Wow sounds like you went through some rough stuff. Glad you're getting it back. Congrats on those solid lifts as well am.
So ambien didn't help you sleep? I haven't had a full 8 hours sleep in probably ten years or so honestly. I haven't tried ambien or anything in that class of drugs really though so maybe it would work for me.
I'll take a xanex every once in a great while, but that doesn't get me a full 8 hours either. I also had a serious bout with anxiety and panic attacks a few years back but hate to put pills into my body so I learned how to manage them and they have gotten significantly better.
Go figure I'll pin myself full of gear but refuse to take something a doctor prescribes me for long periods of time. I haven't had very good luck with doctors though in my past.