well ive used ph a few times stuff like, M1T, 4-ad, masterdrol, M1P, halodrol being the last. But something about the halodrol, I simply lost all motivation to work out and have scarcely been in the gym since i finished my pct. I used nolva, clomid, rebound and used an invers taper with my serm and ai. I used all the ancilliaries and documented my meals and workouts. I made great gains in the gym and on the scale but got gyno, have some sort of liver malfunction, and slight depression. Now this may be a culmination of my actions and my damage may have had asnowball effect but i feel scared to try ANY hormones now for fear of my quality of life being compromised. Im on lots of antioxidants and milk thistle to help my liver. As far as motivation its just not there and it started immediately after halo finished. when i was on i felt amazing, full muscles, and happy but i fear there may be more going on in this picture with new drugs and uncharted water. If i ever used hormones again ill stick(literally) with the tried and true. but at this point its just not worth it, not even for 30 lbs at any cost. I could be blaming the wrong things here but something about it just doesnt feel right. I have a friend who yesterday confided in me that since halo he hasnt been able to stay motivated in the gym and hasnt really worked out since. halo has caused some of the only noticeable permanent testies shrinkage that i have encountered. Maybe i set my self up to fall with the M1T and poor PCT i used but either way ill never use halo again.