I dont know what it is, but everytime I begin a cycle I always get mixed feelings.
I pump myself up so much thinking about the cycle and fantasizing on how badass its going to be, then I get there, into the cycle, my arms are exploding, I look superhuman, and I start feeling guilty. I can't figure out why...
I absolutely love the feeling, and the way I look, but at the same time I feel bad that I wasn't satisfied with looking normal. In no way do I feel like I'm cheating or letting anyone down. I just feel guilty that this is the way I want to look... I'm trying to figure out, why the hell do I want 18inch arms and a 400lb bench press?? When I get on cycle, I start thinking, whats the point.
So what about you guys?