base here in Wichita???
05-19-2006 01:52 PM
Nate, I have not lost my wife yet, but we have come close to it. Truth is, you have to deal with it, and understand that you always love her, as she has had your 2 children, but also know that you will and can find someone else. Hobbys are great and you will vent alot of negative issues through your hobby. Talking is great also as you can address issues with yourself, and things to look for in yourself and your relationship. We are here for you, and use us.
05-19-2006 01:59 PM
Binging on Pure ****ing Rage
First off, I'm really sorry to hear of your break-up. The only advice I can offer is to focus on whatever positive memories you can drum up about your guys' relationship. That probably sound stupid right now, but if you cannot stop thinking about it/her you may as well remember every good thing you ever thought about her as opposed to the bad, that way you can focus on a positive reference point to help you move on.
05-19-2006 02:16 PM
Hey Nate. Although this situation I cannot relate to I wish you the best and hope things get straightened out quickly. Things will get better soon. Meantime be strong for your children. They will need you.
05-19-2006 03:25 PM
I don't know directly what you are going through. You may want to see if your wife would be willing to go to counseling prior to throwing in the towel. You have a relationship, a family and have taken vows (to, with and under God, I assume). That is a lot to give up; and she should be willing to do so only after doing the hard work of "making sure that is the only conclusion".
Running away from problems (as it appears she has) only dumps on others, and without a lot of hard work - the problems remain. I would hope she would agree to do everything she can to make it work; if for no other reason than to set an example for the kids that commitment isn't fleeting.
I would suggest doing what you can to get into counseling together; and if not together, then you may want to consider it alone. People look at emotional issues as if we should have all the answers, and we just don't. When people have serious medical issues they normally seek professional help; the same should be true for dealing with an emotional trama. Having someone dismiss you is indeed an emotional trama.
I'm honestly sorry for the situation you've been placed in. If you have a relationship with God, you might look to him.
05-19-2006 03:48 PM
Hey Nate. Sorry you're in so much pain, bro. Although we never had any kids, I went through the same thing with a woman I was w/for 8 years so I know, almost exactly, what you're going through. All I can tell you is that the pain will fade, somewhat with time. I don't think you ever get over it but eventually you do get on with it. The pain is unbearable at times and you may find yourself wanting to self-medicate w/alcohol and other things. Trust me...BAD IDEA! My break-up was almost like 10 years ago and while I've moved on and am in love with someone BETTER, every now and again the pain resurfaces. Like I'll have a dream about her or whatnot. I'm just able to deal with it better and nip that sh*t in the bud. You're going to go through periods where you try to make sense of it all and blame yourself which will then turn into blaming her. Then there's the anger (which helped me ALOT!) and then there's acceptance. I don't think there is really anything that will take your pain away but just know that you will survive and be a better man for it. You may not understand this now or for many years but you will. Good luck and stay strong, brother.
05-19-2006 03:53 PM
Been there, done that and she kept the T-shirt. Hell, i;mgoing through the stress part of it all over again now but it's work related. People will tell you to let it go or to keep busy or to make friends but honestly man, you're not going to be able to until some time passes because this is a major event in your life.
Panic/anxiety attacks are rough and the depression associated to it can lead to behaviors you're not usually accustomed to. You can force yourself to fight them off on the outside but the feels are still swelling up inside and it'll rip you apart unless you find someone to just spill your guts to.
Keep yourself healthy through this as you learn to cope because you have children that depend on you and family/friends that love you. Stay away from anything that you may normally consume in moderation like alcohol, drugs etc. You'll have a tendancy to lose that control. eat healthy and stay away from areas/place/events that will remind you of your life with your wife. Don't sleep through everything because that world isn't real and won't last. Get up and get out and stay focused on so much meaningless garbage that you have very little time to zoom in on those thoughts and return the bouts of depression and anxiety.
If you have the money get a temp therapist and if you don't get a friend who will just listen while you rant.
God bless and you'll pull through this because you're a good father and fathers are always there for their children no matter what.
05-21-2006 05:20 PM
Im gone for a couple of months and this is what I come back to?! Sorry to hear/read what is going on. My parents seperated when I was 5 so I kind of remember alot of what it was like from a childs standpoint. Hit me up when you get this.
05-21-2006 05:38 PM
I'm sorry to hear that Nate.
Good luck with everything. Just remember to think of the kids. (I went through my parents ugly divorce at age 12.)
05-21-2006 09:31 PM
I know nothing...
Damn, Nate, this is sucks. All I can tell you is try to meditate. Look up with your eyes closed and imagine a bright light coming down to the top of your head, it should help you to calm down and get rid of some negativity. I'll pray for you, man, stay strong.
05-23-2006 12:58 PM
Thanks bro. Haven't been around much so I was unable to get your address, but your thoughts are appreciated. Trust me, I'm going as strong as ever in the gym. I'll definately be throwing up some pics when I get back to cali for motivational purposes.
Originally Posted by JonesersRX7
05-23-2006 01:02 PM
Heh, sounds bad, but I've already had a couple of ladies in the past 3 weeks and have a nice little side trip to Vegas all planned out for my drive back to cali. Nothing like some meaningless sex to heal emotional anguish.
Originally Posted by myfathersboy
05-23-2006 01:05 PM
Thanks. I have tried and tried but she has made up her mind. I've cried way too much to cry anymore. I think it's time for me to move on with my life. I do plan on taking up surfing and snowboarding once I get back. I've always wanted to do those things, but never really got a chance to.
Originally Posted by BigCasino
05-23-2006 01:07 PM
I'll be in Fresno for a while. Once I get my RN I'll probably move to SoCal near the San Diego area. Not really sure yet. And I will always put my children first. I fuking miss the $hit out of them already.
Originally Posted by refrieddreams
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