I had been seeing someone for a few weeks, nothing serious but he seemed so nice and accepting of my having lupus, and sometimes i had to cancel plans cause i was sick or feeling shitty, or my face was all red and painful.......I thought what a nice guy..........
( and size i know this is drama but really ignore it please i feeel badly enough about myself tonight)..........
I met up with my friend tonight and his friends, just to see a movie, nothing big.......well i woke up this Am with the rash on my face, redder and more painful than ever......i could tell his friends were like "ewww what the hell is on her face"......and i knew it......I walked out of the bathroom after the movie and i heard the guy i was there with say......"dude, dosent matter her body is banging and they are all hot in the pitch black, gros red face or not, cant see a thing"........
First reaction was, damnit now i have to beat him up....( kidding) but i turned to him and said..."you would have no clue if i was banging or not you moron, and you wont ever find out".........and I left.....of course i cried all the way home........not because i liked him....but because no one can accept what is going on with me, and i dont/should not expect them to.........even my ex who was one of my best friends, could not......pushed me away.......
<sigh> tomorrow is another day, and it wont seem so bad........thanks for letting me vent.......Night
( and size i know this is drama but really ignore it please i feeel badly enough about myself tonight)..........
I met up with my friend tonight and his friends, just to see a movie, nothing big.......well i woke up this Am with the rash on my face, redder and more painful than ever......i could tell his friends were like "ewww what the hell is on her face"......and i knew it......I walked out of the bathroom after the movie and i heard the guy i was there with say......"dude, dosent matter her body is banging and they are all hot in the pitch black, gros red face or not, cant see a thing"........
First reaction was, damnit now i have to beat him up....( kidding) but i turned to him and said..."you would have no clue if i was banging or not you moron, and you wont ever find out".........and I left.....of course i cried all the way home........not because i liked him....but because no one can accept what is going on with me, and i dont/should not expect them to.........even my ex who was one of my best friends, could not......pushed me away.......
<sigh> tomorrow is another day, and it wont seem so bad........thanks for letting me vent.......Night