Sorry to read about this, MP! Complex emotional things of this type that cannot be explained rationally are usually deeply disturbing and distracting. And can haunt us years after, if not managed properly. There have been many useful pieces of advice by earlier posters, but in the final analysis only you can decide your next step. To make that happen, it might help to have a serious talk with her to help you focus yourself. It might help you put the events of the recent past into perspective. This may also help cement your resolve to move forward. I wish you a lot of strength in these trying times. Like Verner (at NutraPlanet) would say: "Peaceful Journey", my friend!