KBD aren't you 21?
You're way too young for growth hormone. And GH without steroids isn't going to do for you what you think it will.
You have been blasting and cruising on Test for more than a year correct? If so, your gains aren't going anywhere assuming you keep working out and eating right. Maybe a slight loss in water retention that is all. And a SERM is not going to make you keep your gains lol.
Honestly dude just run your SERM for 4-6 weeks, take 4 weeks off, and get a blood test and see if you dodged a bullet or need to be put on TRT.
You practically put yourself on TRT for a year lol... it's time to put away the vanity and check on your health. Drop everything but the SERM and focus on recovering your HPTA.