chrisishere
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Being that im 20, i still feel like im 17, i feel unprepared, and below everyone else. This might sound like a rant but i dont understand how something hasnt clicked in me. I graduated highschool at 17 and started college, i moved into the dorms, back then i was 5'6 135lb, the average person there was 6 foot plus, and weighed close too 170-230, it was also more of a sports college, so everyone was a genetic freak, confident, chiseled jaw. I wasnt even average height (most being 5'8) for the chicks, so you can guess how many times i got laid my entire time there.
I was heavily involved on campus too make up for it, president of organizations, i got my weight up too 165, but still none of it helped. I was always the little short dude. It's not completely about that, i have no confidence, probably from being outclassed, did i mention most if not all kids their were 2-3 years older than me?
I feel like if i dont figure out how too change this it will destroy my life, i know how much environment affects ones psyche. Now everytime i meet someone all i hear is them saying "how ****ing short and small". It sucks cause i know im worth more than that.
My only thing i can think of is starting mma or boxing, whenever confronted by anyone their my fight or flight would just spaz out, i couldnt convince myself too throw a punch even if they slapped me. How can i finally "get it"?
I was heavily involved on campus too make up for it, president of organizations, i got my weight up too 165, but still none of it helped. I was always the little short dude. It's not completely about that, i have no confidence, probably from being outclassed, did i mention most if not all kids their were 2-3 years older than me?
I feel like if i dont figure out how too change this it will destroy my life, i know how much environment affects ones psyche. Now everytime i meet someone all i hear is them saying "how ****ing short and small". It sucks cause i know im worth more than that.
My only thing i can think of is starting mma or boxing, whenever confronted by anyone their my fight or flight would just spaz out, i couldnt convince myself too throw a punch even if they slapped me. How can i finally "get it"?