[hman85]

Yeah you can get them at Dive stores or like sports authority or some sports specialty stores possibly walmart. They are also airtight and watertight so anything will be safe.

[Xodus]

Man it has been a crazy week. In addition to moving at the end of the month, I decided 'hey, why not shake up my life further and look for a new job!'

I've spent the last week interviewing in person and on the phone. Got a few good solid things going and should know on one I am VERY interested in by friday. It will be a nice bump in compensation.

I am addicted to chaos.

Diet has been so-so. Hungry, but not for 'clean' food. The thought of a chicken breast or steak just doesn't do it for me right now.

One night last week I could NOT get satiated. One meal alone was over 1900 cals clean and I could have continued my gorgefest.

But then today, I looked at M4 in my tupperware, decided I just couldn't do it, so I headed to BK and wolfed down a Dbl Whopper, 3 Dbl Cheeseburgers, King Size O-rings and 2 bottles of water. Um, yeah, not so clean 3000 cal meal... Worst part is I absolutely HATE fast food. Not sure why I was craving it, but it was pretty damn powerful.

I don't even want to see my total for today.

Shots are getting so where I don't even feel the needle enter anymore. It seems to flow a little faster than the prop mix did too, even without warming it. Just been mixing TE & EQ and rotating glutes. Training has been mixed, anxious to hit it, but today my strength/endurance were WAAAAY down.

Lethargy is still hanging around a little, but I've been overriding that fairly well.

I have noticed some increase in night sweats. I wake up and my pillow was absolutely drenched.

I've added in NP's Yohimbine caps. Started out slowly to assess and am doing ~20g in the am. Will up it to ~25g and see how I react. I've noticed some slight pressure in my head, not quite a headache, just pressure. Could be BP? Could be the Yohimbe.

I realize that Test E is long estered, but I'll be damned if I don't feel a 'boost' now an hour or so after each shot. Also seem to get some decent wood the next morning too. I assume that its just the 'cumulative' effect of it entering your system.

Slight delay on the Neovar beta, so I haven't started that yet.

Continuing to lean out in the mirror, looking forward to the coming weeks.

[hman85]

Good stuff man thought you were dead. I get those cravings to man actually i have been fighting one all day.

[sfearl1]

Originally Posted by hman85

Good stuff man thought you were dead. I get those cravings to man actually i have been fighting one all day.

i feel ya. i've been having those it seems eod this post cycle. i've given in a little here and there but not too much. but dammmmn, does a dbl whopper sound good right now!

[pudzian2]

when I was on superdrol all I could eat was 'not so clean stuff' I just COULDNT do it. I dont know how else to explain. I just ate at boston market alot and ate a bunch of cheeseburgers

[hman85]

Originally Posted by pudzian2

when I was on superdrol all I could eat was 'not so clean stuff' I just COULDNT do it. I dont know how else to explain. I just ate at boston market alot and ate a bunch of cheeseburgers

I love me some Boston Market mmmmm

[Xodus]

Originally Posted by hman85

Good stuff man thought you were dead. I get those cravings to man actually i have been fighting one all day.

The reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated.

Definitely not dead, just a ton of stuff going on, some good, some not so good.

[Xodus]

Originally Posted by pudzian2

when I was on superdrol all I could eat was 'not so clean stuff' I just COULDNT do it. I dont know how else to explain. I just ate at boston market alot and ate a bunch of cheeseburgers

I am glad I am not the only one!

**** it was hard. I don't even like that sh!t but seriously that is ALL I could think about.

[pudzian2]

Originally Posted by Xodus

I am glad I am not the only one!

**** it was hard. I don't even like that sh!t but seriously that is ALL I could think about.

I was barely hungry! I was eating 3-4 times per day max and it was all high calorie 'kinda junky' food. didnt make a difference physique wise though. (at least not a negative one). haha

Im sure you dont have anything ot worry about. just get those calories

[dadream]

Great log Xodus, I have a quick question for you regarding the 1,4ad. Did you buy the bulk powder from nutra or was it from iForce?

[Xodus]

Originally Posted by dadream

Great log Xodus, I have a quick question for you regarding the 1,4ad. Did you buy the bulk powder from nutra or was it from iForce?

It was bulk from NP.

Still contemplating adding it back in now that the appetite has come back <in a bad way>.

[dadream]

I bought 90grams of the bulk powder so I'm hoping this stuff is legit. If you add it back and the problems still arise then I think it's safe to say the stuff is no bueno which sucks big time as I wanted all the benefits of a faster acting blodenone without the 3-4 weeks it takes to "kick in" with the injectable version. You would think the 1,4ad would make your appetite go crazy like what is reported with EQ. I wish there was more feedback on the bulk powder.

[Xodus]

Strength has started to dip a little, ok a lot actually and I am not too happy about it. WTF is going on.

I think I am picking up whatever is going around, seems everyone is infected with something right now. I've even started to get a cold sore now. Might be from all of the stress I've got going on right now, job, girl, moving, etc. but I haven't had one in quite some time.

My weight has really been fluctuating, I was down to 263 just before my BK pig out a few days ago, I am now back ~267, yet still leaner. I think I've lost ~1" total around my waist so far. This cycle is doing exactly what I had hoped.

I know the 'body fat' scales are completely off and I don't go by that reading, but mine has been 'consistent'. I use calipers & tape to measure, but based solely on the impedance readings (same time of day, same hydration levels) I've watched it drop ~3% over the last 2 weeks, even now at roughly the same weight, it is lower. Validates what I have been seeing in the mirror.

Yohimbine caps have been pretty interesting. I'm running ~25g once, sometimes twice a day. The head pressure is gone, but I get slight trembling in my hands/fingers. I will hold it there until that subsides and bump up another 2.5-5g. I only have another 10 days or so of them left. I am also going to be changing my Aromasin/Nolva dosing. My nipples started to look like they were getting bigger, not the whole 'breast area', just nips. Maybe I got paranoid, but they were definitely getting 'sensitive' and always seemed to be 'hard' for no reason. Sensitivity may have been caused by always brushing on my clothes from being hard all the time.

I upped the Nolva immediately to 20mg/ED and it stopped all of that. They look normal again now. I will back down to 10mg/EOD . Aromasin I will do 10mg/E3D unless symptoms start to come back. MOJO has a BOGO for serms right now, might have to jump on that.

I've got a funny story from this past week that I want to share. Sort of goes back to that 'bigarexia' discussion.

I went out to see some live music on Tuesday night, just sitting at the bar, working on a smoking little blonde when some guy comes up to me and asks what I did for work, before I could answer, he says 'Do you just lift Volvo's or do you smash them too?' I told him I was in IT. He didn't want to believe me. He kept saying 'You are a big mother****er' and kept going on and on until I politely turned and went back to talking to the chic. Not sure what she thought of the whole thing, but she kept talking to me anyway. Now why the hell would you do that? I mean, I wouldn't go up to a short or fat person and go on and on like that.

Time to add some baggy hoodies to my wardrobe...

[pudzian2]

Originally Posted by Xodus

Strength has started to dip a little, ok a lot actually and I am not too happy about it. WTF is going on.

I think I am picking up whatever is going around, seems everyone is infected with something right now. I've even started to get a cold sore now. Might be from all of the stress I've got going on right now, job, girl, moving, etc. but I haven't had one in quite some time.

My weight has really been fluctuating, I was down to 263 just before my BK pig out a few days ago, I am now back ~267, yet still leaner. I think I've lost ~1" total around my waist so far. This cycle is doing exactly what I had hoped.

I know the 'body fat' scales are completely off and I don't go by that reading, but mine has been 'consistent'. I use calipers & tape to measure, but based solely on the impedance readings (same time of day, same hydration levels) I've watched it drop ~3% over the last 2 weeks, even now at roughly the same weight, it is lower. Validates what I have been seeing in the mirror.

Yohimbine caps have been pretty interesting. I'm running ~25g once, sometimes twice a day. The head pressure is gone, but I get slight trembling in my hands/fingers. I will hold it there until that subsides and bump up another 2.5-5g. I only have another 10 days or so of them left. I am also going to be changing my Aromasin/Nolva dosing. My nipples started to look like they were getting bigger, not the whole 'breast area', just nips. Maybe I got paranoid, but they were definitely getting 'sensitive' and always seemed to be 'hard' for no reason. Sensitivity may have been caused by always brushing on my clothes from being hard all the time.

I upped the Nolva immediately to 20mg/ED and it stopped all of that. They look normal again now. I will back down to 10mg/EOD . Aromasin I will do 10mg/E3D unless symptoms start to come back. MOJO has a BOGO for serms right now, might have to jump on that.

I've got a funny story from this past week that I want to share. Sort of goes back to that 'bigarexia' discussion.

I went out to see some live music on Tuesday night, just sitting at the bar, working on a smoking little blonde when some guy comes up to me and asks what I did for work, before I could answer, he says 'Do you just lift Volvo's or do you smash them too?' I told him I was in IT. He didn't want to believe me. He kept saying 'You are a big mother****er' and kept going on and on until I politely turned and went back to talking to the chic. Not sure what she thought of the whole thing, but she kept talking to me anyway. Now why the hell would you do that? I mean, I wouldn't go up to a short or fat person and go on and on like that.

Time to add some baggy hoodies to my wardrobe...

your plenty bigger than I and I still prefer the baggie hoodies and sport pants just becuase I dont like the general public's judgement of my physical appearance, and 2, tight shirts and showing off muscles are for when the masterpiece is complete! IMO

[pistonpump]

Originally Posted by pudzian2

your plenty bigger than I and I still prefer the baggie hoodies and sport pants just becuase I dont like the general public's judgement of my physical appearance, and 2, tight shirts and showing off muscles are for when the masterpiece is complete! IMO

the masterpiece is never complete.


xodus is that the sexual aid yohimbine or the stim? i get them confused...im thinking himbine is the sexual aid because 25mg of the stim would be alot.