A log with vague goals

Smont

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I've been riding the struggle buss for a few months now and I gotta get back on track. So with no actual endgoal I'm just going to log my days. I probably won't be interacting a ton unless someone has a question.

Here's some background.

Even tho I got in great shape and maintained it most of last year, I don't believe I made much if any forward progress. My strength and overall size went backwards, most of that happened in the past 2 months. I was taking 75mg of test and some kisspeptin along with some peptide experiments. But also during this time I was barely training, barely sleeping, stressed to the max, crying several times a day (no not low test, I lost my bro and my uncle) stopped eating and lost like 20lbs. Then gained 10 back eating garbage. I did manage to hit the punching bag a few times a week and do some rehab type stuff but that's about it.

I had a big cycle planned, but I'm not worthy of it at the moment. I'm gonna practice what I preach and chill out.

As of this morning I took 200 test and 60 deca and I'm doing that 1x week. That's it until I've shown myself that my food and lifting is on track.

So with no concrete goals, no set meal plan, no set routine, I'm just gonna start going through the motions and log whatever I end up doing.


Today's goal is go to the gym, spend 30min doing boxing related work and follow that up with 30-45min of training 2 body parts or maybe il just do 2-4 total exercises, not sure yet.
 
Yesterday I drove 5.5 hours from Syracuse NY to home, slept a few hours and I've been up since 2am. I had 2 protein granola bars and 4 cups of coffee. For lunch I have a protein shake and a PBJ. Ya I know lol
 
You know I’m in on this….I’ve always enjoyed your logs. Go get it bro, you’ve got the knowledge, just do what feels right.💪😎👍
 
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