Alright, so I've pretty much had it with my life. I'm 23 years old and my test levels are in the high 300s. Even back when I was 18 they've never gone past 415. I've had it with the lack of energy, depression, anxiety, lack of motivation, inability to focus/concentrate, and just the overall emotional issues and lack of libido associated with low levels. Besides HGH which was legally prescribed to me up until a couple of years ago for short stature, I have never tried any anabolics. I have been on corticosteroids my entire life for kidney disease and I suspect that that's probably at least part of my reason for ****ty levels. I have taken countless natty test boosters including AEN Ape, Pharmafreak Test Freak, Controlled Labs Blue Gene, Controlled Labs Blue Up, Controlled Labs Blue Growth, LeCheek Nutrition TX-3, SNS Inhibit P, D-Aspartic Acid, N-Methyl-D-Aspartate, LeCheek Nutrition AD-3, Iron Mag Labs Anabolic Matrix, DHEA, Iron Mag Labs E Control, and Black Lion Research Formeron. Some of these products have helped somewhat, but none have shown any real significant long lasting effects. Should I stay natty or should I begin dabbling in the world of Anabolics? Any idea on a good first cycle? Please do not suggest I see a doctor because I have been to doctor after doctor after doctor and none of them have wanted anything to do with me because they think I'm just a meathead kid looking for steroids. Not a single doc will take me seriously except for my old pediatrician who actually sent me to an endo who then proceeded to tell me I was wasting both mine and her time with that appointment. I take so many supplements for my emotional issues and I hate that I have to do that. I want to feel like myself again! I wanna be the enthusiastic, happy guy I was back when I was like 15.