muscleless
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I am going to come out and say it, between the ages of 21 and 23 i ran probably 8 heavy cycles of prohormones. The dumbass within me did not use a proper pct. Only herbal garbage.
Last year in july i had my testosterone tested and it was at 45ng/dL. Super low.
My doctor wanted to put me on TRT but i knew i had other options, so i got ahold of clomid and ran it twice for two months at a time at 70mg a day followed by 35mg a day.
My insurance stopped being active in august of last year, and before that happened, i had my levels tested. 346ng/dL. The doctor said it was the low end of normal but normal range nonetheless. However, the test happened while i was on the clomid.
I no longer have libido crashes, if anything i have a raging libido. I havent tested it since and i have no idea where i am at. No idea if my HPTA has restored. I have loooong since stopped using prohormones.
Im dealing with serious psychological implications of what i did to myself. My fiancee has no idea of any of this at all. She has been talking to me about having kids and i am worried it will no longer be possible. I know a year later, my hormones feel balanced out but i have no way of knowing for sure.
I have ran clomid several times solo out of paranoia and wanting to make sure i am doing everything i can to fix it, also have ran ralox for minor gyno issues, which can be mildly restorative to HPTA. I have no access to HCG.
My question is, am i hopeless? Have i totally ruined my chances of starting a family?
I'm not looking for condemnation, i know what i did was stupid, beyond stupid. I am just looking for help. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
Last year in july i had my testosterone tested and it was at 45ng/dL. Super low.
My doctor wanted to put me on TRT but i knew i had other options, so i got ahold of clomid and ran it twice for two months at a time at 70mg a day followed by 35mg a day.
My insurance stopped being active in august of last year, and before that happened, i had my levels tested. 346ng/dL. The doctor said it was the low end of normal but normal range nonetheless. However, the test happened while i was on the clomid.
I no longer have libido crashes, if anything i have a raging libido. I havent tested it since and i have no idea where i am at. No idea if my HPTA has restored. I have loooong since stopped using prohormones.
Im dealing with serious psychological implications of what i did to myself. My fiancee has no idea of any of this at all. She has been talking to me about having kids and i am worried it will no longer be possible. I know a year later, my hormones feel balanced out but i have no way of knowing for sure.
I have ran clomid several times solo out of paranoia and wanting to make sure i am doing everything i can to fix it, also have ran ralox for minor gyno issues, which can be mildly restorative to HPTA. I have no access to HCG.
My question is, am i hopeless? Have i totally ruined my chances of starting a family?
I'm not looking for condemnation, i know what i did was stupid, beyond stupid. I am just looking for help. Any advice is greatly appreciated.