dont let your past bug you buddy i was allso picked on so i started body building. now im older havea job and dont get picked on. because im bigger well i am but im not arnold i look normal..
the people i work with are great guys and i dont body build now because i wanna be a big hardnut ido it because it keeps my healthy and makes me feel good about myself mostley appearence
So Peace bro dont think about crazy supps to make u massive get ur diet in check maybe some protien and then workout and feel good
Then if u really wanna go to other sups then ur making the right choice by not wanting to use Pro hormones or steriods