Jeffcarelly
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So I recently just got a new bottle of Mesmomorph with the 1, 3 DMAA in it. I've taken it twice now and I have concerns. I was wondering if anyone here could give me advice or chime in on this discussion. Btw I apologize for grammar.. I'm currently typing this on my phone at work, bear with me.
So I abused meth on and off for 2 years. I've been sober 5 months now and I feel much better and as months go by I feel my brain re learning things I had forgot and coming back to my old self.. one week ago I got my bottle of mesmo.. I took it gave me great energy and had a great workout.. however I noticed 3 to 4 hours after taking it I experience something very similar to a less harsh but still very close to a meth come down..
On both days I've taken it I wouldn't want to eat for hours and had no appetite. I also would do things I would do on meth such as Obsesive compulsive behavior. I would be glued to my phone for hours texting. A real strung out tweeked out feeling .. I also felt paranoia later in the day.. all these things remind me of a meth come down and I have decided I should stop talking this product..
It may work fine for other people but as for someone recovering from meth as myself with heavy abuse of snorting meth and staying up for days on ends.. I have rewired my brain and may have even developed early symptoms of paranoid delusions and skitzophrenia.. when I take this product it brings back all the bad memories and feelings of being on meth and I hate it..
My question is I am afraid to continue taking this products. I know it may not be meth but it has chemicals and compounds in it that mimic things very similar to meth.. I know the feeling all to well.. I feel like when I take this product it may be hampering my recovery .. the days after I use it I feel depressed and odd as if life is void and dull and it's hard to be optimistic about things..
Does anyone know for a recovering addict like me if this product is safe to keep using because I feel it is not.. I believe it may be doing more damage to my brain and receptors or dopamine levels that I do not need at this point.. it basically almost feels like I through all my recovery out the window and did a gram of meth last night .. although no where near to being as intense as meth .. there r very similar but more milder attributes .
Has anyone here noticed something similar ? Who may be in a position similar to mine ? I know for most ppl who never abused meth it must work great.. the same way meth works great the first few months Until it becomes a living hell..
So I abused meth on and off for 2 years. I've been sober 5 months now and I feel much better and as months go by I feel my brain re learning things I had forgot and coming back to my old self.. one week ago I got my bottle of mesmo.. I took it gave me great energy and had a great workout.. however I noticed 3 to 4 hours after taking it I experience something very similar to a less harsh but still very close to a meth come down..
On both days I've taken it I wouldn't want to eat for hours and had no appetite. I also would do things I would do on meth such as Obsesive compulsive behavior. I would be glued to my phone for hours texting. A real strung out tweeked out feeling .. I also felt paranoia later in the day.. all these things remind me of a meth come down and I have decided I should stop talking this product..
It may work fine for other people but as for someone recovering from meth as myself with heavy abuse of snorting meth and staying up for days on ends.. I have rewired my brain and may have even developed early symptoms of paranoid delusions and skitzophrenia.. when I take this product it brings back all the bad memories and feelings of being on meth and I hate it..
My question is I am afraid to continue taking this products. I know it may not be meth but it has chemicals and compounds in it that mimic things very similar to meth.. I know the feeling all to well.. I feel like when I take this product it may be hampering my recovery .. the days after I use it I feel depressed and odd as if life is void and dull and it's hard to be optimistic about things..
Does anyone know for a recovering addict like me if this product is safe to keep using because I feel it is not.. I believe it may be doing more damage to my brain and receptors or dopamine levels that I do not need at this point.. it basically almost feels like I through all my recovery out the window and did a gram of meth last night .. although no where near to being as intense as meth .. there r very similar but more milder attributes .
Has anyone here noticed something similar ? Who may be in a position similar to mine ? I know for most ppl who never abused meth it must work great.. the same way meth works great the first few months Until it becomes a living hell..