It feels like roid rage, but thereís no reason to believe thatís it. It does feel like an incredible amount of testosterone is floating around in my bloodstream right now though. Who knows what the problem is, my diet? Muscle stimulation, stress, or just the fact that Iíve been stuck out here without a beer, a p*ssy or an escape for far to long. (This is my 7th month at sea...)
Daily occurrences begin to anger me more and more. I canít deal with everyoneís petty bullsh*t anymore. I randomly want to fight people that say something stupid, that months before, might have been slightly entertaining.
I get random boners the size of a baseball bat a dozen times a day. All I can think about is wet p*ssy and violence. Maybe there is something seriously wrong with my body chemistry. I want to fight or f*ck sooo d*mn bad. I canít sit still, Iím jittery as h*ll, and I feel a constant desire for stimulants of any type
and of large quantities. SOMEBODY HELP before I have a strokeÖ!!!
The only things that seem to help are insane sessions pumping iron but I canít do that everyday or my muscles will never recover properly. The other thing is video gamesÖviolent, first person shooters or any driving game where I am regularly averaging 170 mph or better...LOL With a work day as long as mine are the only times I have to play video games are when I should be sleeping and thatís only if any of the other 17 guys in my division arenít controlling the only TV we have. God knows I need the rest. Especially considering Iím having problems sleeping.
I could get sick of listening to the same music over and over again but I canít stop listening to extremely loud metal. The louder, the better. If I had something I could take to suppress the f*ck out of my nuts like an artificial estrogen I would eat the whole bottleÖ I know that everyone reading this is ****ting
themselves right now but I am going nucking futs! Iím not cycling anything right now other than a basic fat burnerÖ
This thread probably just erased the possibility of any reputation points in the future but I'm seriously losing it and I need somebody's input. My g/f emails me once in a while but I can't tell her all this sh*t or she'll go apesh*t...LOL