Ive been a member of this forum for a very long time. The majority of the time i reply in threads about, anabolics, TRT with Gel(s), shots etc..
Here is my problem
A little history first.
1. Starting cycling steroids when I was 21 years old. At 21 I had already noticed my erection strength or ability was not what it once was, but when I would run a cycle, everything would be great.. Just like I was a teenager again. I didnt run juice for this reason, but quickly learned TEST was a God Send!!
2. Continued cycling up unitl I was 28-30.. At this point I got married and had already told my wife I took a TRT dose of cyp from the black market because I couldnt find any doctor to treat me for low T even though I had labs drawn thru my 20's showing my test being very low.. ( in the 200's always ).
3. Got on Androgel @10% with an estro blocker ( Evista ) because I am very sensitive to estrogen and cant mess with any 19 Nor products or I get Progesterone gyno. I learned that the hard way young!!
4. Discontinued Androgel Therapy at 30 to start a family and went on Clomid at 50 mgs a day. I did great with that, test levels always in the medium range but after years of using it, my labs came back lower and lower.
5. Finished having kids and went back on TRT Androgel again 2 years ago,but this time around I noticed things were not as they had been before when on the gel. I didnt have the energy I should have.. Erection strength was not very good. Gym training I did okay,but still nothing as before.
Finally 2 weeks ago I came off trt again and started back on clomid therapy to see if I could become somewhat normal and not need cialis or viagra for good sexual function.
Ive read allot of Matrix post over the last couple of years and have seen where he would say, 12.5 mgs M, W, F seems to work better for people and you dont build a tolerance to the drug and have diminishing results. I went ahead and started at 50 mgs per day to get me going, but I havent seen any effects yet.
Ive been low emotionally, which I expect, and sex isnt going to happen without allot of help and then its not 100%.
I am considering adding in a supplement to boost test and free test or something? I dunno man.. I cycled for a long time, but never stayed on over 12-16 wks ever.. But with TRT Ive been on for years straight..
I figured I would run the clomid until I at least start to feel better and possibly "function" normally at which point I would switch to 12.5 mgs M.W.F of clomid and go from there.. I also wondered if I should add in a natural test booster of some sort to aid since Ive been shut down for sooo long. Id like to see where my levels would actually stabilize at off of everything some months down the line from now.
I go every 6 months to my Endo to get all my levels checked and addressed..I would just like to return to normal if at all possible.. I have an issue at 38 years old not being able to perform sexually with my 30 yr old wife and not feeling good like I should especially when I am on TRT..
I also understand anyones advice is not to be viewed as a medical docotor ( even if you are one ) and that anything I do is on my own and I hold no one responsible but myself for the outcome..