Troymm
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I just need to vent
I'm so fed up right now. I feel like my life is one big disappointment. I have a bunch issues ranging from my health to my normal life.
I recently found out i have some medical issues. low testosterone, hypoglycemic/at risk for diabetes, possibly hypothyroid,gyno, etc.... I was also fat before and i managed to lose the weight. Even though i lost the weight i still look like crap, i have absolutely no muscles and i'm all fat and bone(skinnyfat). Its also been hell since i lost the weight , i basically feel like i'm living in starvation. My metabolism is slow and i'm craving food all day long because i never can eat enough without going over my calories,the weird thing is i was never hungry while dieting down.... I feel weak cold and lethargic all day, i also have completely lost my sex drive in the past year or two..
My college progress is also totally screwed up. Some bad things happened to me when i was 19(wasnt in my control) and cause of that i lost out on about two years of school. So now i should have graduated already but i'm only in my second year.
I have no friends to hang out with and obviously no girlfriend(lol), so my day to day life is as boring as it gets and i never have anything good to look forward to, ever. The funny thing is i have normal personality and people generally think i'm a cool peron upon meeting me. However i dont allow myself to become close to anyone because its tough for me to go out and have good times when i'm so depressed all the time. Bars and clubs rave hell on my hearing so i have to avoid those places also...
it sucks living like this, i feel like crap, have not accomplished crap, and to top it off i look like crap...
i hate to post this depressing stuff in here but i just needed to vent. I dont open up this much to people in real life because people naturally judge each other. The moment you tell someone your issues they either dont want to hear it or it automatically labels you as a loser...
I'm so fed up right now. I feel like my life is one big disappointment. I have a bunch issues ranging from my health to my normal life.
I recently found out i have some medical issues. low testosterone, hypoglycemic/at risk for diabetes, possibly hypothyroid,gyno, etc.... I was also fat before and i managed to lose the weight. Even though i lost the weight i still look like crap, i have absolutely no muscles and i'm all fat and bone(skinnyfat). Its also been hell since i lost the weight , i basically feel like i'm living in starvation. My metabolism is slow and i'm craving food all day long because i never can eat enough without going over my calories,the weird thing is i was never hungry while dieting down.... I feel weak cold and lethargic all day, i also have completely lost my sex drive in the past year or two..
My college progress is also totally screwed up. Some bad things happened to me when i was 19(wasnt in my control) and cause of that i lost out on about two years of school. So now i should have graduated already but i'm only in my second year.
I have no friends to hang out with and obviously no girlfriend(lol), so my day to day life is as boring as it gets and i never have anything good to look forward to, ever. The funny thing is i have normal personality and people generally think i'm a cool peron upon meeting me. However i dont allow myself to become close to anyone because its tough for me to go out and have good times when i'm so depressed all the time. Bars and clubs rave hell on my hearing so i have to avoid those places also...
it sucks living like this, i feel like crap, have not accomplished crap, and to top it off i look like crap...
i hate to post this depressing stuff in here but i just needed to vent. I dont open up this much to people in real life because people naturally judge each other. The moment you tell someone your issues they either dont want to hear it or it automatically labels you as a loser...