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Ok here it goes, I KNOW I ****ED UP.

i was 20 years old 6'3 216 lbs around 10% bodyfat, i did a PH cycle of xtreme tren for 6 weeks before 2009 summer. i had good gains, gained about 17lbs of lean mass, kept only about 7 pounds of it. all i did for pct was a test booster for a month.

2 months later i did another PH cycle of tokkyo test and anadrol i think its called. the cycle was 4 weeks long and i did it at the end of summer. had good gains, i didnt have a source for any serms so i took nolvadex xt by gaspari for a month.

another 2 months later i saw that i have a bottle of superdrol or whatever its called i cant remember, took that for 2 weeks because its all i had.

now i know i was completely retarded and probably still am but i need help.

my sex drive isnt the same, i barely think of sex, cant keep it up for long it goes half-half real quick if no stimulation is on it... if im getting it on it stays up a little longer but if i stop, thats it. i can get it up multiple times though, maybe low suppressed test levels??? what doctor can i go to to gt my test levels checked and about how much would it cost? do family physicians do these things?

i want to get blood tests done but all i have is about 100$ in my bank account, im broke, got layed off.

during all that time i did 420 every other day in very little amounts, now i stopped completely because i read that it suppresses test and increases some estrogen. i thought that probably added to me not recovering...

what do i do? is nolva/clomid or HCG going to help me? i know HCG is very expensive and i think all i can afford right now is nolva and or clomid. would a 40/40/20/20 nolva/clomid pct do it?

please i need some insight.



edit: at the most i was 228lbs at 9-10bf% i was never above 11% bodyfat. now i am down to 208 lbs at i think 9-10% bodyfat, i been training since i was 15 years old.

currently i take tribulus 1000mg, horny goat weed, t-bol test booster, and i did another bottle of novadex xt by gaspari. should i stop all these?


cliffs for those not wanting to read:
-did 3 short PH cycles in a 7-10 months period (had lots of drama going on and it ****ed with me emotionally, i wanted to let it all out in the gym and be all me)
-barely any sex drive
-ball size seem normal maybe slightly smaller
-cant have it hard for more then a couple mins
-need help
-been off since december 11th now and notice barely any change in sex drive, and its only been about a week since i stopped 420.
-want my random rock hard boners back at any cost. i dont care if i lose all my mass, my **** is more important to me i just wish my dumbass would have read more about it.
 
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You screwed up. You know this. I understand money is an issue, but this is your health. No matter what the responses here are, I would recomend you go see a doctor as soon as possible. If true damage is caused and it is not just mental (it most likely is not just mental) the damage has a better chance of recovery the faster it is looked at by a DOCTOR.

Good luck man.
 
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DUDE you are ****ing idiot where did you get all this **** from. I dont know where to start!!!!!!

Go to the doctor immediately tell him exactly what you have taken, take the bottles if you still have them. If not print out the labels and take that, he should and if doesnt insist he does send you for full blood work. Even better ask him to refer you to endocrinologist. Three PH cycles in 6 months no PCT, God knows what you have done to yourself, hope you have insurance
 

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You screwed up. You know this. I understand money is an issue, but this is your health. No matter what the responses here are, I would recomend you go see a doctor as soon as possible. If true damage is caused and it is not just mental (it most likely is not just mental) the damage has a better chance of recovery the faster it is looked at by a DOCTOR.

Good luck man.
DUDE you are ****ing idiot where did you get all this **** from. I dont know where to start!!!!!!

Go to the doctor immediately tell him exactly what you have taken, take the bottles if you still have them. If not print out the labels and take that, he should and if doesnt insist he does send you for full blood work. Even better ask him to refer you to endocrinologist. Three PH cycles in 6 months no PCT, God knows what you have done to yourself, hope you have insurance
i was goin through alot of emotional ****, i wasnt in my mind. i know i ****ed up bad.


i dont have insurance
 
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i was goin through alot of emotional ****, i wasnt in my mind. i know i ****ed up bad.


i dont have insurance
How old are you? How is your relationship with your parents? I assume based on your irresponsible usage you are younger. I would be honest with your parents and see if they can help. It might not be the best option for you ego, but as I mentioned earlier, you might have cause SERIOUS damage and need to see a doctor.

EDIT: Saw you were 20 at the time, so around that age, take this advice.
 

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How old are you? How is your relationship with your parents? I assume based on your irresponsible usage you are younger. I would be honest with your parents and see if they can help. It might not be the best option for you ego, but as I mentioned earlier, you might have cause SERIOUS damage and need to see a doctor.
im 20 years old going to turn 21 at end of april. relationship with mom is good, we have a family doctor he's a cool guy i could talk to him and he could do some things for me for free (visits and everything) for tests i would probably have to pay

where do i start what doctor do i need?
 
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im 20 years old going to turn 21 at end of april. relationship with mom is good, we have a family doctor he's a cool guy i could talk to him and he could do some things for me for free (visits and everything) for tests i would probably have to pay

where do i start what doctor do i need?
go to your family doctor and like i said, lay it all out o the table, he will send you for blood work and depending on your results and his experience in endocrinology may send you to a specialist. First thing first get ur arse to ur family doc and get blood done

Good luck
 
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go to your family doctor and like i said, lay it all out o the table, he will send you for blood work and depending on your results and his experience in endocrinology may send you to a specialist. First thing first get ur arse to ur family doc and get blood done

Good luck
This is exactly what I would have responded to you with.
 

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post couunt


btw i did not get GYNO and my balls seem normal maybe slightly smaller, they are kinda big naturally....
 
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Find a way to see a doctor to get some blood work done and go from there. I'd suggest discontinuing all supplements and pick up a multi-v and give time a chance. It takes months sometimes but if you keep tyring to put quick fixes on it, you're just making the issue last longer than it needs to be.
 

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Find a way to see a doctor to get some blood work done and go from there. I'd suggest discontinuing all supplements and pick up a multi-v and give time a chance. It takes months sometimes but if you keep tyring to put quick fixes on it, you're just making the issue last longer than it needs to be.
thank you i will try that, a member advised me to do clomid 75/50/50/25 for a month, i ordered it and i will give it a try. i will go to the doc and get blood tests done before and after also. i really want to fix myself i dont care at what cost


by the way does anyone know if 420 does suppress test and increase estrogen? i gave it up for a couple months to see if i see any changes... i love it too much to give it up for ever


if any of you are in florida drinks on me for help im serious
 
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There really is nothing to discuss here, you need to go see your family doctor ASAP. Stop wasting your time on these boards and get on the phone and make an appointment. 99% positive that whatever youve done to yourself can be reversed, do not procrastinate do not **** up again and make that appointment.
 

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There really is nothing to discuss here, you need to go see your family doctor ASAP. Stop wasting your time on these boards and get on the phone and make an appointment. 99% positive that whatever youve done to yourself can be reversed, do not procrastinate do not **** up again and make that appointment.
i am bro i am i called the doc's cell he's a family friend, im waiting for a call back... he works across the street from where i live.



what do you think about the clomid for a month as someone advised me?


can i post my picture here or am i gonna get **** for it?
 
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Definitely no to any clomid man... if you have the money to buy these things you have the money to get some blood work done. Don't go ****ing yourself up even more. Clomid can have serious sides itself.
 
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I wouldn't take anything until you run it past the doctor first.

As for the pic, you might not be able to post it under 50 post count, if you want to send it to me, I can post it for you.
 
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i am bro i am i called the doc's cell he's a family friend, im waiting for a call back... he works across the street from where i live.



what do you think about the clomid for a month as someone advised me?


can i post my picture here or am i gonna get **** for it?
no go ahead, post away. Truly concerned for you but in regards to the Clomid i personally would wait until youve seen your doctor. This is a job for the doc not broscience, dont care how smart my fellow bros are, we dont have your bloodwork and have no idea whats going on, well we got an idea.

You can become a poster child for wat not to do

But in all honestly good luck
 
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Do you know what Clomid (Clomiphene) is? I would not take it if I were in your situation. You said that you were going to take jayhawkk's advice then said you were going to take Clomid. That wasn't his advice. Wait until you've been seen by the doctor and have had baseline blood work done. Taking Clomid will do nothing but **** your situation up worse.

...and google Clomiphene for Christ's sake. Don't just take sh1t because someone says it is a good idea. Think for yourself a bit. It's way safer. Good luck with your endeavor.
 

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call the doc. first
stop the tribulus at 1000mg (t-bol has tribulus in it)tribulus kills my sex drive.
novdex kills my sex drive also.
p.s. l-dopa gives me morning wood like a rock star every time
 
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Do you know what Clomid (Clomiphene) is? I would not take it if I were in your situation. You said that you were going to take jayhawkk's advice then said you were going to take Clomid. That wasn't his advice. Wait until you've been seen by the doctor and have had baseline blood work done. Taking Clomid will do nothing but **** your situation up worse.

...and google Clomiphene for Christ's sake. Don't just take sh1t because someone says it is a good idea. Think for yourself a bit. It's way safer. Good luck with your endeavor.
This guy is killing me, he just ****ed himself up taking **** he had no idea about and wants to take more **** thats he has no ****ing idea about to try and fix the **** up from the previous ****. Holy **** man.

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Nice pic. when is this picture from? You just went up a notch, just one tho
 

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Nice pic. when is this picture from? You just went up a notch, just one tho
im a big guy bro i been training since i was 15 hardcore i just made a really ****ed up decision with the PH's, as i said i was really emotionally ****ed up... im not flexing in the pic either, it was like in the high 30's here in FL, and thats extremely cold here....thats by the beach with all the wind and crap too


pic was taken 1/3/2010 its my first photoshoot.... i was about 218lbs there now im 208 lbs, im not flexing in the pic


IMO i think the problem is that i got low suppressed test and higher then normal estrogen.... i need to block the estrogen and fix the test levels... just my .2, how do i do this?

doc has not called back yet
 
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im a big guy bro i been training since i was 15 hardcore i just made a really ****ed up decision with the PH's, as i said i was really emotionally ****ed up


pic was taken 1/3/2010 its my first photoshoot.... i was about 218lbs there now im 208 lbs, im not flexing in the pic
yes you are and yes you did, get if fixed you will be fine

Keep us posted, very interested as to how your blood comes back

good luck
 

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yes you are and yes you did, get if fixed you will be fine

Keep us posted, very interested as to how your blood comes back

good luck
i will man i promise. i would have done the right PCT after the damn cycle's its just i didnt have a fcking source that what pisses me off and everytime i asked people no one would tell me so i said **** it
 

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also what blood tests do i ask for?

are they called testosterone blood tests or just blood tests and it will show me everything?

i need the estrogen levels too


my bad for all the questions... i just understand things better when people tell me in their own words... im european so all the hard medicine words are out of my dictionary
 
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Your doctor will know what tests to order. I'm not as versed as others on this board but you want, a full liver enzyme panel and a full hormone panel. And don't take ANYTHING besides a multi-V until you see a doctor and have blood work done. It is probably a good idea to stay away from anything hormonal for a good long while as well.
 

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full hormone blood test
Your doctor will know what tests to order. I'm not as versed as others on this board but you want, a full liver enzyme panel and a full hormone panel. And don't take ANYTHING besides a multi-V until you see a doctor and have blood work done. It is probably a good idea to stay away from anything hormonal for a good long while as well.
thank you will do, what about horny goat weed and zma?
 

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i would stop everthing untill you talk to your doc.
 
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also what blood tests do i ask for?

are they called testosterone blood tests or just blood tests and it will show me everything?

i need the estrogen levels too


my bad for all the questions... i just understand things better when people tell me in their own words... im european so all the hard medicine words are out of my dictionary
No problem buddy... Dont worry about any of that, your doctor will send you for full blood work, everything will be covered in the results, then based on those you and he will make a game plan and take it from there.


Keep us posted
 

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btw 420= marijuana for those not aware, i stopped it now completely but i really do not want to give it up for-ever. makes life way better then it is.


reason i stopped: read it might suppress test levels a little and increase estrogen levels... i think that might be my problem because it probably didnt let my body recover while i was off cycle and kept my test levels suppressed and estrogen increased which is what i needed exactly to get me ****ed up.

^^^ idk if that is true or not, i dont think there's alot of scientific info on that but they do say that it does suppress test and increase estrogen slightly... and it was all i needed probably
 

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think most ppl know what 420 is
i think moderation is a good thing.
 

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think most ppl know what 420 is
i think moderation is a good thing.
If you work out heavily, I doubt that the 420 has any real harmful effects, Im sure a good portion of this board endulges often.
whew awesome lol, i dont smoke alot maybe a 8th in 3 weeks... some people do 2x that in a day :)


those are some good news at least !!!! made me happy
 

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got a doc's appointment its friday in the morning, ill def update :)
 

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there's def good blood-flow to my piece... there's just not enough test to keep it up for long
 

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As for the 420, I wouldn't sweat it none.
thats good to hear :)


got with a girl yesterday, i had it up while making out and while gettin head but then... the bad thing happened :(



can i get some cialis? is it gonna **** me up more or is it ok to take?
 
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thats good to hear :)


got with a girl yesterday, i had it up while making out and while gettin head but then... the bad thing happened :(



can i get some cialis? is it gonna **** me up more or is it ok to take?
Again, not that I have a source for you because I really don't have a source for anything, but you should not take anything without the doctor's consent, your at a point where your body might be completely out of control internally, Hormones are a very strange beast to **** with, and taking anything without proper advice would be a bad idea.
 

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Again, not that I have a source for you because I really don't have a source for anything, but you should not take anything without the doctor's consent, your at a point where your body might be completely out of control internally, Hormones are a very strange beast to **** with, and taking anything without proper advice would be a bad idea.
Just wait until tomorrow man. The doc may put you on something like that. Have patience bro. It'll pay off.
i have multiple sources for everything now... havent ordered the cialis yet, i did order the clomid tho, i wont take it until i get blood tests done.

what sucks is that right now i got bitches all over the place when i cant get it up!!!!!!!!!!! **** ME!

btw i do get morning wood not every day but i still do, you guys think im shut down right?
 
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i have multiple sources for everything now... havent ordered the cialis yet, i did order the clomid tho, i wont take it until i get blood tests done.

what sucks is that right now i got bitches all over the place when i cant get it up!!!!!!!!!!! **** ME!

btw i do get morning wood not every day but i still do, you guys think im shut down right?
hard to tell whats going on without your blood results but your hormones are ****ed up for sure, just hang in their big buddy, the ladies will wait for you. Hold off on buying Clomid or any other **** you may need the money for a specialist and prescriptions.

You will be fine

Good luck with the doctor tomorow and definitely keep us posted
 
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hard to tell whats going on without your blood results but your hormones are ****ed up for sure, just hang in their big buddy, the ladies will wait for you. Hold off on buying Clomid or any other **** you may need the money for a specialist and prescriptions.

You will be fine

Good luck with the doctor tomorow and definitely keep us posted
If you dont have the bottles from the gear that you took you can find the labels here on the internet. Print them out so the doc will have a better idea what is in your system, he will definitely ask, so save yourself time.

Superdrol NG supplement facts

90 Capsules
Supplement Facts
Serving Size1Capsule
Servings Per Container90
Amount Per Serving % Daily Value
Anabolic Driver (Pro-Hormone):
Prasterone(Delta-5-Androsten-3b-Ol-17-One) 170mg
Estrogen Eliminator:
ATD(6-Etioallochol-1,4-Diene-3,17-Dione) 7.5mg
Injection Matrix:
MX-C(3,7-Dihydro-1,3,7-Trimethyl-1H-Purine-2,6-Dione) 150mg
Aphrodine HCL 3mg
Metabolic HPTA Support Complex:
Gokshura Extract(45% Steroidal Saponins: Tribol, Furostanol, And Protodioscin) 150mg
Trigonella Isolates(50% 25a-Spirosta-3,5-Diene, 20% 4-Hydroxyisoleucine)
 

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If you dont have the bottles from the gear that you took you can find the labels here on the internet. Print them out so the doc will have a better idea what is in your system, he will definitely ask, so save yourself time.

Superdrol NG supplement facts

90 Capsules
Supplement Facts
Serving Size1Capsule
Servings Per Container90
Amount Per Serving % Daily Value
Anabolic Driver (Pro-Hormone):
Prasterone(Delta-5-Androsten-3b-Ol-17-One) 170mg
Estrogen Eliminator:
ATD(6-Etioallochol-1,4-Diene-3,17-Dione) 7.5mg
Injection Matrix:
MX-C(3,7-Dihydro-1,3,7-Trimethyl-1H-Purine-2,6-Dione) 150mg
Aphrodine HCL 3mg
Metabolic HPTA Support Complex:
Gokshura Extract(45% Steroidal Saponins: Tribol, Furostanol, And Protodioscin) 150mg
Trigonella Isolates(50% 25a-Spirosta-3,5-Diene, 20% 4-Hydroxyisoleucine)
i took xtrem tren 2 bottles, 4 weeks,
then tokkyo nutrition test and anidrol stacked together 1 bottle of each, 4 weeks
and h-drol 1 bottle 2 weeks

i printed them out like you said just incase :)

all that happened between may or june 2009- december 11th 2009 was last day of h-drol.
 
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i took xtrem tren 2 bottles, 4 weeks,
then tokkyo nutritin test and anidrol or however you spell it, 4 weeks
and h-drol 1 bottle 2 weeks

i printed them out like you said just incase :)

all that happened between may or june 2009- december 11th 2009 was last day of h-drol.
damn thats a lot of gear in 6 months
 

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damn thats a lot of gear in 6 months
i know. i dont know what the hell was in my stupid ****ing head when i took this ****, seriously. just these ****ing emotions got on me bc of bitches,breaking up and **** and idk i lost it

at least the cycles were short so maybe i didnt **** myself up completely


i dont even want to think about what i did, i just get pissed of and rage
 

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