It has been a rough time, but of course you can only do two things about it:
Run from the issues at hand
Stand and take it, firing back with all you have..
I decided to stand and fight, I made it thru afew turns of fate in my life that I don't wish on anyone.. I lost my grandmother at the young age of 89 years, she never did like to be considered old.. I was close to her, practially raised by the woman as was many of my cousins.. Anyone who met her was considered part of the family, then again, it was one of her many Italian qualities besides her phenomonal cooking.. After her passing, I almost gave up, I began to drink and I was already losing alot of the solid muscle I was known to aquire over the past 11 years I've been beating myself senseless in gyms all over the city.. Rock bottom it was, I blamed myself for not being better, for not being a good father, for not being the best grandson..
Time to stand and fight! I plan to rebuild what I've lost, my doctor believes that the stress I went thru and my loss of a healthy lifestyle is the real problem, on top of my present issues with my natural androgens.. It appears that I may not be on stage this coming summer of 2003, so I can concentrate on the weakpoints, and bring out a more solid package than I used to grab the 3rd place as the only natural athlete at this past September's NPC show in New Hampshire... I'm not saying I'll be a light-skinned Ronnie Coleman in 3 weeks, but I will do my damn best to get through, and to once again be "the man to go to", not that I would ever claim I was all that to begin with..
I just want to thank all of those with their kind words during my hour of darkness, those of you I've had the pleasure of meeting offline I plan to do so again in the near future.. If things go well enough, maybe I'll oil up for another pose-down next September! You guys are the real inspiration, because without the one's who say "It can't be done!", I try to be the one who says, "It can be done, watch me!".. It's that time I did that more often, so I can show those who can't that they really can...